Today's baby's birthday..
It'd be the 2nd time I'm celebrating his birthday with him...
Feel so happy... :)

Watched youtube on dances today..
Just reminded me of how I'm aching to go back and dance....

Hope you'll like the following song...
and video clip..

Hi all

I know... I've been mia for I don't even remember how long... and I know that saying I'm busy (although I've really been) isn't a very good excuse......

I'm actually not intending on blogging a lot this time round...

Just wanted to mention that I've been working in this company for....... hmmm... 7 months already (has it even been that long?!?)

I've made a couple of good friends.. They're real darlings...
Although none of you will ever stumble on this... I suppose I just want to say....

I am really thankful that God has given me this opportunity to have you all in my life... it made my stay in SG more bearable... more fun... more to look forward to...

Also....

Baby...
Thank you for being so understanding...

I love you..

Thank you lots for today my love...

The truth is...
You're my love,
my life,
my all....

New favorite..
Means a lot...
and only you and I will understand why...




Reach Out - Take That

If our arms were reaching out
If our words could only bridge the doubt
Will we lose this chance again?
Strange roads with different signs
Don't even know where we divide
Are you my enemy or my friend?

REFRAIN:

'Cause I don't know you
And you don't know me
It's the same sun rising
We all just look to the sky
If we try
We can work it out somehow
If you don't know me
And I don't know you
How can we be fighting
We're all connected it's true
Reaching out
It's only love that pulls us through

We all grieve in different ways
If one tear could wash away the pain
We're all free to have the faith we believe, yeah
The world sleeps at different times
With one turn your day is now my night
We all live sharing the air that we breathe

REFRAIN

Reaching out, reaching high
Reaching out
Touching you, touching me

If our arms were reaching out
If our words could only bridge the doubt

REFRAIN

Reaching out, reaching high
Reaching out
Touching you, touching me

Reaching out
It's only love that pulls us through

There's a lot I want to say...
A lot I want to do...
But it's not the right time...

It's already written down..

I'll tell you in time...

I'm sorry....
I know it's been donkey years since I blogged...
SORRY!!!!!!!!

Went to T3 with baby yesterday...
It's beautiful...
It's huge and bright...
Has 919 light panels (I can't even remember what kind of panels those are)..
BEAUTIFUL restarants (you should REALLY look at Crystal Jade Shanghai restaurant... you can never miss it...)

Had Popeyes for dinner...
Baby said it was better previously...
It's not that good now...

Whatever it is...
I had a good day with baby...
Totally enjoyed myself...

Thank you for making today such a wonderful day...

I love you...
*muacks*

Attended dance competition yesterday...
Here's what I have to say...

I totally miss competitive...

When you're a competitor, I'd say that the main goal that you have is to stand on that podium... (well.. everyone will want to stand on the podium.... who doesn't... haha..)
You'd put in many hours of sweat and pain (literally) to train for that upcoming competition (which always seem to come again and again..)

Standing as a competitor's coodinator.. each time I'm one.. (that'd be 3 times as of yesterday..) I can say that......... the people are getting harder to handle... especially the juniors from SOME particular institute... or should I say 2 particular institutes that I am/was NOT from...

It isn't an easy job I can say.. and it definitely isn't one in which people will appreciate... you might think that it's their role to be there to make sure things are done right.. or to make sure that you don't miss your rounds etc etc... think again...... we're not your parents whatsoever.. we don't have to spoon feed you... (and yet I still run around looking for missing couples who don't bother to respond to me when I call out their numbers.. FOR WHAT?!?!)

After this com and NP will be down another 2 couples... (or should that be 3...) dear juniors... you all really have to work hard... so much harder....

And a side note to all the juniors (although you all might never get to read this).. I love you guys... you all really are a nice bunch.. :) The way you all show the seniors that you appreciate our efforts.... Thank you so much.....

So proud of you guys....

And baby...
I know you did your best...
Practice harder and you'll reach that mark...
I know you will..
*hugz*

I've learnt something today...
that is not to bear grudges against others...
not to dig out the past and use it...
because it will cause conflicts...
it hurts both parties...
and it's not good for growth...

I' m tired.....
Baby.....
I just want to run into your arms and rest....

~Will you shelter me like you used to? Will you hold me and tell me I'm yours?~

Baby brought me to Kushin-bo (Suntec lvl 4, next to sky garden) for dinner last night....

I would have to say that the food there is not bad...
Wide variety..
some of the Japanese food there are really traditional like their oden..
yet the waiting time is a killer (we waited for more than an hour before it was our turn... and we were ard the 5th in line!)

But it was a relatively pleasurable because baby was there... :)

Love you baby...
*muacks*

*PS. I'm dozing off... nodding already..

I adopted a pet!!!! :)

A virtual one though....
My handphone has this cool function called mPet...
and I adopted a dog whose name is Happy! (I didn't name the dog... my sister did..)

It's so cute...
Really is... :)

And........

I so feel like a pig today....
I bought this 4 mini hotdog rolls from 7-11 (I personally won't recommend anyone buying it cos the bread tastes a bit damp and the hot dog's hard and dry...)
Had 2 for breakfast....
Had seafood soup with rice for lunch...
Having the other 2 hotdog rolls for tea break...
and there's brownie from Big O today.... :)

So fattening.............

I wanna go back to dance....
danced a little on sun...
felt great....

But I can't continue...
cos I don't have the finances to......

Anyone want to donate to the "Save the poor Deborah fund"?

I haven't checked my personal email for at least 2 weeks...
I don't have a good feeling about it....
Haha..
(think my inbox is blown by now...)

Baby!!!
You must study hard k?

Baby's so sweet....
I was very tired on Saturday when I went over to his place..
I skipped lunch to sleep..
and him..
not wanting to leave me alone....
didn't have lunch as well.....
Then when I woke up...
He cooked instant noodles for me....
and I had noodles in bed!
mmmm...
Luxury... :p

Thank you baby!
*muacks*

Yesterday's announcement had a meaningful fact...

