wow.. this is the 1st time... smone's trying so DESPERATELY to get my blog addy.. I'm actually playing hangman with him! Haha!!! Work harder Chris.. I dunno y u wanna see.. dunno what u wanna see.. hmm...

Lunch today was great.. I had rice, meat n lotus soup.. Yahoo!!! :P he brought an xtra share of food for me.. cheese-baked..

It's marcoroni covered with hotdog n chicken finally topped with a layer of cheese.. then it's baked.. mmmm... v nice.. no dessert today though.. hope there's sm tmr.. ;)

Overheard his convo with his mum.. I think I'll be having spaghetti bolognaise tmr! Wow.. :)

Ppl.. drooling yet??? ;)

Forgive n forget.. easier said than done.. when ppl do things against u.. when u feel tt ppl do grevious errors against u.. u'd rather make them suffer.. rather exact vengeance against them.. mete out ur own form of "justice" on them n appease ur anger than to forgive them..

Y am I nt angry at him? Nt cos he didn't do anything wrong.. It's nt his fault to go back to her.. bt in a normal person's view, in the sight of everyone else, he deserves to be condemned.. bt.. he's forgiven.. I dun blame him at all..

Pls do nt let my anger get hold of me.. pls do nt let my anger take over my logic.. pls oh pls.. let me control my anger.. God.. pls..

Ok.. so I didn't have cheese macoroni.. bt.. I did have smtg nice.. Bak Kut Teh, bitter gourd soup.. rice..

Having lotsa bitter gourd today.. URGH.. nt nice.. bt gd for me.. what to do? *shrugs*

Nvm.. I'm looking forward to tmr.. waiting for cheese baked.. yummy.. ;) Thx Chris.. thx Chris' mum..

Ooo.. will be having cheese macoroni tonite at Nat's.. mmm.. temptations..

Files, files n more FILES!!! The regn certs r A LOT.. I've juz finished creating whatever locus no.s I can create.. Tt's lots too.. I'm drinking bitter gourd tea.. nt cos I like bitter gourd bt cos it's supposed to be gd for my throat.. n I think it is.. bt the tea is.. URGH!

Back frm lunch.. had lunch at 5-foot way.. a cafe across the rd in the Capricorn.. nt bad if I do say so myself.. at least it's real food.. the food there's quite cheap.. I had rice n curry chicken with a cup of sprite.. he had rice, veg, chicken cutlet n a drink.. n each set only cost $3.90.. nt bad.. :)

His mum made cinammon rolls.. ooo.. v nice.. like the ones dar n I like frm cinammon shop.. yummy.. :)

Gotta carry on with work..

He's upset.. he told his ex this morning tt it's totally over btwn the both of them.. he has been sitting there n stoning since the beginning of the day..

I know how he feels.. he still likes her.. bt he told her no cos it's for her gd.. well.. I know tt he's heartbroken.. this kinda heart-rending situations.. sigh.. emotions..

It's upsetting to see him this way.. n to think tt I was like this b4.. I know tt it's hard to move on as well.. esp when he still likes her..

What to do? +ô förgè+ í§ fîr§+ +ò fåçë î+, §ëçôñd|¥ àç¢ëp+ ì+, +hèñ övèrçômé ï+ åñd fíñå||ÿ £è+ gó.. I guess tt's all I can leave him with.. besides tt.. I can only stand by his side n help him along the way..

Hope he gets over it..

Gd Morning! Thinking tt I'm mad? I'm nt k.. I juz woke up.. :p

I took 1/2 day off today.. 1st, I accompanied Chris to SIR to remake his IC.. tt uncle lost his IC twice.. now tt he's going to NS.. it's a MUST to have it.. so.. the penalty for the lost IC is $300.. well.. tt's the price tt he muz pay..

Aft tt, we went down to Toa Payoh to take a bus to HP where I change my faulty earphones.. :( Wanted to get the original silver colour.. bt there weren't anymore.. apparently tt batch of earphones were spoilt.. so sad..

Ok.. then we had KFC.. he was suprised at how cheap the stuff at KFC were.. buddy's meal is 7++.. haha.. okok.. then I bought my shoes (sandals actually) b4 heading hm..

He sent me to my doorstep.. :) Thx lots..

Aft tt, I slpt.. till nt so long ago.. ard 10.. wow.. bt it wasn't a sweet slp.. I kept waking up in the middle.. get frightened.. sigh.. I wasn't like this b4..

My nose.. is like a never-ending tap.. I wanna get well!!! :(

Today's lunch menu.. rice, pig's trotters n egg.. wow.. n I'm sick.. (-_-" haha..

Chris n I r using MSN to talk now.. haha.. the wonders of technology..

:( Flu, fever.. this is tiring.. I'm getting grumpy.. well.. the effects of being sick.. then I might start throwing tempers.. :( I dun like tt..

In order to ans to ppl.. I decided to take my temperature.. I was SO ready to tell ppl tt "hey! I'm well..!" Bt.. the truth is often different frm what u hope..

My temperature increased!!! It's now 37.4.. big deal.. haha.. it's a slight fever.. I'll get well.. dun worry..

Met him n Dar today.. we met at Kovan's KFC.. n he was LATE!!! Haha.. smtg happened to his bike.. so.. he was late by 10 over mins.. it's like.. he gt out of his house at 2.20.. we were supposed to meet by 2.30.. Dar wasn't all tt early.. she was oso late..

We had KFC.. ok.. I had a shrooms meal.. he had a.. hmm.. I can't rmb what's it called.. bt it's this skin with cheese n chicken in it.. nice.. v nice.. :)

Talked, talked.. abt quite a lot of stuff.. managed to "secretly" take his photo with his n dar's hp..

Chris msged me.. was asking me abt my condition.. when he found out tt I was with him.. his rxn was.. y in the world r u mtg him??? Y treat him so well??? Am I??? Hmmm.. we're still frenz.. so.. I dun see any prob in tt..

Ooo.. haha.. in church today, Edward carried Given.. then Nat took a pic with her hp.. manz.. Edward should get married n have a kid.. haha.. I was telling nat tt if she were to put tt pic as the wallpaper on her hp, ppl will ask if tt's her bf n her kid.. (unbelievable huh..) else.. they'll ask what in the world is she doing with a married guy.. bt.. the pic's cute.. haha.. really..

Oh.. Zhaoz.. thx man.. thx for the concern.. pls do nt whack him up even if by chance u happen to find out who tt person is.. dun try to set tt person's house on fire.. or anything.. Thx for asking abt my present condition.. I'll be fine.. I always am.. :)

Chris.. if u ever get to read this.. thx lots for asking me abt my condition as well..

I'm sick! :( I'm actually having a slight fever.. sigh.. nvm..

