Back frm lunch.. spent a BOMB on.. ahem..

Had lunch at Golden shoe as usual.. met Ker Hsien.. ate duck rice..

Was so tempted to get a bowl of dessert.. bt thot twice cos I'm really putting on weight.. I'm like SOOOO heavy now.. and it's nt helping tt my tummy's getting bigger.. n my butt probably is too.. sigh.. the results of eating n sitting down.. sigh..

Have anyone of u thot... what would u do if u gt pregnant now.. or for guys.. if ur gf gt pregnant now..

I was reading an article yest sm guys leave the gals.. some stayed together.. some decided to abort.. others decided to raise the child themselves while some gave the child up for adoption..

Sm ppl do it cos of a moment's pleasure.. sm is out of curiousity.. whatever it is.. there was little or no precaution taken.. hence the prob..

If it were me.. I guess.. I wun want dear to take responsibility even if he wants to.. for the simple reason cos I dun wanna burden him for life.. I mean it's like a lifetime commitment.. we're all too young.. no one really knows how to handle this kinda prob.. tt's y we shouldn't do it in the 1st plc.. in this case.. we can prevent having this kinda prob and the risk of getting STDs..

In the office.. sitting beside Lily.. listening to her talk abt her daughter who's in the sch of commando.. so cool! She's doing air.. can do sky-diving.. pack parachutes.. dangerous.. like.. how many ppl's lives are in ur hands?!?

I've nt personally known any female commandos.. I guess she's the 1st.. although it's nt personal bt.. at least it's smtg.. :p

I'm tired.. dear's tired.. wonder how dar's doing..

Tmr's poly forum event starts at 8am.. like HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GOING TO GET UP AND REACH THERE ON TIME?!?

Then... it ends at 4 and I've gotta rush down to ecp cos bbq starts at 5.. nvm.. I'll reach by 6.. *hopes*

I dun even know how to go to ecp frm sch.. sigh.. take the mrt to bedok.. then take bus.. or smtg like tt...

Back!

I went to take a stroll down to Warung Nasir.. it's nt tt bad a plc.. small.. bt ok.. and guess what the surprise was?

I know tt Kelvin.. Kelvin Chan.. ex-manager of Renn Thai.. we worked together b4.. tt time we didn't have dinner so we went upstairs to Breeks to eat.. he gave me a treat.. then we went drinking once with Agus.. yup..

He couldn't recognise me.. and I dun expect him to.. bt I rmb him.. :)

Another... 1 over hr & I'll be done for the day.. gotta rush down to nyp to help nat with her grading.. *hope she passes*

Dear's working.. Dar's at home.. I'm working.. or supposed to be rather..

They're selling Sara Lee's ice cream downstairs.. looks tempting bt I'm supposed to be on diet.. like real.. I juz dun wanna grow fat.. cos I alr am gaining weight..

Today's Min-Li's (lawyer) b'day.. she's alr gt 3 bouquets of flowers.. one came in a rectangular vase.. with pink "gel" as the bottom.. stones.. and pink roses stuck into it.. V nice.. the other 2 are BIG bouquets.. v sweet.. :)

Gd morning..

Today dear woke up grudgingly.. His mum went to the mkt to buy stuff and it's alr 9.05 so he was angry with her..

Dear.. dun be like tt k? I'm sure ur mum didn't mean for u to be late to sch last time and I'm sure she wun want u to be late for work too.. dun blame her k...?

Ever heard of the phrase "Look and how a man treats his mum and that's how he'll treat his wife"? If u haven't.. I'm telling u tt this phrase exists..

Take care kk?

Dar.. I know u're down with fever.. how's it been for u? Drink more water.. take gd care.. get well soon..

Nth to do.. AGAIN.. I've finished everything I could.. it's either I'm TT efficient.. or there really is nth left for me to do..

VERY GD.. now I can officially SLACK.. can nap! Haha.. maybe.. :P doze a little n try... heheh..

Too bad can't use the phone.. even if I could.. there aren't many ppl I can call.. n can't talk for a long time oso.. so... too bad..