Of rocks, pebbles and stones...
none of them are perfectly shaped..
even the "nicer" looking ones has cracks and/or lines on them..
and it's up to the person to see what can be done with it..

Like as we are the rocks, stones or pebbles...
we're also imperfect with many flaws...
it's of God's love and will that we are who and what we are today..
and He still loves us all the same....

~How wondrous is Your love...~

I thank God that dar's fine...
She should be discharged today...

~Dear God... Thank You for answering our prayers..~

Watched Enchanted with baby last week (was it last week? I think so.....)

Really nice..
Romantic...
and the song's nice too! :)




You all should catch Hitman too..

~That's how I know I love you baby..~

Diana's in hospital....

The doctor suspects it to either be a case of thyroid or menigitis.. (please don't ask me what they are.. I have not much either myself..)

Please pray for her..
Hopefully it's just a more severe case of migraine..

I've never felt so transparent in my life....
I'm never included in ANYTHING here....
I'm excluded from everything...
Even my senior's birthday lunch...

Yes..
I totally dislike here..
I'm literally working for the sake of working..

Oh God..
Help me....

I really prefer studying to working....

IF I could...
I'd rather study my whole life... (muahahaha..)

So kids...
Don't be in a rush to grow up...
The adult-world isn't a paradise..

It's so much better to be young..........

Been reading thru some people's blogs and mine in my free time......

Really thought of how I felt....
and I can say this....

Baby...
I really miss you...
I still do love you...

Yet I won't promise you anything...
cos I don't want to break any promises anymore..

Tried this game..... (took it from Christine's blog)

So fun! And I donated 1000 grains of rice!!!

COOL!!!!!!!! :p

http://freerice.com/

New favourite.......
Sad.. but meaningful....



不能说的秘密

冷 咖 啡 离 开 了 杯 垫
leng ka fei li kai le bei dian
我 忍 住 的 情 绪 在 很 后 面
wo ren zhu de qing qu zai hen hou mian
拼 命 想 挽 回 的 从 前
pin ming xiang huan hui de cong qian
在 我 脸 上 依 旧 清 晰 可 见
zai wo lian shang yi jiu qing xi ke jian

最 美 的 不 是 下 雨 天
jui mei de bu shi xia yu tian
是 曾 与 你 躲 过 雨 的 屋 檐
shi ceng yu ni duo guo yu de wu yan
回 忆 的 画 面
hui yi de hua mian
在 荡 着 秋 千 梦 开 始 不 甜
zai dang zhe qiu qian meng kai shi bu tian

你 说 把 爱 渐 渐 放 下 会 走 更 远
ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zou geng yuan
又 何 必 去 改 变 已 错 过 的 时 间
you he bi qu gai bian yi cuo guo de shi jian
你 用 你 的 指 尖 阻 止 我 说 再 见
ni you ni de zhi jian zu zeng wo shuo zai jian
想 象 你 在 身 边 在 完 全 失 去 之 前
xiang xiang ni zai shen bian zai wan quan shi qu zi qian

你 说 把 爱 渐 渐 放 下 会 走 更 远
ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zou geng yuan
或 许 命 运 的 签 只 让 我 们 遇 见
huo xu ming yun de qian zhi rang wo men yu jian
只 让 我 们 相 恋 这 一 季 的 秋 天
zhi rang wo men xiang lian zhe yi ji de qiu tian
飘 落 后 才 发 现 这 幸 福 的 碎 片
piao luo hou cai fa xian zhe xin fu de sui pian
要 我 怎 么 捡
yao wo zhen me jian

Know what's the best thing my senior said?

"If I were to keep everything that you've done wrong.. I'll be able to start a file by now.."

Haha......
That shows how many mistakes I made (make)..

Well...
I'm just not interested at all....
Couldn't be bothered to check my work...
Couldn't care less.....
And I'm careless...
Haha....

Wonderful combination....

I HATE MY JOB.....

Really do....
totally NO interest in it whatsoever...
just doing it for the sake of doing it...
making tons of mistakes...
getting lots of scolding...

HATING every milisecond of it....

Sigh.......

Why do I put myself thru this kind of pain....

~'Cause you don't know how to choose girl....~

Corrinne May's latest album...
One of the songs has very nice lyrics that I want to dedicate to baby n dar...

On the Side of Me

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Yeah you choose to be on the side of me
On the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hood
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
But you...

Thank you for everything you all have done for me...
and for standing On the Side of Me....

I know where my heart is..
I know where I'd be able to give more..
and where to receive more..

I know it hurts baby..
it hurts him..
n it hurts me..

But what I know..
isn't helping me to make any decisions.........

I miss his hugs..
the way he puts his arms around me..
the simplest twitch on his face..

All....
deeply etched in my memory..

I know I'd never be able to love another the way I do him..
but is that enough to make me go back...
I know he's trying very hard...
I know he's been fighting..
he's been giving..
and he really can give..

Everything I've ever yearned for in the past when we were together is now coming true..

God....
I don't know what You have in store for me..
I don't know Your plans...
I only hope..
and pray..
that You'll be able to show me the way..
so that I'll make the right choice..
and not regret............

~Some decisions just ain't easy to make..~

I know that I'll never be able to love anyone else the way I love you...
It's just impossible...

My heart will never ache the way it does for you...
I'll never do the things I did for you for another person..

It might be v unfair to whoever comes next..
Even if the person is you...
I might not give that much anymore...
But I know I'll still give willingly..

Reading my scollbar's running text send tears to my eyes..
It really applies..........

And I know that I really do love you..
and that you do love me too..

And a part of me will never stop loving you......
Never...............