Yest was Melizo 3.. it was wonderful.. V nice.. the choir improved A LOT! Last yr's Melizo was on Pocahontas.. this yr was Anastasia.. nice.. v nice.. :) Alan.. ooo.. gd looking.. looks taller.. his voice is.. gd.. Danny's voice oso.. v powerful.. wow.. impressed.. the blending this yr is v gd.. wonderful..

I was relatively pissed yest.. I rushed down to Raffles Plc frm work.. I was late cos we were supposed to meet at 6.30.. by the time I reached there was abt 6.40.. bt I was still the earliest.. then I met Nurul.. we then walked over to VCH first.. then Diana called me at abt 6.30 to say tt they're going to take a cab.. at 7,they called again to tell me tt they've juz boarded the taxi at JURONG EAST.. then at abt 7.15, I called n said tt we've to go in soon.. they said they were at Tanjong Pagar.. at 7.30, I call.. said tt we've to go in cos it's starting.. they said they were stuck at the traffic light.. I dun get it.. I'm the one who's waiting.. n I'm the one getting shouted at???

I gt my hugs frm Nurul (thx hun).. then aft the concert, Diana, EH, Nurul, Yew Wei n I went to Lao Pa Sat to eat.. had stingray.. n.. it's nt as gd as the one in Clementi.. haha..

I was a pig.. -_-" cos of my fever.. I juz wanna slp n nt wake up.. juz slpt n slpt.. slpt for 16 hrs.. (or so).. dun start scolding me n say tt I dun take care.. I did ok.. I ate my food.. took med.. having blocked nose.. having a bad craving for rich chocolate brownies with ice-cream.. oh.. :( having a craving for smtg which I CANNOT have.. :'( I wanna get well..

I'm DONE! Actually.. I've finished all allocated to me quite sm time ago.. have been rotting for abt 1/2 hr now.. haha.. so is Chris.. cos the certs aren't here yet.. and there's juz nth for us to do at all!

There's Melizo 3 later.. pls oh pls.. dun let me fall aslp.. pls.. *hopes*

:( I'm pissed.. my com hung on me twice when I was trying to save my scanned pix!!! I had to rescan them AGAIN!!! Irritating..

I need a hug.. :( Who can offer me one?

Relatively full.. haha.. I took abt 1/4 of his food.. his mum made more today.. so I gt to eat more as well.. now he's trying to wash the oil off the plate.. which, is difficult cos there's no soap or scrub anywhere.. haha.. all the best man..

The rice today was.. ummm.. cheese, chicken n rice.. v nice.. haha..

Guess I should go back to my work..

Today's the latest day in which I'm having lunch.. my lunch isn't even in the microwave oven yet.. (-_-" I'll be having ham cheese sandwich today.. with his rice tt is.. ;) haha..

Oh manz.. he doesn't even know how to use to microwave oven!!! How bad can he get?!?

Chris is going in on the 23th Apr.. does the date ring any bells? Maybe nt to u ppl.. bt def for me.. it's his b'day..

I've decided tt to differenciate him frm others.. I'll use italics.. see if u ppl can see the difference..

I'm waiting for the scanner.. nth to do.. so I'm blogging.. sigh..

Man has insatiable wants.. 1 gets posted to VJ n wants to go TJ.. 1 gets posted to TJ n wants to go VJ.. sigh.. too bad it can't be done.. it'll be gd if they can juz swap plces.. then both of them will be happy.. sigh..

Oh.. rmb me saying tt I dunno what to wear for today? Well.. I'm wearing a black cardigen, greyish sleeveless turtle neck top, black abv knee length skirt with 2 slits at the sides n heels.. yeah.. He was like.. today's the concert rite.. yah.. y? Oh.. u look different.. haha..

I'm left with.. whether I should do up my hair or nt..

He cut his hair! Ewww.. so short.. I'm nt v used to seeing him with such short hair.. Think he looks better with longer hair.. bt.. I dun really care.. his hair is none of my business.. haha..

I've gt lots to do today.. Angie is taking 1/2 a day off today.. leaving by 1.. it's crap.. v crap.. the box of registration & renewal certs will be coming today.. so I've gotta RE-sort.. then gotta RE-enter.. then have to scan the pix n upload.. ARGH!!! How to finish???

I was relatively upset.. then Chris asked me if I was ok.. so.. I told Chris abt him..

His 1st rxn when he knew abt what happened was.. B****** boy.. ok.. tt's the typical rxn.. I mean.. almost everyone else reacted tt way.. everyone bt me.. Then when I told Chris tt I'm nt at all angry with him, he was like.. I dun get how u're nt.. it's righteous anger.. u know.. if u're nt angry.. I would be more prone to think tt it's latent anger.. well.. thx.. bt there's no latent anger as well..

On the 7th of July this yr, they'll be celebrating their 1 yr anniversary.. 1 day later, I'll be celebrating my successful 1 yr of singlehood.. how does tt fit in..?

So I've finished lunch.. bread.. ok.. n a little of his fried rice.. with sausage n bacon in it.. now waiting for dessert.. apple n butter cake.. *dreams*.. What will I do w/o him.. or rather.. w/o his mum's cooking? ;)

Lunch time.. nth much today.. tuna fish bread.. at least it's nt overnite.. ;)

Tmr's Melizo 3..

Dunno what to wear..

Do u think I should wear a white jacket or black cardigen? A sleeveless grey turtle neck or a white helter top? A black or greyish skirt? If black.. juz above knee or more above knee? With slits at the side or a row of buttons down the centre or juz plain? Should I tie my hair up, tie half, do it up smhow or juz let it be?

Argh.. I dunno..

I'm done!!! I've finished the boxes!!! ok.. all those tt could be done only.. I 'KIV'ed many files..

Singaporeans.. what's it abt them? Ugly Singaporeans.. sounds familiar?

When I alighted frm my 156 bus today, I saw an overly packed shuttle bus.. with ppl still trying to squeeze their way up.. then.. while waiting for the other shuttle bus, ppl were crowding the front.. when the bus arrived, they were all rushing for the bus.. jostling their way through.. What's their prob?!? Can they juz WAIT? I know.. they're rushing for time cos work starts at 9 n it was alr 8.50.. bt.. so what? I'm oso rushing for time.. On the bus, there was this lady who took the outer side of the seat.. there was a pregnant woman standing NEXT TO HER.. n she either couldn't be bothered or she's juz plain BLIND.. How could anyone miss such a protuding tummy?!? Anyway.. the poor mother had to ask tt lady to let her sit.. b4 the lady shifted in.. What's this.. all the talk abt courtesy.. n this is where "education" has brought us..

What's the pt of CME? I really dun get it.. Civics n Moral CANNOT be taught.. it's inculcated.. bt at the rate we're going.. we seem to be getting worst.. so.. what's the pt?

Crap.. my com hung.. so whatever I typed juz now.. gone.. n I can't rmb what I typed..