Of all the times to get a headache.. I have it now.. VERY gd.. I oso dunno how.. no med..

Dear's bz today.. he had lots to do.. only had his break at ard 4.. my hp's flat.. so cannot use..

Talked to Kelvin, a manager from Warung Nasir Wurung by the bay quite a bit these 2 days.. had to settle food voucher stuff with him.. kinda felt like a telemarketer.. -_-"

Aft reading the newspapers.. I found out a lot..

The end of times is nearing.. there are alr wars n rumors of wars.. antichrist.. natural disasters.. epidemic.. perverse human race..

Wars n rumors of wars.. need I even say? The Iraq war stirred up lots of strive.. the Al Qaeda and other grps are terrorising the world.. bombing ppl and themselves along with them.. and they think it's holy to do so...

Antichrist.. if u do nt alr know.. someone claiming to be Jesus Christ is coming to Sg.. tt's a blasphemy of Jesus' name..

Natural disasters.. even if u do nt read the newspaper.. I'm sure u've heard smtg abt it.. Hurricane Katrina and Rita? Okok.. how abt smtg closer to us.. the Tsunami? There's also a typhoon - Typhoon Damrey tt hit Vietnam juz yest.. and does it even seem "coincidental" tt they're occurring close to each other?

Epidemic.. ok.. maybe u wun call this an epidemic.. bt the no of dengue cases are on the constant increase, despite measures being taken to prevent the mosquitoes from breeding.. the death toll and the no of ppl infected by the mosquitoes have increased drastically.. and it's still nt considered an epidemic?
What's more.. there's oso the avian virus.. a.k.a bird flu tt's only in the region.. the virus has mutated itself and can even infect dogs now..
Is THIS considered an epidemic now?

The perverse human race.. I cannot say anything more.. it's alr shown in the world.. Hurricane Katrina hit one city tt was due to host a big event.. a big HOMOSEXUAL event in which homosexuals can parade the streets naked and copulate in the open.. and the best thing? The officials aren't doing anything abt it.. cos it's a "tourist attraction" tt brings "life" to the dead city..
More and more teenagers are experimenting with drugs and sex..
Abortion rates are on the rise..
Nudity has become an art..
Abstinence isn't taught.. it's implied..
What's taught is.. "Practice safe sex"
Need I say more???

The world is coming to an end.. soon.. it can be more soon that u expect..

We should start preparing ourselves to welcome our Saviour's return..

I'm bored.. LITERALLY.. I've gt NTH to do.. both Annie n Joye are out.. n I've finished what they've gotten me to do.. so I've gt nth to do..

Pls make time pass faster.. I wanna go for lunch..

Yest I made dear angry with me.. I'm sorry.. I know tt I should have went home to rest.. I'm in the wrong..

Watched The Myth.. it's a nice show.. really.. the song is v nice too.. hope tt someone can help me find the song.. title's "EndlessLove" by Jackie Chan and I dunno who.. I want the chinese/korean version..

Went down to look for dear aft tt.. then he sent me home..

Reached home and gt a dressing down frm my dad.. sigh..

Cried quite a bit yest.. so my eyes are a little puffy n swollen today..

Will be going to pay a visit to Shi Shi later.. she's down with dengue and is recuperating at SGH.. A bunch of us will be going to visit her later.. We'll be mtg at 7, Outram MRT.. Doesn't really make a diff where we're mtg.. Cos Raffles is situated in the middle.. so it's v convenient.. it'll be more troublesome for Lloyd if he's going cos it's frm Tampines to Outram..

Kk.. gotta go back to work..

Juz came back frm queensway shopping centre.. bought tea egg n muah chee to eat.. mmm.. nice..

No.. I didn't go there for recreation bt to collect stuff..

Gotta go back to work..

In the office.. in the office.. haha..

Did A LOT of filing today.. going to do some more.. later going out to queenstown with joye.. yup..