~I'll always love you.. Lenny See Tho Kong Yong.. ~

To clarify matters....

I still love you..
I still want to dance with you..

I still need you..

Then you'll probably wonder why I still don't want to take you back..

Seriously...
I don't know either..

I think it's the parents-religion-love issue...

Complicated....

But this is for sure.....

Baby..
I love you..

Hi all....

I know I haven't been blogging for a long time...

Lots of things have happened........

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Help me with this..
Post comments on my tagboard or something..
(I don't know how many of you still bother to read my blog though..)

Would you rather choose....

The love of your life.. the one you loved and still do.. who used to love you lesser than you loved him.. who said he'd cherish you and treat you better from now on.. who's trying hard to win you back.. who'd have a higher possibility of converting and becoming a christian..

OR

The man of your dreams.. a "fairytale prince".. who'd love you more than you could ever love him.. who'd take care of you and pamper you.. who's a free-thinker and probably won't believe in God at all..

I know who my parents would prefer me to choose.. yet they say..
Find someone who'd love you more than you'll love him..
Find a Godly-rooted man..

Should the question be who should I choose?
Or
Should I even choose at all?

I thank you for tonight..

Dinner at Kenny Rogers was great..
Your company is appreciated..

Thank you also for the daisy....
it's really very special..

I hope that you'll be happy..
I hope that you'll find happiness one day.......








Baby.. you'll always be a part of me..

14 October 2007, Sunday

1 year, 1 month, 21 days..

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Baby..
Thank you for the time you've given..
Thank you for everything you've done..

I love you..







Guess it's time to move on..

Dar.....

Thank you so much......
really thanks a lot...

Baby...

I now know what you feel is lacking..
I'm sorry..
I'll try harder..

~I'll pay more attention and listen to you.. hope you'll hear my feelings too..~

It takes a lot of love to save a dying soul.....

I love you..

Baby should be on his way back now.....

He said that he'll be taking the 10pm bus back from Ipoh..
But he didn't call or msg me to inform me so I can only guess..

Anyway..
I'm just glad that he's coming home soon..
Finally can get to see him again..

Can't wait..... :)

Baby.....
This song is for you..
and it sings my feelings towards you..

My heart's with you..
I don't have eyes for anyone else..
I hope you'll know that..

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love for You

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever
Oh, so clearly I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(CHORUS) Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(CHORUS) Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you

Maybe I don't mean as much as I used to..
Maybe I'm no longer than important..
but I know that you still mean a lot to me..
maybe even more than you used to..

In your arms I feel safe..
Warm..
At ease..
Loved..
Cared for..
YOURS..

Yet..
I don't know how you feel in mine..

Do you feel the same?

I hope you do.........

~Yours truely..~

I felt the tremors in office today.......
felt like vomiting..
felt giddy too..

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Day 2..

Still can't get to sleep at night...

I'm like mummy..
She can't sleep without daddy...
I can't sleep when baby's not around..

When he's overseas..
I can't get to sleep..

When he don't answer my calls or reply my smses..
I worry..
and I can't sleep too..

I have to spend the day with him..
know he's fine..
hear his voice at night..
before I can have a good night's rest..

If I happen to doze off before he calls..
I'd wake up in the middle of the night with a shock..
and I don't know why..

Maybe I care too much..
maybe it's just me..

I don't understand YOU..
I don't understand why YOU ALWAYS have to do it..

I never wanted to be angry with YOU..
I can't seem to help myself..

WHAT'S WRONG?!?!?

YOU said that YOU're jealous..
I guess it's just YOU..
YOU're the one who always wanted things YOUR way..
When anyone gets more important than YOU..
YOU had to take them away..
YOU had to make me feel pain..
YOU had to let me go through undescribable sorrow..
YOU let me have joy at some period of time..
I thank YOU for that..
Especially for the last 1 year, 1 month and 20 days of my life..

Please.......
Don't take him away..

YOU gave me him..
He's so important to me...

Please......
I really need him..

~God.. I really love him..~

~I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you~

"There will always be problems to work out with your other half. That is simply part of two people becoming one. It is never easy and takes lots of love,patience, time, communication, and commitment."

Others are not important..
You're the only one..

Hope you can see and understand that..

~I miss you already..~

7 September 2007

Baby's 19th birthday..

I couldn't accompany him the whole day because the both of us are working..
I managed to meet him at Intercontinental hotel where he's filming..
Bought him a small cake..
Had dinner with baby, darren, cheryl tan, alicia and geno..

I'm sorry...
I know I should have gotten something more..
But that was all I could afford..

I'm glad you liked it..

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6 September 2007

Met baby for dinner after work..
Had dinner at Carnivore..
It really was A LOT OF MEAT!!!!
Saw Yi An there..
and her boyfriend..

Went to PS to catch a movie..
No Reservations...
It's a nice, touching movie..
Should watch!!! :)

Just reached home not so long ago...

Went to Max Brennar's for fondue with Baby, bro n minnie..
Nice fondue.. :)

Been thinking alot today...
Can't really put them down into words though....

~Do I still mean as much as I used to?~

Baby's filming....
Can't really remember the name of that movie...
(Think it's called Dance of the Dragon..)
But it's a collaboration between local actress Fann Wong, some Korean star and Hollywood actor Jason Scott Lee..

So proud of you baby...
Don't tire yourself out ok?

Haven't seen you in a while...
Miss you a lot.....

Hope you miss me too!
XOXO

Baby...
I miss you..

When you told me that you might fail a module..
I wanted to sms you a reply but you called..
So I shall write the reply here..

Baby..
No matter how you did..
Or how you'll do..
Don't worry..
I'll be here for you..
We'll walk through this together..
Hand in hand..

~I love you.. *muacks* ~

The block suddenly look red..
Looks scary..
Guess why?

Some bunch of people burning the paper house and everything..
Funeral..