Oh.. haha.. ok.. I rmbed a little..

I have no idea y I wanna meet him.. Esp when he doesn't even get to meet her.. apparently.. they dun meet on wkends.. n they're nt free on wkdays.. so they dun get to meet at all in the week.. tt's SO crap.. n what does he say abt tt? I'm used to it..

I question.. Y do I bother? Yet.. how can I NOT care?!? Be it directly or indirectly, it affects me.. cos.. I.. I.. had much to give up for..

Go away.. pls.. bt then again.. I dun want u to.. y..


My Immortal - Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[CHORUS:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

I love the way in which I'm still able to talk to him.. I miss the times when I was able to do so with him..

I'm a little doubtful.. I think I'm getting masochistic.. n mad.. def mad.. I so willingly wanna lend him $10 to top up his ez-link card.. oh.. did I say lend? I mean give.. yah.. cos he doesn't wanna owe ppl money.. so I told him.. take it as though I owe u the money k.. juz take it..

He wanna go to Expo tmr.. bt cos his card nt enough money.. he's considering of forgoing.. Expo's near tp.. she's there.. I mean.. it's nt everyday in which ur bf can be so near to fetch u.. cos she's in tp while he's in sp..

What am I doing?!? Whatever.. when I was telling him abt it.. my heart was like ouch.. bt I continued.. madness.. insanity..

When I'm ard him.. I juz dun care abt anything else.. all I bother abt is him.. guess tt's smtg tt muz change..

¤ +ô förgè+ í§ fîr§+ +ò fåçë î+, §ëçôñd|¥ àç¢ëp+ ì+, +hèñ övèrçômé ï+ åñd fíñå||ÿ £è+ gó.. ¤

Everything Happens For a Reason

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be; your roommate, your neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never have realized your potential, strength, will power of heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of the soul.

Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life and successes and downfalls you experience, they are the ones who create who you are. Even the bad experience can be learned from... Those lessons are the hardest and probably the most important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart... forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen, let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

I wish you all the best in your endeavors as well as struggles in life. Have a fighting spirit and never hesitate to get back in the struggle!
-taken frm email

I'm SO tired.. I almost dozed off.. AGAIN!!! sigh.. this is nt gd..

haha.. angeline lost the key to the toilet.. cool.. for ur info, the female toilet's locked.. only ppl with the key can enter.. bt.. Mars managed to find the key.. so.. thankfully.. we dun have to survive w/o the toilet.. wonder how tt'll be..

As promised.. the website to the IQ quiz.. happy doing!

http://alt.chronoscape.net/mt/archives/IQtest.xls

I've juz finished my lunch.. nt bad.. rice, chicken, egg, fish, soup and a little bee hoon (frm Chris).. with.. Fuji Apple Aloe Vera.. :P nice.. wonder what he's having for lunch tmr.. ;)

He bought the large packet of Fruit-tree's Fuji Apple & Aloe Vera!!! Yummy.. ;) V nice u know.. muz try it.. u wun regret it!

Argh! He's so nice! I'm starting to get infatuated with him! Haha.. kidding..

He went out to the petrol kiosk to get his "lunch" cos his mum forgot to pack his today.. then he called back to ask me if I wanted anything.. sigh.. this kinda guys r EXTINCT!!! *hint hint*

Get it guys?

Everytime - Britney Spears

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

He's so sweet! He actually went to take care of his sick ex-gf.. may I repeat it.. it's EX-gf.. nt present one.. sigh.. y dun I see smone taking care of me.. :(

Well.. went to Nat's plc for dinner with Diana.. I cannot tell u how I felt when I was there.. esp with the bear.. n.. the photos.. n Diana there.. everything juz came rushing back.. argh.. disastrous..

Superfluous.. ADJECTIVE: Being beyond what is required or sufficient. Haha.. You Jun was using the word in his nick.. yet he didn't know the exact meaning.. I made him check out the meaning.. so bad.. haha.. bt it's for his gd.. he's taking his 'O's n he doesn't know the meaning bt he's using the word..

Ppl taking 'O's this yr.. dun stress urselves too much kz.. nt yet.. if u peak so soon.. it'll be hard to carry on.. unless u're clever all along.. dun keep hoping for the exam to pass.. cherish this short period of time tt u have left with ur Sec 4 classmates.. cos Sec 4 passes VERY fast.. trust me.. I've been there.. gone thru it.. Miss u guys in 4E2.. Things will nv be the same again aft tt.. even if u ppl manage to keep in contact.. cos u'll nv be able to sit down in tt particular seating arrangement again in tt particular classroom to listen to the teachers teach u.. nv again.. yeah.. I know.. it's a stress yr.. bt.. work hard.. give ur best.. leave to God the rest..

Argh.. I fell aslp while working.. I'm like too tired.. Slept at 1+ this morning.. woke up at 6+.. then have to work the whole day.. *yawnz*.. at this rate.. I'll really become a pig.. eat n slp.. cannot imagine.. muz exercise!!!

I'm juz finished my share of lunch.. still have his.. ;) I'm nt greedy kz.. I asked him to leave sm of his wonderful dessert for me.. n he left 1/2.. so nice of him rite?

He has left the office coming to 1/2 hr ago to see his sick ex-gf.. so sweet.. I oso want.. :( haha.. okok..

I'm like so full now.. I can't even eat the dessert! nvm.. keep for later.. confirm will be able to eat later.. else at most I'll bring it home to let my family try.. try to pyscho my mum to learn then can make for me.. ;) Crazy.. I haven't started slping bt I've alr began to dream..

Ooo lunch.. Chris' lunch was great.. v nice.. :) Sm herbal rice topped with cheese.. with dessert! I can't rmb what's the dessert called bt they're delicious! Haha..

R U ppl drooling yet? ;)

I won't be able to go down to Renn Thai to work this week.. cos Katrine said tt we've too many staff there bt r still unable to hit the target.. man.. is it supposed to be our fault?!?

I'll be having rice later.. with.. hmm.. minced meat, abalone mushroom fried with meat, n soup.. Chris brought his lunch.. his looks much better than mine.. well.. tt's for having a mum who can cook.. food looks better.. prob might take better too.. I'll try sm later.. ;)

I helped EH register for his 'O's juz now.. hope tt he'll study harder n get better results this yr.. Jia You! :)

I should be getting back to my work.. byez..

It's lunch break n I've gt a sumptuous meal.. Chicken rice n soup! Wow.. haven't had such a gd meal in ages.. for lunch tt is..

Chris didn't pack his lunch.. so he went out to eat.. he's a nice guy.. asked me if I wanted him to pack anything for me.. haha.. ok..

Although the food's overnite n microwaved (As usual).. it's gd.. cos at least it fills my stomach.. I dun want ppl to say tt I dun take care of myself.. cos.. I know tt I dun really care..