Dear's 1st day at work! I've the kinda "mother-like" feeling when her kids go to sch for the 1st day.. whether he'll get bullied.. whether he'll get used to the job.. the food.. how's the ppl there.. how's the management..

I know.. he's no 7 year old kid.. he's alr 17 going on 18.. so I guess I shouldn't worry so much.. haha..

Sigh.. I'm going to change plc!

No more privacy.. No more a corner seat of my own.. I'll be in the Admin n Accts room.. tt cramp plc.. sigh.. nt tt I've gt any right to complain anyway..

Dear's gt a job!

I dunno whether to be happy.. or sad.. happy cos he'll at least have smtg to do and nt juz rot at home.. and he'll have some $$ at the end of it.. sad cos he's working in a restaurant.. so tt means lunch and dinner hrs.. which.. as usual.. is 11-3, 6-10.. So his only break is 3-6.. which is when I'm still working..

I'll get to see lesser of him.. I dunno when is his off day.. I dun want him to work on sundays.. bt if they need him to.. I dun think I can do anything abt it either..

I'll be able to talk to him lesser.. like he'll be tired aft work.. then the only possible time tt we can talk would probably be during his train ride.. which wun be a long time cos of the tunnels.. when he reach home he'll prob take a bath and head to bed..

Nvm.. what to do..

I'll still love him all the same..

Dear.. another song..

Love will find a way - Lion King 2 OST

In a perfect world
One we've never known
We will never need
To face the world alone

They can have the world
We'll create our own
I may not be brave or strong or smart
But somewhere in my secret heart

I know
Love will find a way
Anywhere I go
I'm home
If you are there beside me

Like dark
Turning into day
Somehow we'll come thru
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way

I was so afraid
Now I realise
Love is never wrong
And so it never dies

There's a perfect world
Shining in your eyes

And if only they could feel it too
The happiness I feel with you

They'll know
Love will find a way
Anywhere we go
We're home
If we are there together

Like dark
Turning into day
Somehow we'll come thru
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way

I know
Love will find a way

Dear.. This song's for u..

Come What May - Ewan McGregor, Nicole Kidman (Moulin Rouge OST)

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I’ve never seen the sky before
Want to furnish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you, until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn’t seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there’s no mountain too high, no river too wide
Sing out this song and I’ll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may go by
But I love you ( I love you), until the end (until the end) of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Oh come what may
Come what may
I will love you (I will love you)

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

I'm alr in the office.. doing filing again (as usual) bt this time is filing PDX.. (dun ask me what they are.. I have no idea)

Yest was some day.. I went home aft church n slept in.. slept for coming to 6 hrs and am still tired..

Daddy wanted me to break up with dear.. said tt I should concentrate on my studies and all.. tt he's nt the right one for me and all.. said a lot of stuff.. what I totally didn't like abt it.. wasn't tt he was telling me all this.. bt tt he went thru my sms.. and he put down my calls JUZ COS he was going thru my sms.. like.. WHERE IS THE PRIVACY?!?I'm alr 18.. if u dun like my bf.. FINE WITH ME.. I respect what u say.. I respect u.. and I expect some kinda respect in return.. the LEAST u could do was to respect my privacy.. is it tt hard?!?

Dear and I talked abt it.. and we cried over it.. bt he promised me tt we'll walk thru this together.. him.. me.. and God.. as long as God allows it.. we'll put it thru..

Sat was grading.. aft tt we went to the mac opposite Ulu Pandan CC to have lunch cum dinner.. Marcus (big) gave us a palm reading session.. and my had the "I wun wanna look for a bf in future" - nt cos we have probs bt cos of other reasons.. yest.. when my dad told me all this.. I suddenly thot of tt and tt yah.. if we really were to break up.. I wun find another bf.. nt cos we'll quarrel or anything.. bt cos my dad always disapproves of my bf.. and IF I dun get married in future.. I think I know the reason..

Dun worry.. IF tt really happens.. I'll take care of myself.. juz as I've promised.. and u.. have to do as u've said..

Till then..

I love u..