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Yesterday was Lion City..
The couples were good..
REAL good..
Makes me miss dance..
Sigh...

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Baby and I have been together for a year as of 23rd August 2007.. :)

We had our dinner at Suntec's Ichiban Boshi..
but he didn't have time to study for the next day's paper.. :(
I'm sorry..

The past year has been great..
Although there's lots of ups and downs..
I'm glad that we've made it this far..

I love you..

Somehow..
It seems that we don't know you anymore..

Your temperament..
Your thinking..

If it weren't for baby..
I don't know how I'd be able to go thru this..

You haven't exactly been very supportive..
You may have been trying to give your best for the family..
I have to say that you've done a good job at trying to keep the family going..
But I'm not sure if you're keeping the family together..

May God be with you..
Don't stress yourself out so much..
Although so much has happened..
We still love you..

The fireworks festival display is VERY GOOD..
That million dollars was really put into good use..
Designs that I've never before seen..
Flower fireworks of different colour petals..
Shimmering ones..
Multi-coloured display..

It was really beautiful..
Managed to catch it with baby, clar n brian..
then we went to Coffee Club for dinner/supper..

Came home..
Got scolded..

Do you want to know the reason why I detest coming home early?
Do you EVEN want to know?

You nag at me everytime I reach home..
I know I can't expect you to give me anything..
but it's be nice to know that you care..
that you would ask how I'm doing..

All my life..
I feel..
Has been dictated by you..
My schools..
The part I want to walk..

You disapproved of my friends..
My dressing..
Everything..

I don't think I'm asking for much..
All I had hoped for was for someone to appreciate me..
and to just acknowledge what I've done..
and have you?

You were always absent during important events..
Somehow, something always had to crop up..
You say that you regret it..
So what?

Some promises made were never carried out..
and can I blame you for that?

You said your mental health is declining..
I say..
that if you continue doing what you're doing now..
I'll definitely be the next one..

I don't want to look in the mirror..
and all I see are reflections of you..

I want to live a life of MY OWN..
not manipulated or dictated by anyone..
Especially you..

~I don't know how much more of this I can take before I break..~

I love the way you stretch out your arms to hug me especially when I'm feeling upset..
Your arms..
Your hugs..
Warm..
Gives me comfort..
Makes me feel secure..

Your outstretched arms give..
a welcoming feel..

I can hear your heart beat in tune with mine..
Your embrace..

In your arms is where I belong..

~I thank God for you..~

Having you call me up in the morning is a rarity..
It's a fresh start that I love..

I love to hear your voice in the morning..
Brightens up my day..

I don't know how you feel about hearing mine in the morning..
Maybe you're already used to hearing it..
I hope you don't find me irritating or boring..

Have been working OT for the past 2 days..
Very tiring..
Work for more than 12 hrs..
Whole body aching..
Stiff shoulders..

The thought of being able to hear you or see you at the end of the day keeps me going on..

See you in dreamland baby..
*muacks*

You're the only reason why I go to sleep at night..
Your voice helps me rest peacefully..

You're the only reason why I want to wake up every morning..
To greet you the first thing in the morning..

You're the only reason why I look forward to the end of the day..
To be able to meet up with you for dinner..

Days without you are long and dreary..
I can't go on without tears in my eyes..

The heavy-hearted feeling..
The stabbing pains in my heart..

I miss you baby..

I'm sorry......

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A little something for you...

You mean so much to me
More than I could ever say
And even if you don't believe
I mean it in every way

Whenever we're together
Nothing can go wrong
And I know
With you is where I belong

Whenever we're together
I thank God I'm alive
With you by my side
I know I can survive

You take away my sadness
You take away my pain
This feeling when I'm with you
Is nothing I can explain

I wish I could be with you
All throughout each day
Therefore the smile on my face
Would never have to go away

I know you understand
That I'm in a constant fight
And you're one main reason
Why my life is worth the fight

You've always been there for me
No matter what I've gone thru
So I just want to take take this time to say
Thank you and I love you.....

And on a hind note..
Tasha is really very adorable..
She's really VERY CUTE!!!!



See!!!!
She looks so sweet when she smiles too!
And I love her eyes..
Like a hint of grey......
With brown..

Went to meet baby after he knocked off..
Yup..
He's working now..

Had supper with him, dar, walter, joe n another chef at Oasis (near the National Stadium)..

Nice food.. :)

Baby..
I'm glad you're happy working there..

Work hard k?

Oh...
and also...

Thank you SO MUCH for coming down to church today although you were tired 'cause you didn't sleep..
Thank you..

Love you lots..
*muacks*

Clar dearie..
I hope you enjoyed your birthday..
Although I wasn't able to see you personally, I'm glad you liked the present.. :)

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There's this "Spider Pig" song found in The Simpsons' Movie that baby is so crazy over..
It goes something like....

spider pig..spider pig..does whatever a spider pig does..can he swing.. from a web.. no he cant he's a pig... look out!!!

I changed it to....

Baby pig.. Baby pig.. Baby cute cute my baby pig.. Baby smart.. Baby sweet.. Baby handsome.. Baby pig..

Haha.. :)

~ I love my darling baby.. ~

I think of the times you hold me..
It's those times that the worst of days turn bright..

The look in your eyes..
Your smile..
Your laughter..
Your touch..
Your voice..
Your hugs..

The gentleness..
The care..
The love..

Everything else fades..
The rest aren't important..
Only you stand out..

Losing interest in everything else..
No appetite..
Time drags on..

~ I miss you... Truck loads.. ~

Thinking back..

Baby's been a wonderful boyfriend..
I shouldn't have commented or reacted the way I did..
I'm sorry..
Sorry for making assumptions..

I've had many happy memories with you..
But it seems that you weren't that happy with me..

