Yes..
I know..
I haven't been blogging for ages..

I've been busy with work..
and school..

So here's a quick summary of all that's happened (at least most of it..)

Baby and I went to the Singapore Science Centre to catch the Da Vinci exhibition that's currently up..
This is like my first time there after an extremely long time (I think the last time I went there was in Secondary 2..)
It was really fun.. Very nice..
and the best thing was..
I got to go there with Baby..
So that made it very special..

We also went for Fiona's 21st birthday party that was held at Temasek Club..
The food was ok..
Games were... hmmm..
But it was fun over all..
lots of laughter.. :)

Yesterday,
Baby and I went out for dinner..
We were at Douby Exchange and had dinner at Just Acia..
then he told me that he wanted to go to the toilet..
and he came back with a walnut brownie from POsh..
So sweet of him.. :)

I love my baby..
*muacks*

The last 2 days has been wonderful!

Baby booked out on Sat morning cos he had duty on May Day..
Then he came over to my place to give me a surprise and fetch me over to his place..
:)

We went out with his friends to watch Wolverine..
Which is very nice..

Sunday was sweet too..
Had dinner with him..

If only everyday was like this..
mmmm..

Need I say more?
:)

You might not be able to understand this..
But somehow..
I think..
Maybe..
You feel this way..

不，完美 - 李玖哲

你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

后来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美成了 罪

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

I lost my handphone chain..
Very upset about it..
Literally cried the whole night..
Soaked the pillow..
Woke up with swollen goldfish eyes..

Baby was very nice about it..
Didn't scold me..
Didn't blame me..
actually consoled me..
coaxed me to go to sleep..
asked me to rest..

Thank you so much baby..
*hugz*

This song is nice..
And I think the music video is very sweet..

Love Story - Taylor Swift





We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase, begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, let's leave this town for a little while
Oh, oh

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me, I was begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

Romeo save me they're tryna tell me how to feel
this love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

I got tired of waiting wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I'll keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you

I really have no idea what's going on..
Whether you're like this because I did something I shouldn't have,
or didn't do something I should have,
or because you're feeling insecure,
or because of some other reason..

Whatever it is..
I'm feeling figidty..

I really want to know what's happening..
What's going on..
What's wrong..

But you just don't seem to want to tell me...
You don't seem to want to talk to me..

What should I do...

WARNING!!!
Angry words ahead.. read at your own risk!

I really am going to let it out..
I'm not going to hold it back..
and there's nothing you can do about it..
You won't even get to read this ANYWAY..

I don't care who you are to me..
But you should care who I am to you..

I am your girlfriend's BEST FRIEND..
Get this into that thick skull of yours..
IF you have any intention of marrying her..
(which you say you do)
You better get into her good friends good books..
Else it's out the window for you..

And congratulations..
I think I can foresee you falling out soon..

Even if you were only a friend..
That is something that you shouldn't do..
You PROMISED to transfer the money to me..
and you KNEW that that was the last $20 I have..
But I passed it to her because you promised to transfer $20 to me once you knock off..

In the end..
You decided to use $10 to top up your ezlink card..
and keep $10 for yourself so that you can eat..

How SELFISH can you get?
Where in the world are your ethics?!?
Or did you even have them in the first place?!?
YOU GAVE YOUR WORD!!!

And I heard every word you said..
You asked..
"If I were to give her the $20 then what am I going to survive on? What will I eat?"

COME ON!!!
I'm not that unreasonable!
If you don't have that amount to transfer to me..
then don't say that you will do it in the first place!
I trusted that you will do it!
and you ate off my livelihood!!!

As a guy, you SHOULD provide for the girl..
but you don't...
You complain when you pay for things..
but everytime when you ask her to pay for something..
It's more expensive than whatever you paid for her added up..

You keep saying that things should be settled as a couple..
But you don't react in that way..

When she said that she is feeling insecure..
You said that you will handle the money part..
When she said that you don't even have a basic salary..
You said that as long as she has a basic salary..
that's enough..
Your salary is purely commission-based..
No sales means no money..
Yet you push the blame on her to say that the reason that you're not getting sales is because of her..

HELLO?!?
How in the world is YOUR incapability to get sales her fault?
IF you want results,
WORK to get the results yourself..
Blaming your incompetence on someone else will not get you results..
It will get you NO WHERE..

What are you?
Some guy who relies on the girl to provide for his needs?
Are you EVEN a guy?

I would like to say that I don't despise you..
But I can't..

You have A LOT of redemption to do..
Not only to me..
but to dar..
and to her as well..

I'm currently working in a new place..

The people there are nice..
and I get very excited to knock off everyday..
Cause there's this company bus that will leave office by 5.40pm sharp..
so everyone who wants to take the bus will have to rush off..