Pls.. if u wanna do smtg.. do it urself.. it doesn't really concern me anyway..

Hey all.. I was working yest.. yeah.. haha.. Nat was over at SPO (Science Park Office) as well.. smhow.. I didn't feel any difference cos.. She was with Chris.. n chris was in the other office..

We (nat n I) then went to Clementi aft work.. where she purchased her hp.. man did she take a long time to make up her mind.. to choose btwn a free 3100 or a 3200 in which she has to pay an xtra $30..

She chose the 3200 in the end.. I mean.. she's paying for it! So y in the world muz she care so much abt what Alice is going to say abt it?!? Everyone will have their own opinion.. as long as she doesn't lose her hp (again) y bother???

Smtimes.. I feel.. tt ppl rely too much on others. We muz be able to make our own choices.. Maybe tt's what I am.. independant.. maybe it's gd.. maybe it's nt.. I dunno.. bt a bit of it is def gd.. at least u dun have to keep relying on others all the time..

Ooo.. the posting results r out! Ppl.. update me on ur postings kz?

I'm posted to Ngee Ann Poly's Business Studies.. tt's what I wanted.. haha..

Nat's posted to Nanyang Poly's Digital Media Design.. hope she'll like it there..

Last nite, I rushed down to Renn Thai only to find out tt there wasn't any food left for me!!! Then Kelvin asked me if I wanted to eat (duh~) So we went upstairs to BREEKS to have our "dinner".. we had fish n chips.. u'll nv believe this.. do u have any idea how big the plate is? Imagine me finishing the plate in 5 mins! Well.. I was rushing for work.. so had to finish faster..

There's this other new guy.. Kai Lin.. 19 this yr.. Steven's 21 this yr.. haha.. so whatever it is.. I'm still the youngest! ;)

Finished work at abt 1030.. the Kelvin, Agus n I went to the Aquarium.. was there for abt 1/2 hr b4 we headed hm..

Tired.. v tired.. dunno how much longer I can hang on like this.. I'm presently in the office.. supposed to be working bt I felt tt I should blog this 1st.. so.. yah.. n I'll be working in Renn Thai at nite.. (-_-"

Guess what? I'm having a LONG break now.. haha.. cos smtg's wrong with the files.. n we dun wanna waste time.. so we're nt doing..

Now.. Chris n I r doing this sorta "intelligence quiz" with things like.. 29 D in F in a L Y.. 9 L of a C.. haha.. guess what they are..

I'm going to leave soon.. yeah.. 430.. it's 3.51 now.. tired.. :(

Bz.. bz.. this is the 1st time tt I can access the blog in the day!!! It's "lunch break" now.. bt I'm still working.. whatever..

I had.. cherry tomatoes and salad dressing for lunch.. oh.. with a slice of cheese.. seems like nth much.. bt it's actually rather filling.. healthy as well.. ;)

Chris came today.. hmm.. he's a nice guy.. rather gentlemenly.. helping up gals to carry the boxes n all.. *hint hint* ;)

He has a complicated family tree.. backgrd.. I'm nt going to bother abt tt.. neither am I going to comment abt it..

I'll be going to Renn Thai to work later.. I'm so tired!!! :( Well.. a gal's gotta do what I gal's gotta do.. (is there this phrase in the 1st plc?!?)

Will blog again.. if I have the time..

I'm going to leave the office soon.. like in abt 1 min's time.. u know.. I did a whole day's work.. n I only completed 22 files!!! Tt's so crap! So little! :( How? I've gt.. 610 files to do.. with presently 7 files nt here.. tt's 603 files.. if I do 22 files/day.. then I'll hafta take.. abt 27 days.. which is.. abt 5 wks! Tt's more than a mth!!! Cannot.. muz work faster.. muz be faster.. tmr will have 2 ppl.. bt I'll be leaving early! How??? :'(

Files.. files n more files.. boring! Well.. I've gotta finish them no matter what..

Chris will be coming down tmr.. hah! So what.. like I care.. juz another person to help me.. hopefully we'll be able to finish the files faster..

Thunder is roaring in the background.. how am I supposed to go back later?!? :( Anyone will be so nice as to lend me a ride back??? Haha.. nt tt possible huh..

Is smtg wrong with my blog? How come I juz can't seem to see my previous entry? Too long? Too much stuff???

Lunch break!!! At long last!!! The files r like.. SO messy.. whatever I did b4 n what I'm supposed to do r totally inconsistent!

Yest.. aft being released frm work, I went down to Parkway to try to look for shoes.. bt.. they didn't have my size.. forget it.. on the way there, I walked past WK's plc.. I was.. nostalgic.. v.. at least I didn't cry.. I rmb the route which we (WK n I) took on Sun when Nat n I went to meet him at Parkway's Starbucks.. was.. choked on feelings in a way..

I went to work at Renn Thai.. there were 2 new guys.. Kelvin, the manager frm TM n Steven, new guy who's going to work at the Suntec branch once it opens..

Ok.. Kelvin's.. funny.. in a way better than Davinline.. nt so stressed..

Steven's.. stiff.. anxious.. nervous.. he can't rmb the tables.. ok.. he's only worked for 2 days.. forgivable.. n.. Katrine keeps picking on him.. so.. haha..

The files.. ARGH!!! I've only done at most 10.. oh.. I over-estimated.. I only did 7.. dun start laughing.. if u think it's ez.. y dun u come n do it?!? Nvm.. a little at a time.. I'll get used to it.. then I'll get faster.. I think.. I hope.. *pls*

The files r here! die.. so many boxes..

WK's alr in Seattle settling down.. so there's internet access at his plc.. cool! :) I'm talking to him.. he's trying to set up his webcam.. so tt we'll be able to see him! :)

He has a cat there.. said tt he can't rmb its name cos it's weird.. n the cat's a feline.. female..

Man.. I feel like crying.. :( Feel like juz sticking my hands thru the com screen n hug him.. y isn't there a teleporting machine? sad.. :'(

Hah! I'm "office alone"!! Angie has left for her lunch mtg.. she'll be back b4 her nxt mtg.. which is I dunno what time.. so.. I've the whole office to myself! Haha.. lonely.. nah.. fun.. :) prob cos the plc isn't all tt big.. it's cozy..

I saw WK online.. then he didn't reply me.. I guess he's bz..

1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; 3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; 5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; 7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; 8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8 (KJV)

The files will be arriving in the late aftnn according to angie.. she told me tt she'll be going for a mtg in the aftnn so.. I'm supposed to leave early.. gd! :) cos.. I'm supposed to leave early anyway.. I juz hope tt the files will arrive earlier.. so tt I can go down to Parkway n look for my shoes.. haha..