I'm sorry that I inferred things the way I did
And that I made you angry because of the way I reacted to the situation
I wont blog about this kind of things anymore

I'll keep the memories..
Hope you'll keep whatever wonderful memories you have too..

And I hope that we'll be able to make more memories together..

~I love you, baby..~

Baby's trying to get a new dance partner..
Probably going to dance with this girl..

Suddenly wonder if I should stop dancing..
One reason would be because I am still partnerless..
Not that I don't want to find one..
More of I can't find one..

Nikki said that if I really love dance..
I should carry on..

I don't know..

I do like to dance..
But the one I want to dance with won't dance with me..

I know I'm not a good dancer..
Posture wrong..
No force..
No techniques..
Not good at it at all..

You say people should know their limits..
But I don't want to give up..
Or should I?

Finished reading the book "The Five People You Meet in Heaven"..

Here are a few quotes from the book that I find extremely meaningful..

"Strangers are the family you have yet to come to know."

"People say they 'find' love, as if it were an object hidden by a rock. But love takes many forms, and it is never the same for any man and woman."

"Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive."

It's a book worth reading..
Lots of descriptive phrases..
Teach you a few things as well..
About life and death, sacrifice, loyalty, forgiveness and love..

Do pick up the book if you have the chance..
Read and digest..

Baby came down to fetch me from work..
Accompanied me for interview..
Had dinner at China Square with me..
Went to Toast Box for a snack.. (please don't ever go there.. Ya Kun's much better..)

Found out that baby and I have similar thinkings with regards to certain things.. :p

Went to Esplanade..
Max Brenner's!!!!!!
Baby had Suckao (it's a drink.. using chocolate and milk to "boil" DIY style) and I had American Chocolate..
Yummy!!!

Thank you for paying for everything baby..

Sorry for making you angry..
Hope you liked the mangosteens..

Called baby to wake him up..
It's like a daily routine to do so..

Baby's so cute..
The things he say when he's half awake..
The way he says it..
Cute.. Really very cute.. :)

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Baby went to receive his half colours award in school today..
I went down too..
I'm so proud of him.. :)
Although I have been unable to qualify for the award, I was able to support baby and also got to enjoy a wonderful reception (and food).. :p

love you baby..

Sorry for this extremely late post..

My birthday was GREAT!!!
Got to spend the whole day with baby.. :)

Thanks to..
Those who sent me birthday wishes..
and belated birthday wishes..

Thanks to baby..
and dar..
for bringing me to Bungalow to have a sumpteous meal..
Had Seafood Spanish Baked Rice, (took a bit of baby's Grilled Chicken with Oregano Sauce), Escagots with herbs and cheese, Chicken coquettes, some cod fish, meatballs..
Ice cream cake (cookies and cream!!!)..
The bar guy (don't know his name) who made me a birthday drink..
(I had White Russian)..
The chef, Walter who cooked the delicious food..

Thanks to baby and dar for spending the night with me..
and paying for the meal..
Really is the best birthday in my life.. :)

Love you two lots..
*muacks*

Suddenly had the urge to listen to the Pro Rege cd..
So I did..
and didn't go sleep with baby..
Sorry..

Really miss singing..
Miss singing in a choir..

Reminiscing the times when we practiced till our throats were sore just to cut this cd..

~Bittersweet memories..~

Nice song..
From Quest of Camelot..

Looking Thru Your Eyes

Look at the sky
Tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes
And describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling
With starlight tonight
That's what I see
Through your eyes

I see the heavens
Each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat
Just go on for miles
And suddenly I know
My life is worth while
That's what I see
Through your eyes

Chorus:
Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

I look at myself
And instead I see us
Whoever I am now
It feels like enough
And I see a girl
Who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes

(Chorus)

And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much THAT I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with you forever

(chrous)

i see a night i wish could last forever
i see a world we're meant to see together
and it is so much more than i remember
more than i remember
more than i have ever known

(chorus)

looking through your eyes

I'm taken ill.. :(

Clar managed to convince me to consult a doctor..
Baby came down as well and paid for my consultation..
Thank you baby..
He also paid for my lunch..

I don't want to be sick tomorrow..
Baby said that if I'm still sick..
I wouldn't be able to go out..
I want to go out..

I'm better already..
My fever has already subsided..
Hope that it won't come back again tomorrow..

Stayed at home the whole day (except to see the doctor)..
Tried to teach Rachel Chinese..
And help Crystal with her Maths..
Tried till I almost vomitted blood..

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Got to learn basic Paso yesterday..
IT HURTS..

Back pain, shoulder pain..
Because we have to tense the muscles..
REALLY OUCH..
But it isn't that bad..
Quite fun in someways..

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Sigh..

I really hope that I can go out tomorrow..

I'm going to have the best birthday of my life..

I can't wait.. :)

Jasmine sang this song yesterday..
I guess it applies to us too..
Baby..
This is for you..



Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

~I'll stand by you, baby..~

Went to attend a concert yesterday..
Sing for kids at NP Convention Hall..
NPDS was performing..
Janani sang..
They were wonderful..
Norman Then and Paul Two-Hill sang together..
Jasmine Tye sang as well..
They weren't that bad..
Then there were A LOT of bands..
Some were quite ok..
1 was good..
The rest were ATROCIOUS..

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Baby came down to fetch me from work today.. :)
Then we went to PS for dinner..
Had LJS and also Chippy's Beer Battered Fish..
The fish was GOOD.. :)

Oh..
and baby bought Famous Amos cookies for me!
Nice!!!
Thank you baby..
*muacks*

I started my temp job yesterday..
Working at Rodyk & Davidsons LLP (law firm)..
"Office" in the pantry..
Doing typical admin stuff like filing, faxing, photocopying etc.
I also became a telephone operator, calling law firms for documents.

The firewall there is very strong..
They blocked everything..
No MSN, no web messenger..
Even accessing yahoo search is a problem..