For once..
I managed to leave office..
and reach home..
and STILL see sunlight..
so exciting.. :p

Today..
I had this sudden bout of sarcasm..

I saw this bunch of people sitting down in at the staircase..
I was stifling a laugh and only mentioned it when Janet asked what was so funny..
Then I said that I was about to introduce them like this:
And here you see a display of the squatters' settlement..

When told by Jenny over lunch that the bitter gourd she ordered is bitter..
My reflexive reaction was, "Was it ever sweet?"

Oh...
I miss my previous work place..
Where sarcasm can be "battled" with..
So fun...
Haha..

I think..
I found the song that will describe me and you..
'Cause the lyrics make me feel like it's the life we've been having..
In one way or another..

My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

This song..
is for you..
I really mean the lyrics..

I'd Rather - Luther Vandross

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection built on lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart

Baby..
I love you..
I really do..

ARGH...

Seriously...

IF I were you..
and I really want to get my degree, I'd get my act together and DO something about MY project..
and not be moping..
not be complaining..
and not be asking others what you can do..
what you should do..
and EXPECT that they give you STEP-by-STEP instructions..

Looking at the current pathetic state that you are in now..
and the way you're bugging my best friend..
you can ask yourself what kind of friend are you..
Do you know that she has a lot of things to do?
That she has her own degree to pursue..
She cannot be baby sitting you or spoon feeding you..

SO WHAT if we have done a business diploma before?
It doesn't warrant you any right to ask in this way..

You have the report format..
the question of the report..
You have already chosen the company and started researching on it..
Then just carry on..
DO IT..

Don't ask and ask and ask..
You're driving her crazy..
and you're driving me mad..

If I can ever see you face to face again..
I'll tell this straight to you..
You can stop studying..
Every exam..
Every project..
Every report..
You ask her for help..
MIGHT AS WELL just give her the degree..
It serves more justice..

Came home early from church to cook today cos Derrick's sick..
Mummy's still in church..
Daddy's driving..
So my bro and I decided to have a go with the kitchen..

We found out that there was nothing much that could be cooked in the freezer..
So we rummaged through the freezer and found this bag of white stuff..
Took it out..
Had it defrosted..
and started cooking..

Halfway through..
The oil level increased significantly..
It smelt horrible..
Contaminated the whole house with it's stench..
We ended up throwing it away..

We were only left with tang hoon meat ball egg soup..
and rice..

And you won't wanna know what was that bag of white stuff..
Don't ask..
I won't say either..

To be able to meet the one you love is predestined.

It take A LOT to be able to be together..
Even more to stay together..

Some people were together,
broke up,
found someone else,
broke up,
got back together,
broke up,
took a couple of years..
before they're back together again..
Just because they can't find anyone else that could fit them as well as the other could..

I know I've found my missing piece..
I know it's you..
I don't want to go through the same process that they did..

Baby..
I love you..

This song..
Speaks a lot..
If you understand..

Guo Jing - Xin Qiang

一个人眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天快乐地看每一天

Wooh～第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙
但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光

就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化

Wooh～你的心有一道墙
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

I can't say how true this song is to me..
you just have to figure it out..

I hope it would come to this stage though..
when there's a wall..

And even if it would come to this somehow..
That you would know..
That you would climb over that wall..
Just to enter..

Yuna Ito - trust you [PV]
by PPouet

This song is good..
I like it a lot..
The meaning of the song is good too..

Yuna Ito - Trust You

Hana wa kaze ni yure odoru you ni
Ame wa daichi wo uruosu you ni
Kono sekai wa yori soi ai ikiteru no ni
Naze hito wa kizutsuke au no?
Naze wakare wa otozureru no?

Kimi ga tooku ni itte mo mada
Itsumo kono kokoro no mangnaka
Ano yasashii egao de umetsukusareta mama
Dakishimeta kimi no kakera ni
Itami kanjite mo mada
Tsunagaru kara
Shinjiteru yo
Mata aeru to
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
Futari da kara shinjiaeru
No hanasanaide

Sekai wo hatte odare ga mita no?
Tabi no owari odare ga tsugeru no?
Ima wa kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo
Shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii
Sono sakimi hikari ga matsu kara

Kimi ga oshiete kureta uta wa
Ima mo kono kokoro no mangnaka
Ano yasashii koe　to　tomori hibiiteru
Afureru kimochi no shizuku ka?
Atatakaku hoho tsugau
Tsuyoku naru ne
Shinjiteru yo
Tsunagatteru to
Im always by your side

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no tame ni nagasami naga
I love you, I trust you
Ai wo oshiete kureta
Donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayotte
Mou soba ni iru yo

Waiting for your love
Always by your side
Youre the one that I love
Youre the one that I trust
Youre the only one

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
I love you, I trust you
Kanashimi demo yorokobi demo
I love you, I trust you
Kimi no subete wo mamoritai
Donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayotte
Mou soba ni iru yo
Futari da kara shinjiaeru
No hanasanaide

The English translation is below..

Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
So that the rain moistens the earth
Even though this world is alive, coming closer together
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?

Even if you go far away
You're still always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain completely buried by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we're still connected
I believe that we can meet again
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Please don't leave anymore

Who saw the end of the world?
Who announces the end of the journey?
Even though it's a long night and the answer can't be seen now,
I want you to move on on the road you believe in
Because from this point forth, the light is waiting for you

Even now, the song you taught me
Still remains within my heart
And echos along with that friendly voice
The overflowing tears of my feeling
Run over my warm cheek
Become strong, ne
Believe!
If we connect with each other
I'm always by your side

I love you
I trust you
The tears I shed are for your sake
I love you
I trust you
You taught me love
I love you
I trust you
No matter if you walk on the wrong path,
I'll be beside you!

I love you
I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you
I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
I love you
I trust you
Even in sadness, even in happiness
I love you
I trust you
I want to protect you completely

No matter if you're walking on the wrong path
I'll be beside you!
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Please don't leave anymore

Baby..

I miss you..
More than you think I do..

When I do,
you don't necessarily accept..

When I don't do,
you get upset..

To do or not to do..
That's the question.....

Today was the 9th SGDF Nationals Dance Competition held in Hougang Community Club.

I went down to help.. and as usual, I end up feeling like dancing..

Yeah.. it happens all the time to dancers or former dancers I suppose..
When you see people competing on the floor, you somehow hope that you're competing as well..

Well..
I can only say that I can only dream about it..

Found a few quotes which I found very meaningful..

Love me without fear
Trust me without questioning
Need me without demanding
Want me without restrictions
Accept me without change
Desire me without inhibitions
For a love so free....
Will never fly away.
~ by Dick Sutphen ~

Love is a burning desire,
That makes your heart light on fire,
Love is being with you,
Someone saying I love you too,
Love is your tender kiss,
Something you don't want to miss,
Love is you and me,
And that is all I see.
~ by Anonymous ~

A part of you has grown in me.
And so you see, it's you and me
Together forever and never apart,
Maybe in distance, but never in heart.
~ by Anonymous ~

True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist,
Nor can it be hidden where it truly does.
~ by Anonymous ~

I have loved to the point of madness;
That which is called madness,
That which to me,
Is the only sensible way to love.
~ by F. Sagan ~

Baby..
I love you..

Baby POP-ed already!!!

Went down to Tekong yesterday for his POP parade which he did not take part in..
The whole parade was quite funny..
I had my fair share of comments..

The best part of the whole thing was when I was given the opportunity to go and wear the cap for him..
Although I don't know what it means to him..
It definitely means a lot to me..

Now he has to wait for the 20th to check his posting..
So anxious....

It took us a long time to come to where we are now...
and I'm thankful we managed to come so far..

I love you baby..

It's so clear as ever..
I need you..
I love you..

You're my pillar of support..

Please..
Don't go..

I'm far from perfect..
That, I know..

I do everything I can to match your expectations..
But I suppose it's not enough..

I can try...
But I still can't make it..

But I still hope that I'd be given a chance..

Am I determined?
Or just stubborn?

Am I passionate?
Or dumb and stupid?

Whichever way it is..
I still love you..
That in itself is a fact.

Baby's home!!!!
He called me!!!

Awwwww

xoxo

Love you

I have been wondering..
What's the point..

I feel like I'm not getting any support from my family especially when it comes to me wanting to go back to study..
It's like a taboo..
A topic of discussion..
To quarrel about..

I don't have any expectations of my family..
I don't expect them to pay for my school fees or even to take loans on my behalf..
I can do all those BY MYSELF..
It has always been that way..

At least now..
I've got baby who will help me..
At least he supports me although he does think that finding a job is important too..
I've got dar..
Who has, will, and always will support me in whatever I do..

Baby...
It's quite worrying to be unable to call you..
I don't know whether you know that your line is cut..
Cos I've been messaging you the whole day..
and I've been trying to call..
But I can't get thru..

And I don't even know if you can receive my sms..
or if you'll call..
or if you think that I'm ignoring you..
and not calling or messaging..

When I read the notes that you posted of him..
See the pictures you post..
Read the story behind your love..
I feel a sense of envy..

I know that would not happen between baby and me..
But you two worked out fine..