Both yest n today have been VERY tiring..

It was raining heavily yest.. I gt drenched going for lunch.. Sm ppl aren't tt bad aft all.. one guy offered to share an umbrella with me.. I couldn't resist the offer..

Did filing for P&C files for the whole day and rushed off aft work for training.. Celebrated Jing Long's b'day..

Today.. is the same.. I've been staring at the same files all morning.. Juz finished with them n I've gt ANOTHER batch of files to do.. So I either hurry up n finish them.. or I take my own sweet time.. I would choose the former.. cos I dun wanna stare at the files.. nor the papers.. makes me feel like slping..

Going for lunch.. prob would lunch in.. Oh.. I had lunch at BK with the KSS gals yest.. yah.. n will be having BBQ later in church for the gals only.. :)

I'm back frm getting more work..

Now I've gotta do up sm foreign lawyers' data..

The thing abt working in legal firms or banking sectors is tt u're sworn to secrecy.. NTH is allowed to be leaked else legal action will be taken against u.. which.. for my case is the easiest.. any single lawyer can do tt.. haha.. so everything muz shhhhh...

I'm like so priviledged during this attachment.. I get to see almost everything.. even P&C doc.. (P&C: Private & Confidential) So.. I've gotta shhh.. haha.. gotta go back to work..

Now's lunch break.. I'm having fish ball noodles for lunch.. fishcake.. n tea..

This morning I did a whole lot of filing and created tables for tabulating the firm trip's attendance, room arrangement and visas..

Dear had swimming training today and he's now at home.. he doesn't wanna get out again later so I guess it'll be juz me again.. I'll see if dar has dinner at home.. if she does.. then I'll go home.. I'll try to find smtg to eat at home.. I hope..

Kk.. back to lunch! My stomach's yearning for food.. :P

I suddenly regret going to Joye to ask for work.. cos I've gotta do filing.. n it's A LOT.. sigh.. what to do?

Juz Do It! (Nike)

Haha.. Happy working..

Gd morning..

Once again.. I'm too early.. reached office at 8.35.. n Joye isn't here yet.. I mean even now she isn't here yet.. tt's like quite bad.. cos I've gt NTH left to do.. n having nth to do is going to reflect badly.....

I better find smtg...

Had dinner with dear n dar yest at amk's Sumo House.. there's only 1 word to discribe the food there.. SUCKS.. it's relatively low price bt it's really hard to eat.. the tempura of the tempura udon is soggy.. the yakitori and chicken teriyaki is hard.. the gyoza doesn't taste nice.. neither does the soya sauce.. and the vinegar doesn't taste like vinegar AT ALL.. what do u think of tt?!?

Anyway.. Joye's in alr.. gotta find her for work..

Dear God..
Thank U for this day tt U've so graciously given..
Pray tt I'll be able to concentrate on my work.. tt I'll nt fall aslp..
Pray tt I'll give my best n be a gd christian example during work..
Forgive me of my sins..
In Jesus' Name..
Amen.

I was blabbering away n forgot to tell u all where I'm sitting..

I'm sitted at a corner.. no.. I'm serious.. I've a wall beside me.. a wall in front of me.. and large shelves of files behind me.. Lily's on my right.. Lymond n Gillian is on the other side of the "door".. it's a pathway rather.. to the far right is the IT office.. where all the IT personnel are.. at the corridor b4 the IT office on the right is the filing room where they store files..

Yah.. so I'm in a "secluded" area.. cool huh.. haha..

I need music.. I'm going to fall aslp soon.. been staring at the excel for HOURS.. Jek Hong hasn't sent me the ppt.. bt whatever it is.. we've gotta finish it by today.. then I'll have nth left to do tmr.. hmmm.. :P

Tt's nt possible!!!

Hope tt dar's doing ok for her attachment..

God.. grant me strength to go thru the remaining hrs of the day.. help me to be a good testimony for U in the office..
Forgive me of my sins..
In Jesus' precious name.
Amen.

Yah.. it's me again...