I'll be working at Renn Thai tonite.. cos Diana cannot.. she's having sm impt event on with my kor.. guess what? haha.. I'll keep u ppl in suspense.. ;)

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost."
---Charles Caleb Colton

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere."
--- Tim McGraw

I took these frm an email tt Nat sent me..

He should have reached Seattle by now.. including the transit n all.. yah.. I suppose he's there trying to settle down now..

My dear friend.. while u're there settling down, unpacking, sleeping and all.. all of us here are missing u.. ur smile.. ur hug.. ur funny expressions n reactions.. ur charisma.. probably u're missing us as well.. prob u feel worst than us cos u've more ppl to miss than we do.. bt.. dun worry yah? If there's anything.. any homesickness n all.. drop us a msg.. I'm sure we'll be glad to hear frm u.. :)

I'm relatively stressed.. all the household finances r coming onto me.. I've gotta take money out to pay for groceries.. manz.. where am I supposed to go look for money..? N I'm supposed to supply my transportation fees.. n everything else.. my food.. n.. everything else..

I met Nurul today.. she went to compasspt.. then she updated her passbk n transferred a sum of money to her darling..

Hun.. I know tt u wanna be there for her.. I know tt she's smone special to u.. bt.. u muz take care of urself too.. it's nt ez to earn money.. u know as well as I do.. I know tt I've no rite to comment at all.. bt.. I really hope tt she'll return u the money..

Take care hun.. love u..

Hey! I'm back! :) Guess what? I didn't go to work today.. Shhhh..

Nat n I applied a day's leave to send WK off.. today, 10 ppl went to send him off.. out of which, I only know.. Nat, Jacky, Royce, Sunny n Huilin.. The mood there was.. sad.. everybody knows tt he has to leave soon.. bt we were juz dragging the time.. took many photos today..

Huilin was the latest to arrive.. she rushed down frm Bedok to meet us at Changi.. she then ran all the way to meet us.. She was the 1st to hug WK.. then well.. we juz continued.. me, nat n his 2 other gal frenz.. I tried hard nt to cry when he went in.. I guess I managed to do it altho the tears threatened to fall.. Huilin did cry I think.. well.. for the gals there.. I think tt almost all the gals cried..

Aft tt.. I went to Tampines with Nat n Sunny.. saw my pri sch fren.. my 1st rxn when I saw her was to ask Sunny, "ur fren?" He was like, "U dunno her?" "Who?" "Brindha" Oh.. she had changed a lot.. didn't recognise her at all.. well.. she's in VJ.. clever gal.. had KFC's buddy meal for lunch.. we were talking abt WK on the way.. funny huh.. how we rmb ppl only when they've "left" us.. in one way or another.. haha.. I'm trying so hard nt to cry.. bt.. smhow.. tears juz keep falling as I type.. n I can't seem to stop them.. they juz flow.. beads.. streams of held back feelings.. juz erupt..

8 yrs.. long enough? I knew him for 8 yrs.. lost contact with him n my bunch of Yumin frenz for abt 5 yrs.. w/o him inviting me to the BBQ tt he organised last yr, I would nt have had a chance to see/unite with them again.. I juz gt together with them.. n now he's leaving.. it happens huh..

I need someone here.. someone to hug me.. what's this.. I hugged him twice this week.. once on mon cos I thot tt I wun be seeing him off.. then today..

A hug's not just a hug.. it's a way of expressing affection, care and concern.. it's a way of telling ppl, "I care".. it's an expression of love and friendship.. a hug feels warm.. a hug feels on it's own..

Where r u now? I know tt I'm nt the only one who'll say this.. cos huilin said it too in her MSN nick.. miss u..

Rushed down to work juz now.. found out tt Alex gt transfered to IMM n another guy frm TM will be coming down.. Kevin.. dunno who he is.. nvm.. will get to meet him..

Today was a bz day.. for a mon tt is.. hmm.. bt we ended early.. ard.. 930 n we closed.. haha.. tt's y I'm early today.. I had a splitting headache for more than 1/2 the time tt I was working.. manz.. nt gd.. I took 2 panadols.. n it took a long time to react..

It's 2330 as I type this sentence.. as the time draws closer to his departure.. there's this sense of lost.. hmm.. weird feeling.. cos it feels new.. having to "lose" smone whom u gt to know better.. knowing tt he'll be on the other end of the world.. bt nt being able to get to him.. knowing tt he's there.. bt being in a different timeframe altogether..

Take care my fren.. look forward to seeing u again soon.. :) Oh.. when u reach there.. pls.. rmb to give me ur add.. drop me a note or smtg.. tag my tagboard when u see this kz? At least I'll know tt u've gained access to my blog.. :)

I dun wanna work tmr.. I DUN WANT!!! :( I want to send him off.. I dun even know if I can dun come tmr.. VERY sad..

I've gt nth to do as yet.. so I dun suppose tt I'll have anything to do.. *hope* then I can have tmr off.. pls pls.. dun let me have anything to do.. pls..

I'll be working in Renn Thai today frm 1830 - 2200, Fri frm 1830 - 2230 n Sat frm 1830 - 2230..

Diana will be working frm 1830 - 2200 on Wed n 1830 - 2230 on Fri.. Davinline's asking if Diana can work on Sat cos she's short of ppl..

Jane n Tricia have quitted the job.. I'm nt sure if it's official yet.. bt I think so.. will miss them..

I can't even rmb where I left off! Haha.. ok.. Hmm.. We (WK, Jacky n I) didn't go for a movie tt nite.. instead, they were LATE! V LATE in fact.. they said 8+.. they were supposed to meet me at Paragon.. cos they were having the time of their lives over at Crown Prince hotel while I was literally ROTTING at Paragon.. :( I was extremely tempted to leave.. cos it was coming to 9.. if they hadn't turned up at 8.59.. I would have left.. We walked Orchard for a while.. then took a taxi down to Cozy Bay.. WK sang practically the whole way in the taxi.. hm.. what can I say.. it sounded relatively constipated.. on purpose def. .. spent sm time there b4 going back.. reached hm at ard 0030 tt nite..