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Baby came down and fetch me!
Dar, baby and I went to Marina Bay for dinner..
Then baby fetched me home..

I'm a happy girl.. :)

I would love to dance with you..
The feeling is nice..
Because it's you..
But I guess I won't be able to..
Unless we get married..

I miss dancing..
Miss competing..

I need a dance partner..
But it isn't tt simple..
Cause' there are so many girls without partners..
and so few guys..

I had a great time yesterday...

Caught the NDP rehearsal's fireworks display with Baby..
(will post pictures if I can)

Went down to S&G after that..
Although I didn't really dance, I managed to get some insights into dance..
which was real good..
and hard to come by..

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Today's sermon was good.

Titled "Crucified with Christ". (Galatians 2:20)

What struck me the most was that Christ loved us so much that He would willingly suffer the most accursed death so as to save us from our darkest sins..
Also, that love involves giving..
Love is about what you can give and not what you can receive.

And that it does not matter who else He loves, He loves me and died for me..
All for me..

A real blessed thought..

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Song lyrics that Christine smsed me..

Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade,
To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry.
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky

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~Baby.. I'll do all I can for you.. I'll give my all.. I love you..~

Went for an interview at AIA Tampines..

Met up with Greg, Lloyd, Benny, Diana and Wanni for dinner at PS Cafe Cartel..
Then Wanni left and the rest of us went to Monstercue for a round of pool..
Left with Diana halfway..

Baby seems to be angry about something..
but I've no idea what..

Sigh..
I wish you would tell me..
Instead of ignoring me..

I'm like totally going ga-ga over Tasha..
(for those who don't know.. Tasha's my friend, Wei Er's daughter)

She's really very gorgeous..
and so cute!

And there's this particularly heart-warming picture of Josh carrying her and she smiling..



Awwwww....

Ps. Wei Er.. Don't mind me taking the photos.. I really love them.. :)

Nikki made this for Faiz..



We'll miss you Faiz..

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Baby and I went out for dinner..
Had dessert at Toa Payoh Entertainment Centre..
This....
Snow Ice thingy..
Quite cool..

Although it's a little on the expensive side..
It's worth trying..
Tastes quite ok..
and it's interesting.. :)

Just came back from NPDS outing..

Met the bunch (Nikki, Tas, Faiz, Cheryl Chong, Kai, Cheryl Ong, Alicia, Pin, Yvonne, Greg, Darren, Michelle, Desmond, Brian, Clar, Valence and Geno) at Marina Square.. They were playing pool and arcade games..
Clar and Brian went back to S&G.. Michelle, Desmond, Darren and Yvonne went for the NDP rehearsal..
Then we adjourned to Marina Bay for steamboat..
Adeline, Brian (Nikki's siblings), Ryan and Shawn came to join us..

We managed to catch the fireworks near where we were eating at..
(We were actually watching it in the middle of the road.. No kidding..)
They were gorgeous.. :)

Baby and I got our first chance at Para-Para..
Actually..
It wasn't all that bad.. :p

To Faiz..
All the best..
We'll miss you..

Baby..
Thank you for today..
and for saying that you love me and meant it..

I love you too..

~A bunch of friends + $10 + Para-Para Machine = FUN!!! -quote from Brian (Nikki's brother)~

"Come As You Are"

Shelter my feelings, stand by my side
You need no alibi
Show your emotions, give me a sign
Let me know that you're mine

Be my lover, be my best friend
Oh baby, save me when I fade
And I will always love you
I promise I'll be true to you
If you...
Come as you are
Don't change a thing
Here is my heart
Just walk right in

Come as you are
Don't tell me lies
And I'll be yours
'Till do us part

There is a heaven
It's in your eyes
Where I have no disguise

Please don't mislead me
Rescue my pride
Show me you're really mine

I want you for me, no questions asked
Don't need to know 'bout your past
'Cause I will always love you
I promise I'll be true, to you
If you...
Come as you are
Don't change a thing
Here is my heart
Just walk right in

Come as you are
Don't tell me lies
And I'll be yours
'Till do us part

Totally love rumba songs..
Love dance..
Love you baby..

*I need a dance partner..*

I'm happy.. :)

Today, I got to hear you say that you love me..
Yes..
You said it to me..
Straight to my face..

I'm a happy girl..

~You don't need to do much.. Even the simplest things you say can make my day..~

Went to Suki Sakura for dinner with baby..
The food there wasn't all that fantastic..
But we were quite full though..

I've received a call from Cheryl (PwC)..
Going for a meeting (interview) on mon..
I do hope I'll get the job...

Dar..
Don't be so upset..
Things will get better..

I'll start work soon (hopefully)..
Then you won't be the only one working..
and we can lunch together..
(That is if I'm working in PwC..)

Opps...

Sorry for not posting for a while..

Most important event that happened the past week was dar's birthday..

Dar!!!
You're 21!!! :P

I love you..

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Baby's been real sweet..
Accompanying me although he's feeling tired and all..
Thank you so much baby.. *muacks*

I wish that I could hold your hands..
Put my arms around you..
When we're out..
Hear you say the words that matter from the heart..
and to hear you say that I'm your girl..

Guess I can't wish for too much..
Got to take things a step at a time..

For now..
I'm really thankful that I got to hear (see) you say "sure" when I asked if you wanted me to go down..
That really meant a lot to me..
Thank you..

Baby..

I'm sorry for portraying you as immature..
Yes..
Words do hold weight..
The way I phrase or put it to people will direct and affect their thinking..
Sorry..

I'll work at the issues..

Thank you for today..

I love you..

Went for the job interview..

In the past, when I had an interview,
Baby would give me his well wishes..
Today..
Lack of his well wishes,
I was feeling uneasy..
Think I kind of screwed the interview..