I juz finished copying 1709 times of "TMP/TCH/01".. Although it's nt handwritten.. (I did it on Excel) it's still v tiring for my hands..

Jek Hong (lawyer) told me tt the ppt have to be done by today 6pm.. like I can do it if u give it to me n dun keep changing the info.. ok.. it's nt his fault.. Chee Foong is the one tt's changing it.. bt.. still.. tiring!

So far.. I drank a cup of milo.. n 2 cups of tea..

I finished the warehouse closing file list.. the one in which I had to check for the warehouse box no. to tabulate with the actual box no. AND the copying of.. yah..

The job's ok.. juz a bit tired... and it goes on... n on... n on...

I dun understand how ppl could carry on working like tt..

Ok.. MAYBE it's cos we studied for the whole sem.. then we had study "break".. then exam.. and immediately aft tt.. WORK.. sigh.. dunno how to last thru this.. I'm alr so tired..

Yest.. when I was looking at the com.. The screen zoomed in n out.. which actually shows tt I'm VERY tired..

Prob I should buy chocolate..
And sweets..
And drink more milo or tea..
Or smtg like tt......

I'm in the office now.. I cleverly enabled the internet.. :P

Today's nt tt bad.. tired.. bt still ok...

Yest was a killer.. Aft work, I could hardly keep up with myself.. I was SOOOO shag.. I didn't even wanna switch on my lap top.. bt I did.. juz to watch Tsubasa.. haha..

Having lunch now.. Duck Rice..

Finally some ppl rmb me.. Lymond n Gillian.. haha..

I've been doing data entry n making Chee Foong's ppt slides.. His topic is "Protecting value through prevention of shareholders disputes".. I've been at it for 2 days.. Hopefully it'll finish soon.. then I'll be done.. then I can slack... *shhhh*

Miss dear dear A LOT.. bt we'll be having dinner later! Wan Hong didn't acc me for dinner yest.. said tt his mum cooked for him alr so I told him to go back for dinner..

Okok.. should continue eating..

Laters!

Went to pluck my eyebrows today... SOOOOO PAIN!!!

Later today would be my 1st day working.. I dunno how it's going to be like.. bt I worked there b4.. so I would suppose it wun be tt hard..

I would like to thank bzbody for the encouragement.. bt kaypoh is too irritating.. so I'm going to do smtg abt my blog.. all those random readers who have been constantly interested in my blog.. sorry.. bt u wun get to read this again...

Once again... my blog has attracted lots of ppl to view.. and comment for tt matter..

And I shall ONCE AGAIN say.. if u all wanna read all abt yours truely's life.. I can't exactly restrict u frm doing it.. bt PLS..

DO NOT make unnecessary comments.. it's nt needed..

Whatever I plan to do.. is still my choice aft all..

These comments almost caused us to quarrel.. I'm sure he does believe tt God exists.. juz tt he doesn't have a religion.. whatever happens between us will remain between us..

DUN scold my dear..
DUN scold 'broken'..
I didn't say I'm going to break with him..
Broken is juz trying to help me.. as my dear..

If u dun understand our rlsps..
DUN COMMENT!!!

Today's a... happy n unhappy day..

Gt my new hp.. Samsung E640.. nt bad.. quite nice.. :)

Cut my hair..

Almost quarrelled.. I know tt the wait is long.. I'm sorry.. bt aft tt.. it gt ok..

Happy 4th mth.. :)

Dinner was great.. really..

Today.. I managed to spend some time alone.. reflecting..

Yes I know I should be studying.. bt smtimes.. smtgs are more impt.. I managed to take some time off to read my devotions.. I read Bob Hoekstra's Day-By-Day By Grace.. Today's verse is taken frm Isaiah 40:29-31
"29 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall:,
31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."