Sat.. we had CKKS combined mtg.. over at Cluny Park (near SMU/ Botanical Gardens) hmm.. I've gt nt much to say abt it.. I would have thot tt the games were a disaster.. bt.. I think it did bring the ppl together.. in sm way.. few CKs were there.. only.. Matt Tong, Dorcas, Andrew, Isaac Tan, Iva, Claudia, Jonah.. few huh.. I found out frm Dorcas tt Gaius gt 19 for his L1R4.. n he chose Horticulture n landscape in NP.. so.. I hope we end up in the same sch! :)

Aft tt, I went down to Parkway (thx BW for the ride).. I met up with my pri sch frenz.. WK, Han Qin, Andy n Sunny at K Box.. manz.. dun even know what I was doing.. juz went there to see them for a while.. then Lin Ching n Shao Hwee came.. then Melody came for a while.. then I left.. rushed hm in a taxi (it cost 10 bucks ok!) cos the nxt day was a sun.. I had to prepare myself.. had to slp early.. I heard frm WK tt they left the plc at 2+.. wow.. ok.. I'm glad I left early.. cos I reached hm at ard.. 2330.. Ooooh.. by the way.. Shao Hwee's voice is v nice! I dun really rmb hearing him sing.. well.. tt's like.. 6 yrs ago.. haha.. bt.. his voice is nice.. :)

I met up with WK at ard.. 2+ at suntec.. then he said tt he hadta go take family photo.. so he left Nat n I there to wait for Jacky.. Aft mtg Jacky, nat hadta go hm to report.. so she left.. then Jacky n I met up with Royce.. b4 heading down to Orchard when I was to "reunite" with nat to go to parkway to wait for WK.. so I travelled A LOT.. yeah.. tiring.. relatively.. Finally gt to pass his farewell prezzie to him.. It's a Pipeline polo shirt.. um.. I shall nt divulge the price.. dunno who's reading my blog.. nt gd.. ;) I left the plc at.. ard 9.. took a bus.. n I missed my stop! (I was slping.. -_-") Manz.. had to take another bus back up to walk down to my house.. sigh.. waste time.. waste $$.. haha.. nvm..

Michael's in Taiwan by now I suppose.. pray tt he'll be fine there.. the training's tough..

WK will be leaving in abt.. 36hrs time.. in fact.. in 36hrs time, he wun be in S'pore anymore! :( I'll miss him.. nt in tt sense bt.. it's like.. I juz gt to see him aft 5 yrs of losing contact.. n he's going to Seattle for 6 yrs!?! Haha.. cute huh.. heard frm him tt CPF (pri sch tchr) is on long term med leave.. wonder what happened to her.. hope tt she's fine..

WK.. if.. u're reading this.. juz wanna let u know.. u're a great fren.. thx for everything.. for bringing the class together (in a way) cos.. w/o u.. I dun think I'll even be able to keep in contact with u guys! I love u ppl! :) Take care of urself there.. the weather's different.. bt.. I'm sure u can adapt.. dun get too fat kz? Else we wun be able to recognise u! ;) Whatever happens, rmb tt u still have us.. u can email or call.. whichever's more convenient for u.. will be missing u! :) (I'm sure I'm nt the only one..)

I hope to be able to see him off.. bt his flight is at 1310 on Tue meaning he has to be there by.. 1100.. n it's like.. I'm at work.. unless I skip.. which wun be gd.. cos I've gt 600 files to complete.. :( how..?

Okz.. now's lunch break.. I better blog now cos I'll have lotsa filing to do..

I found out tt Michael's going to Taiwan for 1 mth.. training.. combat training in the jungles.. yah.. I've heard lots abt it.. All the best man.. will pray for u.. :)

I have juz finished my lunch.. today's lunch is yest's overnite food.. rice n meat.. so.. I had it transported frm the fridge in my hm by 1 hr's bus journey to the fridge in the office b4 taking it out to microwave 3 hrs later.. so.. what do u think of the food? ;) Yah.. bt.. I guess it was still food.. at least it fills my stomach.. haha..

Nat's lunch was sumptuous ok.. she had mee siam.. cakes.. n I had.. nvm.. u know.. ARGH.. :(

I need the files to come soon.. so tt I dun needa wait so long.. hmm.. yeah.. then I can start early.. finish early.. then dun hafta come here.. nt tt I mind the plc.. bt i mind the journey.. so far.. although I can slp in the bus..

WK asked if I was game for a movie at 8 plus tonite.. hmm.. I'll see abt tt.. I dunno.. cos.. I'm tired.. n.. hmm.. broke? Haha.. unbelievable.. the office is so cold.. my fingers r so hard tt I can hardly type!!!

Nat's small uncle's at the main office.. he's prob P3 or 4.. haha.. so cute.. n she nv greet him.. they juz stared at each other.. haha.. okok.. I shall stop laughing at others.. I myself nv greet my uncles.. (-_-" um.. cos I didn't even know tt they were my uncles.. haha..

Ok.. I'll shorten my lunch break by 15 mins.. so tt I can finish faster.. :) Byez..

I'm done! :) ok.. at least presently..

Last nite.. I rushed down to Orchard frm here.. (Clementi) I took 1 hr! Tt's a LONG time! Ok.. whatever.. then when I reached there, the 1st thing I did was to change.. (it was alr 5.45.. I had to start at 6..) then when I finished, I said tt it's time to eat.. Jason was like.. We've alr finished eating.. there's no food left.. Ok.. so I'll nt eat then.. Anyway.. I did eat in the end.. Diana too.. Jason asked the chef to cook Phad Thai (Thai fried rice noodles) for us.. u should have seen the both of us it.. for 2 ppl with a usual small appetite.. tt sight was.. uncommon.. it seemed as though the both of us haven't eaten in 1000 yrs! We juz took the forks n started digging in.. Jason came in.. "U sure u all can finish.. take plates lah.." abt 10 mins later.. he came in again.. n.. we've alr finished the whole plate.. imagine how hungry we were!

Davinline n Katrine weren't working.. so we had lotsa fun.. had sm cleaning to do.. tt's when Alex conveniently asked us to clean the wall n partitions.. Diana said tt she wasn't tall enough so he said.. oh.. the short one clean the lower parts.. then I said tt I couldn't reach the top parts.. he said.. I didn't know tt u were tt short!! .. Nth to say..

I saw Farzanah n Pei Xuan on the bus to work.. the bus was SO packed.. bt.. nvm.. I still managed to slp 1/2 the way.. hahaz..

I gotta get back to work.. blog again if I'm free..

Boring.. now's nt lunch break yet.. haha.. what to do? Cannot slack.. Sigh.. what am I doing.. I'm actually slacking alr.. what crap..

I was flipping thru the calender.. then I saw words like bona fide, res ipsa loquitur.. profound huh.. bona fide means in gd faith, honestly n w/o wrongdoing while res ipsa loquitur means the thing speaks for itself.. audi alteram partem means hear the other side - tt no one shall be condemned w/o being heard; one of the principles of natural justice.. ignorantia facti excusat means ignorance of the fact excuses while ignorantia juris non excusat means tt ignorance of the law is no defense.. def of sm "law words".. haha..

okok.. another.. 9 mins is the beginning of my lunch break.. then I'll slack for 1 hr.. I'll hafta leave by.. 4.30 today.. to see how long I need to take to reach Orchard.. hope tt it doesn't take v long.. the journey sux..