I was reading thru the past smses that he sent..
Suddenly felt upset..
It's been a long while since I've seen him sms like that..

When I went for my interview at PwC for attachment,
he smsed "Interview in Abt 40 mins ^^ best of luck k missing you..."

Thinking about it made me quite emotional..
Had to try to hold back my emotions that were threatening to overflow..

Today...
He still didn't reply my smses,
but at least he picked up my call..
We managed to talk for 1 minute..
For that,
I'm glad..

Thank You, God!

Baby...

In my eye there lies no vision but the sight of your dear face,
In my heart there is no feeling but the warmth of your embrace.
In my mind there are no thoughts but thoughts of you, baby,
In my soul, no other longing but just to have you near.
All my dreams are built around you, and I've come to know it's true -
In my life, there is no living that is not a part of you.

School has reopened today..

His lecture starts at 10..

He probably skipped it..

and will go for the afternoon lessons instead..

After that would be "dinner" then dance..

I'll be going for a job interview at Carlton hotel..

Been offered a position as HR Assistant..

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I hope and pray that we will be able to return to before..

but it's not up to me to choose..

~I still have faith and believe that you're the one.. the one that I need, the one that I'll keep for all time..~

Good morning..

I'm still not asleep yet..
Can't seem to sleep..

My stomach's empty..
But I'm still not hungry..

Keep thinking..

Sigh....

I now understand how you felt in the first few months..
I seemed to have gotten the whole thing plus installments back in the last coming to 2 weeks..

Yet, I don't feel any less towards you..
Instead, I feel more for you and I want to try harder..
Want to make myself better..

I hope for another chance..
Hope that you won't be angry with me..

Boy I'm in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know I misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 2]

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
We head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

[Bridge]

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel just like walking away
But as our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 3]

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe you'll never find
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
You never know baby you and I

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life, you're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without you there to see me through

~Baby.. It's impossible.. I can't imagine me without you..~

It feels totally different now..

I still love you..
I still feel the same for you..
If not more..

I know you're hurt..
Because of what I've done..
Because of what I've said..

I'm not doing any better..
I hurt because you're ignoring me..
I hurt because of the words you said..

Seems like I'm entering the depression stage..
I hope you'll be with me and walk with me through this..

I hope that at the end of it we'll emerge stronger than before..
Not giving up on the love we have..

Yes..
No relationship is easy..
There's bound to be friction between people..
We're all different..
But I really hope that we'll be able to work out our differences and still be together at the end..

~I now know trying hard isn't enough.. I've got to change..~

Nothing seems to be going right..

Daddy says he's sick and tired of talking to me..
He said that I will help others out but not help him..
That I didn't look for a job..

Baby is apparently still angry with me..
If I didn't call him..
I don't think he'll message me either..

In the past..
When daddy's upset with me..
or when I'm upset due to whatever reasons,
I can always turn to baby..
Now baby's angry with me..
Daddy's angry with me..
The whole world seems to be angry at me..

I don't know what to do..

~Maybe I should just leave this world alone..~
~I miss who you were..~

You're probably still asleep..
I'm already home..

Today's sermon is about Forgiveness..

Yeah..
We cant do it on our own..

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Been thinking a lot lately..
Was wondering what had happened to us..

Hoping that somehow or rather..
We'd be able to return to before..
To the way things were at the beginning..

If I could..
I would erase the things which I've done that you didn't like..
That phone call on the way home that made you not want to send me back anymore..
That call at vivocity that made you feel unimportant..
Telling you about her whenever she's at my place that made you feel as though I was comparing her with you..
Walking off..
Being selfish..
Wanting to spend time with you when you're not free..

You said that I am a disappointment to you..
I'm sorry..
I've never wanted to be a disappointment..
I had hoped that you'll be proud having me as a girlfriend..
The way you're my pride and joy....

~I'm sitting here trying to convince myself that you're not the one for me.. but the more I think, the less I believe it and the more I want you here with me..~

Dance competition at NTU today..

Went quite well, with Ngee Ann snatching up quite a couple of medals.. :p

I'm very tired though..
and we had problems yet again..

Is it really my fault?
Is it only my fault?

I'm sorry..

~Can't afford to lose you..~

Would You Be There

If I were blue, would you be there for
me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay,
Would you stand by me, let me hold you
tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance
with me,
And touch my lips with tender love and
care
Would you die for me, would you run
with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with
me?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with
me?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there


If I'm away, would you still think of
me,
And wished that you would hold me
now,
Would you die for me, would you run
with me,
all the way

Would you be there to love, to be with
me?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul
tonight?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
there,
to kiss my pain away.

Would you be there to love, to be with
me?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul
tonight?
Would you swear that your love is
always true?
Would you say that you'll always be
there,
to kiss my pain away.

Would you be there,
for me.

It's been hard..
We've been thru many ups and downs..

Quarrels..
Sad moments..
Happy memories..

Baby..
I'm glad that we're able to walk thru it all..
I hope that I'll still be able to hold your hand at the end of the road..

Thank you for tolerating me..
for correcting my mistakes..
for staying by me all this while..

I love you..

~Happy 10th month~

Baby...

Thank you..

Thanks for packing dinner..
and for coming over to my place to accompany me yesterday cause I was home alone..

Thanks for staying on although you said you had to go back..

Thanks for everything baby..

Just came back from dance camp..
The camp was a success..

That's all I can say..

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19th June 2007

Worst day of my life.

Don't ask..

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Baby..

This is for you..

In a perfect world,
we would never need to apologise.
We would never speak a thoughtless word..
Or let each other down or break each other's heart.
Love would conquer all,
and happy endings would be a dime a dozen.
But this isn't a perfect world,
and sometimes people learn things the hard way.
We do things we can't take back,
no matter how hard we try.

