Sleepless...

So here I am..
Cannot sleep though I am tired..

辛苦，心疼，用淚水洗臉
我可憐的枕頭

I really don't know His plans in all of this..

Maybe it's just to help him out of his previous....
Maybe it's to reiterate that fairytales are fairytales.. there's no "happily ever after" for me..
Or that I'd not have a fairytale ending..

Maybe I'm being negative about it..
But what can I say..
It's like a calm before the storm..

I thought things were better..
But it might only be the beginning..

Maybe like what I originally thought..
Maybe he's better off without me..
Maybe he'd be happier with someone else..

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps...

啊！多麼痛的領悟⋯⋯

So this is it..?

So I forced the question..
and made him think about what's happening and to give a timeline to this.

And FINALLY there was a response

Wasn't really expecting any particular type of response so having any response is good.

So now there's a timeline..
something to work towards..

And from there..
what then?

It'd either be a "conversion to perm" or a kthxbye
Something he's not willing to comment on.

I have to admit that I've expected that he'd not be able to take it
PTSD and all...
So what if he had fought hard?
The toll always kicks in later..

Sometimes.. love just ain't enough.

Maybe I already expected his answer when he let me read about "conscious uncoupling".

And MAYBE...
after it all..
he'd still decide that there's someone else who's more suitable for him..
who he'd be happier with..

Probably that's the best outcome of it all..