Hiya! I've juz finished assigning nos. to the files.. ok.. there're like 600 over files.. the files aren't in yet.. so.. I'm relatively free now.. n porb tmr oso cos the files will only be in nxt wk! Crap.. this is bad.. when I look at the list.. which.. for ur info.. is printed in font size 9.. I alr freak out.. imagine looking at 600++ FILES!!! Then I'll hafta do filing n data entry n all.. n I'm so far frm everyone.. frm Darling n Sayang..

I took a bus to Clementi MRT station today.. bus no. 156.. direct frm my house.. ok.. the journry was like 1 hr 15 mins.. it took the bus at least 1/2 hr to get to Bishan!!! Gdness.. u should have seen the traffic.. madness.. bt.. anyway.. I slept like.. practically the whole journey.. haha.. hafta cover-up sm hrs of slp..

My sisters.. they were quarrelling the whole nite.. until like 12+.. I was like SO tired.. I kept asking them to slp.. bt they juz didn't want to.. dunno what's their prob.. so.. aft I finally gt them to quiet down, I had alr lost out on at least 1 hr of slp.. zzZZ..

I've gotta go to Renn Thai to work later.. yah.. dunno how long it'll take frm here to orchard.. hmm.. I'll check it out later.. so tt I'll know what time I can leave.. haha.. should I take frm clementi down to city hall to orchard or frm clementi to outram park to douby ghaut to orchard? Hm.. I think the NEL is faster rite..

Oh.. yest.. Nurul n I didn't go to ECP.. cos it was raining.. bt we did meet up.. at compasspt.. it takes 1 hr frm here to compass.. anyway.. we had pizza hut for dinner.. had anderson's ice-cream for dessert.. yummy.. :)

I'm a little hungry.. my "breakfast" was a peach bought by Angeline n a cuppa milo with 6 cream crackers.. then lunch will be the ham-cheese sandwich I brought frm hm.. looking forward to dinner.. wonder what will we be having.. *dreams*..

I guess tt's all for now.. if I've gt anything else to write.. I'll blog later.. Byez..

I'll be mtg Nurul at Payar Lebar MRT station later to go to ECP.. she sounds rather disturbed.. wonder what happened..

Hey peeps! Guess where I am? I've juz been transferred to Science Park to work.. job scope's abt the same.. like data entry bt of a diff. type.. this is um.. IP.. yah.. intellectual property.. I'm still a little fuzzy abt the method of input.. bt.. I guess I'll get used to it as time pass..

I'm having lunch now.. literally.. my food is juz right beside me.. Fishball noodles.. haha..

Poor nat.. she's over at Raffles Plc.. now we're literally on 2 different ends of S'pore..

This plc is.. nice.. small bt lotsa space to move abt.. only 3 of us here.. Angeline (the lawyer), Marsita (Mas) n me! Chris will only be coming nxt wk.. or so I heard.. hmm.. the plc is.. quiet.. totally different frm main office.. well.. guess I've gotta get used to it cos I'll be here at least 2 wks! Hah! :) I better go eat my food now.. b4 they turn cold! Ciao..

V TIRED! It rained the whole day today.. the office, which wasn't all tt cold was chilly today.. it poured.. then we didn't get to go far to eat.. ended up going to MOS burger to grab sm food to go back to the office for lunch.. Aft tt, we were actually still hungry.. prob cos of the weather.. so I made a cup of milo n the both of us gt cream crackers.. at least it was smtg..

I might be transferred to Science Park for up to 3 wks.. ok.. until I finish all the docs there.. cos there came 600 new docs.. manz.. I dun want to go! So FAR!!! Science Park is in Kent Ridge.. my travel expenses is def going to hit the roof.. sigh.. I dunno.. God knows what's best.. I dun wanna think so much as well.. too tired..

Dunno y I'm feeling so tired.. really dun.. N I still hafta work 2 jobs tmr.. oh.. thing abt going to Science Park.. it's going to take me a LOT of time to get back to Renn Thai.. ... how? God'll plan.. yah.. He will..

When reality sets in.. when it starts driving the nail into ur head.. when it slams rite into ur face.. then will u be able to see tt actually it has been there all along.. u were juz walking away frm it..

No one.. wanna face up to the cold, hard fact.. no one wanna face the cruel reality.. I didn't.. bt I still had to in the end.. I guess.. tt's what I've gotta live with.. no one.. can run away reality.. it'll find u in the end..

U've found me.. what else is there to say?

Guess what I did today? I slpt for abt.. 6 hrs.. frm the time I reached hm till abt 9..

Think tt I'm being lazy? Or trying to impersonate a pig? I'm nt..

I was upset.. v upset in fact.. tt's y I cried.. did a great deal of it.. I've nt cried tt much in.. ever since.. nvm.. anyway it was a long time ago..

U.. I have no idea what to say.. I shall nt be rude..

U want me to help u.. bt do u think I'll be happy to earn UR money? I wun.. n u think tt I dun wanna help u? If I dun.. y in the world should I work so hard? Y take on 2 jobs..? U think I like it? Y even bother considering the 3rd one? U think I'm all tt energetic? IF u think I am, I'm sorry.. I've gotta tell u.. I'M NT!

U're nt exactly supporting me.. I'm nt blaming u.. really.. I'm nt.. all I would like to have frm u.. is understanding.. is tt hard? U've nt enough money.. ok.. I'm nt asking for it.. I can pay for my sch fees if u really need me to.. I can pay for my lap-top.. all I need is a few mths.. with lotsa work.. I can.. I juz need u to understand..

U want me to work.. I am.. isn't this enough? Am I nt doing more than what's expected? What else do u want? U're angry.. u dun let me get out of the house.. fine.. what can I say? u say tt I only care abt my frenz.. since when have I nt cared abt the family? I know tt u're frustrated.. angry.. u've lotsa things to think abt.. what abt me? Dun I?

Y can't u juz understand me? I'm I tt hard to fathom?

Juz came back frm KS.. I'm v tired..

Yest, I went to Wang Kai's farewell BBQ frm work.. hmm.. many ppl turned up.. I finally saw Shao Hwee, Jing Rui, Charlene and Dawn.. haha.. aft.. coming to 6 yrs.. then WK invited his other frenz as well.. bt.. I only knew Jacky.. hahaz..

Interesting.. the way we were sitted.. the pri sch bunch of ppl at a table.. gals only.. the pri sch guys at the bbq pit starting fire, a bunch of guys smoking at the other table.. then Jacky n other guys at the beach.. we took turns cooking.. drinks ran out fast.. I helped them to make the stingray.. bt I didn't get to eat it in the end.. :( nvm..

I reached hm at 8.45 this morning.. hahaz.. tired.. went to bed once I reached hm.. *yawnz* then woke up at abt 1.. b4 I gt ready n went for KS.. packed day huh..

Heyz ppl.. Haha.. guess where I am???

I'm in office.. yeah.. now's lunch break.. ok.. actually I think tt it's ended.. bt.. well.. no one's back yet so.. haha.. I dun care..