I'm sorry for causing you so much pain,
for giving you a reason to doubt how much I care.
I'm sorry with my whole heart,
'Cause I Really DO Care.

~I still love you..~



~I probably need you more than you need me..~

I don't know what to say..

I hope that you would put in a little effort..

If my calling you in the morning irritates you so much..
Try to wake up before I call you..
Or wake up when I call you..

If you're interested in me..
and truly love me..
You would love that which I love as well..

I'm trying to love all that you love..
Your games..
Your comics..
Have your passion for dance..

I only hope that you can do that as well..

~It suddenly feels like you don't have any interest in me anymore.. the things I do can piss you off easily and make you not want to see me at all..~

I hope I'm not being over-sensitive..

You're tired..
You should rest..

~That's all.. There's nothing wrong with being tired.. ~

I never liked to compare..
but I guess everyone does comparisons in one way or another..

I can still remember the things you've did..
Coming down to fetch me from work..
The roses for first month..
The gown for Christmas..
The dinner and sunflowers for Valentine's..

Everyone is different..
Hence people will have different ways of dealing with various incidents..

I won't comment on the way you deal with things..
You've always said that people choose the way they react ..
I don't know why you chose to do many of the things you did..
But I supposed you should have your reasons for doing so..

The mistakes that I've done..
The way I've treated you in the first few months..
You seem to have taken it deep..
So deep that no matter what I do..
It doesn't seem to be able make things better..
You can't forget..

You have no idea how much you mean to me..
No matter what other people say,
I still hold on to what I believe..
That you are the best..
That you're still you..
That you still care..
That you still are concerned about me..
That you still love me..

I don't care how people look at me..
but I care about how and what you think of me..

I might be fussy..
Might complain a lot..
I'm sorry..

I'll try harder..
I do hope that you will understand me..
I hope you'll still care..
I do hope that you'll still love me..

Somehow..
I hope that we'd be happier..
that we'd be like before..
that you won't walk off..
that you won't leave me alone..
that I won't do it either..
and IF either of us do it..
that the other one will follow after that one..
and that the one in front will wait for the other..

~I hope that you'll be my last..~

I'm an official graduate of Ngee Ann Polytechnic..

Looking back..

There's much to reminisce..

It seemed like just yesterday that I was a freshman..
BAoc..
Walking down the road to block 72..
The leaky walkways when it rained..
The long walk up the "hill" for lectures at LT45..
The way we'd skip lectures..
The Japanese food at canteen 4..
The never-ending projects..
The presentations..
The stress of tests and exams..
The fun we had in class..
and after class..
The trips to Mambo for pool..
Camps..
Chalets..

The renovations done in school..
The splitting of classes..
The different specialisations..

IBSM..
The fun we had in the Pearl Delta Region..
The stress and sleepless nights because we had to rush our journals out..

Graduation..
The robe..
Walking up on stage to receive the roll..
The photographs taken..
Those faces ever so familiar..
Of friends,
lecturers,
advisors..

Words of encouragement..
of congrats..
Questioning to find out how we've been doing..
Warm hugs..
Gifts..

At the end of 3 years in polytechnic..
I've learnt a lot..
Made many friends..

All...
Will remain in my heart..
and in my memories..

~Parting is always bittersweet.. I'll miss you all..~
~Baby.. Thank you for coming.. it really meant a lot to me..~

I've got the best boyfriend any girl can have..

Thank you baby..

I love you..

I just found out from Christine that there's a second stanza to the song..

He can grant a wish or make a dream come true,
He can paint the clouds and turn the gray to blue;
He alone knows where to find the rainbow's end,
He alone can see, what lies beyond the bend.
He can touch a tree and turn the leaves to gold,
He knows every lie that you and I have told;
Though it makes him sad to see the way we live,
He'll always say "I forgive"

Totally nice song.. :)

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I know I shouldn't feel this way..
But I'm quite "happy"..
I'm not exactly happy but just ?relieved? that he got his deserts..

~What goes around comes around.. you asked for it..~

Took this quiz from Janani's blog..

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Went for Janani's concert - A Night with Schumann yesterday
Their voices..
Really very nice..
Have never attended a concert like this before..
It's a real eye-opener..

Jay's singing..
Really very good..
Don't think I'll ever be able to sing like that..

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I'm afraid..

She said that we look like how him and her were before they broke up..
But I trust you..
I don't think you'll be like him..
I trust that you'll not walk out the way he did on her..

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Christine sent me an sms yesterday..

He can turn the tides and calm the angry sea,
He alone decides who writes a symphony;
He lights every star that makes our darkness bright,
He keeps watch all through each long and lonely night.
He still finds the time to hear a child's first prayer,
Saint or sinner call and always find Him there;
Though it makes Him sad to see the way we live,
He'll always say "I forgive".

This is lyrics from a song that she learnt in primary school..
I think it's real meaningful..

I've finally passed my advanced theory!

I'm not proud that I took several attempts to pass..
But I'm really glad I finally did.. :)

Saw Fiona Xie at the test center taking the test in the same room as well..

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Graduation is coming soon....
Wonder how that'll go..

Please....

No one can be compared with another..
Nor the things you've done..

No matter how many times I've said so..
No matter how many times I've told you..
Somehow..
It doesn't seem to be enough..

I've never compared you with anyone else..
If I were to..
You'd be the best..

Don't put yourself down..
You're really good..

Please..
You told me before that you don't care how the rest view you..
Why does it matter so much now?

My view of you is obvious..
My feelings for you are too..
Can't you see?
Can't you feel?

I really don't know what else to tell you..

~I don't want to lose you.. ~

I've been having random thoughts of the daily events in my life recently..

Like when baby and I run into issues..
or when my dad and mum nags at me..
or when my siblings seem to pull the house down..

I might be having mood swings..
I don't really know what's going wrong with me..
or what's going on with me..

I'm just weird nowadays......