This is especially meaningful to me now cos it speaks on leaning on God's strength.. tt even young and old will fall.. will get exhausted.. and it's only on God tt we can rely on.. Human might is so frail and inadequate.. bt God is almighty.. He can strengthen me if I place my hope on Him.. cos He'll enable me to live above my circumstances, nt to be so short-sighted and only see what my probs are bt to look at the bigger picture, to look down on life from heaven's perspective. In tt way, I'll be able to press on.. and nt get exhausted.. all this.. results frm "waiting on the LORD"

Dear Giver of all true power, I have hoped in myself in the midst of so many demanding circumstances of life. My own strength has always proved to be so inadequate. Teach me to wait upon You, to place my hope in You. I desperately need and earnestly desire Your irreplaceable empowering, for Your glory, Amen. (Prayer taken frm the devotion)

Hope this encourages u all as it has encouraged me..

Wait Upon The LORD

Tho the pathway b4 u, uncertain may be,
Trust the LORD No gd thing to with hold back frm thee,
He is perfect in wisdom & faithful to bless
Trust His word in His time...
He will give u His best.

Chorus
They tt wait upon the LORD
Shall renew their strength
They shall mount up with wings as eagles
They shall run and nt grow weary
They'll walk and nt faint
Wait I say
Wait on the LORD

Be nt weary in waiting for love suffers long
If u faint nt u'll reap when the harvest is come
Run with patience the race as u rest on His word
For ur testing will teach
U to wait on the LORD

Chorus

Wait I say
(wait I say)
Wait I say wait...
On the LORD

Yest before studying dar n I did smtg.. we helped someone to do smtg bt wasn't appreciated..

I dunno.. I dun understand y.. we're putting in our effort to do it.. and yet tt person said tt it wasn't gd enough cos it wasn't sincere enough.. and y in the world r we doing it? Cos we've gt nth better to do? Nt so.. bt cos she wanted to help do it.. n I wanted to help her..

And now.. she's trying to do it herself.. sigh..

Y cant u juz cherish her more.. y quarrel? I dun see the pt in quarrelling.. y cant u juz settle and talk.. talk peaceably.. if u love someone.. u shouldn't quarrel with tt person.. and u shouldn't juz SAY tt u care.. DO it..
U dunno how much u'll affect her when u quarrel with her? It's cos u're nt sensitive enough.. U can go back n slp.. bt nt everyone can.. she cant.. u can go back to ur books.. she cant.. she wasn't angry with u.. she was juz upset n heartbroken..
U all didn't use to be like this.. u all were v loving.. ok.. maybe u all still are.. bt u all didn't use to quarrel.. now it seems tt u all are at it all the time.. what happened?
Did the feelings fade?
Miscommunication?
Differences?
Cant u all find what was there before? Tt spark? Tt glimmer?

I wish u all the best..
And I pray tt God will keep u 2 together.. strong..

Today's paper was crap.. totally.. IEF.. n I studied for it.. n Diana too..

I ended up.. NT knowing how to do a single qns.. n I really did study for it..

Here's the prob.. I studied for it.. bt I totally forgot to put it into God's hands.. guess I was overly confident..

Now I know y Alvin can do things tt I cant.. he's like SOOOO much more spiritual..

Ok.. stop giving me the.. oh.. u're weak cos u believe in religion.. There're 2 kinds of ppl.. internals n externals.. Internals believe in themselves only.. they see themselves as the masters of their destiny.. Externals believe in other forces.. external forces.. luck, fate, geomancy etc..

I.. believe in God.. bt my faith is like on the rocks.. I think I should take time off everything else n juz get in touch with God.. n when I say everything.. I mean EVERYTHING.. tt includes my sch frenz.. dear.. whoever else.. I need to hang out more with my church frenz.. with my family..

Juz now.. aft exam.. I was upset.. I wanted to call someone to talk.. n surprisingly.. there wasn't anyone I could really call in my phone list.. Nat was in sch.. bz with her studio proj.. Junius was at orchard.. dar went out with ak.. n I know she's feeling like crap too.. n he was slping.. so I msged Alvin..

He did a great job at comforting me.. telling me tt I should take time off n cry to God.. then when I see tt I've a God tt's greater than me.. n tt my probs are actually sooooo small as compared to what God can do.. then I'll feel better n can carry on..