I'm presently working in this law firm, Colin Ng and Partners.. so far.. ok.. juz smtg like data entry.. when I'm gotta find nos. n put it in.. yah.. tt's abt it.. Working hrs is frm 9-6pm.. dunno how I'm going to do 2 jobs if it's like tt.. sigh.. nvm.. will work smtg out..

I've gotta rush down to ECP aft work.. dunno what time I'll reach.. I'm like SO tempted to take a taxi down.. bt.. Muz save $$.. $$ nt ez to earn.. besides.. I dun print money.. Pit 3.. near Big Splash.. tt's like so far frm Parkway Parade loh.. Nvm nvm.. will find sm way to get there..

Blog later.. if I have the time..

I'm.. frustrated today..

I worked a full-day.. gt my pay.. $280.. nt much.. bt.. at least it's smtg.. Diana gt hers too.. $225 I think.. nt sure.. can't rmb.. manz.. I'm sick n tired of working.. when will sch start?

I'm tired.. n I really feel SO useless.. I can't seem to do anything.. when she's bz.. when she's frustrated.. angry.. anything.. I can't help her.. I want to.. bt.. I juz can't.. maybe it's cos she's nt telling me anything.. maybe it's cos I'm nt doing enough.. maybe it's cos she juz dun wanna bother me.. bt it's bothering me even more this way..

Y is it always this way? Y? I feel like crying.. bt the tears juz wun flow.. I wanna juz hug smone n cry.. bt I juz can't.. cannot cry out.. at all.. y? Y?

I went out today..

1st I went to PS.. to buy a wallet for Chun Xiang.. take it as a belated b'day present..

Then I met up with Diana n EH.. then we went to take a walk.. literally.. walked down to Bugis Street.. when we found out tt Bugis St doesn't open so early.. we reached there at 2+.. so ppl.. if u ppl wanna go Bugis St pls dun go so early..

We met up with Huilin.. then went walking rd Parco.. b4 heading down to Sakae.. had buffet.. yummy.. I'm still so full..

We were abt to go to Parkway when my dad called n asked me where I was.. told me tt there wasn't anyone at hm to take care of my siblings.. so.. guess what I did.. I rushed hm.. yah.. rushed to take the train then the bus.. then rushed hm.. rushing rushing.. manz.. tiring.. I slept in the train.. thankfully I woke up at the rite stop.. else I would have missed the stop.. *phew*

I'll be working full-shift tmr.. then I'll be starting my new job on fri.. sm clerical job at Raffles plc.. Hoping for the best.. tt I'll give my best..

I forgot to update u ppl abt my choices..

1. Business Studies @ NP
2. Law & Management @ TP
3. Business Management @ NYP
4. Business Administration @ SP
5. Banking & Financial Services @ NP
6. Accounting & Finance @ TP
7. Accountancy @ NP
8. Media & Communication @ SP
9. Media Studies & Management @ NYP
10. Optometry @ SP
11. Chemical & Pharmaceutical Tech @ NYP
12. Digital Media Design @ NYP

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Nat's 1st choice is my last choice.. so I guess we wun be going into the same sch aft all.. All the bez then..

Oh.. haha.. I forgot to write this.. n I'm so lazy to edit the other entry.. so I juz decided to write another one..

Today.. there were this 2 guys who came up to sell ice-cream.. hah! They were looking for my mum (as usual) bt I walked over 1st.. then one of the guys said "Mama arh" (The mother arh) then the other one said.. "So young is mother arh" haha.. so funny.. then tt guy said tt I at most 15, 16 only.. so extreme.. haha.. ok.. whatever..

He gt hurt abt a mth ago.. crashed a bike frm his sch.. then hurt his left-hand forefinger n smwhere ard the hips.. he went to see a doc.. finished his doze of med n didn't take smmore although he's still hurting.. his parents doesn't know.. neither does she know.. all she knows is tt he had an accident n hurt his finger.. who would ask so much rite? His parents wun.. neither will she.. they dun bother much abt each other's affairs unless they tell each other..

I'm hoping tt he'll go see the doc again cos I suspect tt he's gt internal injury.. n he told me.. "it's gd actually.." It's cos he used to have frequent backaches when he stand for a long period of time.. now.. he wun have backaches.. he'll have hip pains.. sigh..

I went to meet Chun Xiang for breakfast today.. was supposed to meet him at AMK central's mac at 945.. when I reached there, I msged him n he told me tt he was still at hm!! So I went to the mac oppo diana's house to wait for him.. n her..

Aft tt, she left.. then I went ard AMK.. b4 I went to Tanjong Pagar to get my pay.. $238.50.. cheque.. gd rite.. haha..

I went to Bugis to wait for them.. who? Jason, Poh Wan, Agus n diana.. We went there to shop.. found many nice stuff there.. today's Poh Wan's b'day.. Haha.. today practically the whole restaurant went to Bugis.. Raymond's off.. Davinline off.. Alex's listening to calls.. haha.. cool.. Jason's rxn when he crossed the rd was.. "Wah! Ze me duo ren ah!" (So many ppl arh..) :)

Then diana n I went to have cinammon roll.. then soup at Mos burger.. tt's all.. haha.. well.. speak of having a small appetite..

Diana went back to work.. n I went back hm.. went to Hougang pt to bank in my cheque.. b4 heading hm..

Tt's abt all.. yeah.. smtg interesting happened.. bt I refuse to divuldge it.. dun try squeezing it outta me.. it's of no use k..

I didn't slp last nite.. bt I'm still awake.. haha! :)

I worked today.. frm 11-230.. Jason was supposed to be early today.. as in to start work at 11 bt he came late.. in fact, he was 1/2 hr late! In the end, I had to do 2 person's job in 1/2 hr.. manz.. bt he didn't know tt he needed to work early today.. Nvm loh..

Then I went out with Diana n EH.. went to compasspt.. ate.. talked.. tt's abt it.. sigh.. I'll be working again.. take up another job.. manz.. tiring..

Argh! I dunno what else to write.. haha.. nvm.. OH! I'll be getting my pay frm Saffron Hill tmr.. ooo.. :).. dun ask me for treats.. I can't afford it kz..

I'm crazy! I juz gt hm nt long ago.. n no.. it's nt cos of work.. it's cos I accompanied my kor..

Manz.. this is madness.. drinking will nt solve anything loh.. so what if he misses her.. is this the only way to get to see her? Hmm.. I think so..

Sigh.. dun wanna talk abt it..

Today in church, many ppl asked abt my results.. abt where I'm going n all.. pls.. I really do want to go poly.. although I would love to go to U aft tt.. I know tt it isn't tt ez to go to U if I go thru poly.. bt.. at least I'll try.. if God wills me to go into the U.. I will.. it's all in God's plan..