Thx a lot Alvin.. Thx Junius for offering to acc me.. n Leon..

Thx dear.. for waking up.. although I'm sitting here alone n u're away.. smwhere.. sniffing away.. hopefully studying..
Thx oso for coming down to diana's plc to have lunch with us right aft ur paper..

God.. thx for being here.. thx for being the Almighty one.. the one tt nv fails.. n nv rests.. tt I can rely on no matter what the time.. what the matter.. cos U're able to solve them... and I can lean on ur strong arms.. they'll nv let me down..
Even if I were to retake this module.. I've learnt an impt lesson tt I cannot trust in myself.. only in YOU..

I'm going to start studying for today.. dunno where he gone to.. I'm so sure I heard him go upstairs.. prob he's in the toilet.. I'm so going to die.. the photo shoot is frm 5-9.. I haven't finished studying.. I've nt printed my sitting arrangement n time table.. I didn't bring the VCD.. I didn't bring dar's notes out.. meaning I've gotta go home n get them.. ARGH.. whatever..

God.. help me to concentrate.. help me nt to be distracted.. help dar, dear n ak to study hard too..
Grant Daddy n mummy strength to go thru the day..
Help my bros n sis to be obedient..
Forgive us of our sins..
In Jesus Name I pray..
Amen..

I know I know.. it's been a long while since I last blogged.. I've been trying to study for the past few days.. I dunno what else to write abt..

Oh.. went to eat Pizza hut with dar n dear on tue.. saw a young boy ram himself into the glass pane.. it was SOOO painful.. bt he didn't cry.. then went to look for daddy.. reached home quite late..

Didn't really study yest.. was v tired.. bt managed to do one AAA qns.. yah.. tt bad.. 1 only..

Today.. I have to finish AAA n IEF.. tmr do a bit of OM.. and revise PMKT.. Sat.. do EC.. Sun dun study.. sigh.. muz rush..

God.. give me the strength to carry on.. grant me grace.. forgive me of my sins..

Preaching today is v different..

Lesson was on witnessing.. The harvest is plenty bt the harvesters are few..

How many times do we have the chance to witness bt give up or chose nt to do it? And y nt? Usually it's cos of fear.. of embarassment.. of losing frenz.. of being inadequate.. of nt knowing what to say..

Whatever it is.. do all for God.. like what Jesus said in Matt 28:19,20 "19Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: 20Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you alway, even unto the end of the world. Amen." We're supposed to witness as and when we can..

UCS said smtg.. he said tt in this last 2 wks he spent a lot of time thinking of what's the meaning of life.. what we can do.. what we've did.. what Ptr Cheah taught us to do.. to write it down.. and meditate on them..

Ptr Cheah's been wonderful.. Pray tt God will grant us another pastor of the same calibre.. one tt we'll all love..

Suddenly rmb what Auntie Lee Choo shared on tt day.. she quoted frm Romans 8:31-39 "31What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? 32He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things? 33Who shall lay anyt thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth. 34Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us. 35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughted. 37Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. 38For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, noe principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, 39Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

This has encouraged me alot.. Hope it encourages u too..

Today is the burial day.. Many ppl turned up.. the Myanmar pastors came down.. The 2 Eng pastors came down.. so many other ppl too..

We went to the "Garden of Rememberance" at CCK cemetry.. Ptr Kortering's msg today was frm John 14:2,3 "In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also."

Meaning.. tt Ptr Cheah is alr in heaven.. tt he's in the mansions.. with Auntie Boon Hwee, Auntie Kwai Peng and Uncle James..

We buried his body.. bt he's alr in heaven.. and we should be happy for him..

Yest's msg wasn't on death.. it was on life.. on the meaning of living.. the purpose of life..

How many of u know what's the meaning of living a life worth living? I'm sure tt nt many of us do.. Ptr Kortering preached on Psa 90:12.. "So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom."

Ptr Cheah numbered his days.. he lived his life glorifying to God.. He preached abt repentance and salvation.. he tried to bring ppl to God.. many were touched by his passion for the word of God..

Auntie Lee Choo had to share on her thoughts and feelings at the end.. I totally admire her strength.. she could say tt she cannot tell of the sorrow and loneliness tt she'll face in her coming days bt she knew tt God is faithful and He'll carry her thru juz like He has carried her thru the last wk.. during the time when Ptr Cheah was in the ICU, she read the Bible, prayed and sang hymns to him.. she thank God for the time and chance to do so.. She encouraged all of us tt God will remain faithful and bring us thru this time..

And how can she do tt? Cos her faith is strong.. cos she believes..

I want to have tt kinda faith too..

God.. help me.. teach me to number my days..

Ptr Cheah's burial is in a couple of hrs time.. I know tt we'll be crying.. the skies are alr crying.. At least he's alr found peace.. and all the ans tt he's been struggling with in his life.. now he knows...

Had my last image n etiquette lesson today.. then had finance mtg.. then rushed down for the funeral..

Auntie Belinda came back.. Uncle Keng Ho n Auntie Cecilia were there.. Uncle Tor Swee n Auntie Loo Hoon were there too..

Pastor Kortering came back frm Michigan to hold the memorial service.. I almost cried when he 1st prayed..

There're 3 reasons how a person can become a saint.. it's nt cos of ppl appointment.. bt God chosen.. it's cos of the blood of Jesus' blood.. and oso cos of the repentance of the sinner.. Ptr Cheah gt it all.. He lived it in his life.. aft his conversion, he's been living a life that's pleasing in God's sight..

The verse quoted was Psalms 116:15 "Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints."

Ptr Cheah's death is precious to God, to himself and to us who still remain alive on this earth..

Aft the sermon, Bak Wei gt us to go up to sing.. KS.. to sing "It is Well with my soul".. I was so afraid tt I was going to cry when I sang.. I had to hold it back..
When we were singing.. I could see frm the corner of my eye tt ppl were crying..

Ptr Cheah's bookmark poem..

We had prayed earnestly for our dear Pastor who we hoped would recover,
And sought for Grace from our Great Lord and Heavenly Master,
Being assured that the Lord would have surely heard our prayers,
As daily He had caused us to rejoice in all that He sayest,

Pastor left us in a hurry to rest in his Father's home in Glory,
Leaving behind a legacy of God's goodness to be kept in our memory.
Children, seek the Lord, we know the Pastor would say,
Trust only in the Lord, for all else is but nay,

A reminder from the Pulpit he constantly bought,
Reminding us always in prayers that we thought.
He stressed that Salvation comes from Jehovah alone,
That we are saved when to us God's Grace is shown,
Mighty works of Christ, he declared for us to see,
To Him must all the Power and Dominion and Glory be,

Day by day we humble before our Lord Almighty,
Seeking His knowledge and understanding to be our priority,
In search of His ways which may seem too far above ours,
We must put our trust in Him alone, Who alone has all the powers.

We'll miss u...

Went for OM tutorial today.. paid for a cab fare tt cost a bomb.. the tutorial lasted coming to 3 hrs.. was SOOO tired.. went to SU to rest.. bt ended up doing a lot of stuff..
Had to purchase stationaries.. call for quotation.. fax the order over..
Then had to collect the new SU keys.. else no one can lock up..

Rushed down for Ptr Cheah's funeral.. Ptr Lau was preaching on death.. said tt it separates ppl.. and tt we're supposed to live our lives unashamed..

Ptr Cheah didn't look like himself.. he looked so different..
Many ppl turned up.. even ppl we dunno of..

I admire Auntie Lee Choo.. she's so strong.. she could still talk to others.. could encourage others as well..
Prob it's bcos she was ready.. cos she kinda knew tt it was going to happen so she prayed abt it and trusted in God.. she placed everything into His hands and believed tt He would carry her thru..

Tt.. is the mark of a strong christian.. Faith.. Prayers.. Trust in the LORD..