Looking at the story from your point of view..
I'm sure that he feels the same way too..
Or probably even more..
To be able to promise your mum the things he did..
The way he did..
You must have been his world..

I don't know how you're holding up..
But I can see that you're trying..

Hang on girl..
I know he'll be a part of you..
Just like how you are,
and always will be..
A part of him..

~It's compromise and accommodate that moves us along~
~ Emi and Jun Jie~

Baby...
I love u..

I just wanted you to know that..

I don't know how you're doing this..
I don't know how you're hanging on..
I just want to let you know..
That if you need a listening ear,
a shoulder to cry on,
or someone to be there for you..
I'll be here..

You need not act strong in front of me..
cos I know how you are..

I really don't know how you're holding up..
it seems like you're trying to erect a barrier up..
to keep yourself in..
and to keep people out..

I'll be here for you..
don't keep me out..
It hurts me too..

This is dedicated to you..
Although I know.. that you will never get to read this..

I know that you mean a lot to her and to your him..
but I didn't know how much you meant to me..
and I definitely didn't know how much I meant to you..

Looking at the photos that we took..
That you took when you were here..
Seeing the smile on your face..
The cheerful looks on our faces..
Strikes me that that will never happen again..

Your lucky charm that you left for me..
Is securely fastened on my right wrist..

I will take care of her..
To the best of my abilities..
I know..
That's the best I can do..
To stay by her..

Thinking back..
It's been quite a while since I've last spoken to you..
Although I've ask of you..
I've not spoken to you..
Yet you still remembered me..

What we had..
Though short..
Yet sweet..
Was forged unintentionally..
But lasted..

I miss you..
I promise that I will take good care of your lucky charm..
Cos that's the only thing left that I have that will remind me of you..

No it's not that way...

It's you,
You..
and you..

You're the most important..

Not anyone else..

He's not more important..
He's not done more..
IF he's even worth that "more"..
I won't be here..

It's you...

I'm sorry..

I loved my Valentine's day..

This year..
I got to spend Valentine's eve with Diana, Brenda and Joanne..
Diana made chocolates!!!
Thanks dar.. :)

Valentine's day itself was spent with baby..
I did a little something for him..
which I am glad he liked..

Baby..
I'm so happy..
I really am happy with you...

I love you...

You are the love of my life..
My life..
Every breath I take..
Every move I make..
I miss you every waking second..

It's you..

Baby..
I love you..

I love you..
I really do..

:)

Thanks for everything baby..

~Cos' it's you and me..~

I hate myself..

Period.

Everything's nice...
sweet..
gentle..

Baby's starting to become more understanding..
Better..
At least he understands now...

~How do you strike a balance?~

Lately, I've been really into the Stephanie Meyer Twilight series..
1) Twilight
2) New Moon
3) Eclipse
4) Breaking Dawn

I've just finished book 3 and am at book 4..

You know how books can make you feel?

I am so totally engrossed, I can feel exactly what each of them feel..
Only worst..
I can totally identify with how the progtanist of the story - Isabella Swan aka Bella felt..
I could feel her happiness..
her sorrow..
her pain..
especially in book 3..
I almost cried...

Sigh..

Today's my last day of work in Socgen...

It's a total mix of feelings...
Although I left late (11.15pm)..
I still left behind some work to be done..

Yes..
I know..
Work can never be finished...

I feel like I've accomplished a lot this year..
Learnt a lot..
Done a lot..
Cleared a lot..
Even my boss says so..

Leaving SG for the 2nd time is very different..
Probably because the 1st time I was there,
it was only for a short period of time..
and this time,
it was for almost a year..

I made many wonderful friends here..
The locals..
Lena, Clytia, Jaslyn, Michelle, Chun Kit, Wei Herng, Gerald..
The french..
Stephanie, Mathieu, Karinne, David..

I will definitely miss the people in SG..
The sametime messaging..
The lunch sessions..
The afterwork hang-outs..

Everything..

I suddenly feel so lost..
so depressed..
so...........


~I don't even know how I'm feeling.. I'm just so lost...~

Just found out that Jun Jie is in hospital due to a motorcycle accident..

He's in a critical condition in TTSH now...
In ICU..
On life support..

I know I should be more optimistic..
I should pray..
I should be hoping that he'll wake up and be fine..

Yet somehow..
Cos of whatever that has happened..
I don't find myself being able to be that optimistic..

Instead...
It just brings me back to Lloyd...

Pray for Jun Jie...
Pray for me...

~Dear God, please help me... help us... ~

Baby's coming out tomorrow!!!!
So excited....
I hope he'll want to see me though...........

Anyway...
I found this..
Some links cannot be accessed cos his host is down...
but at least..
to me...
it's something to remember him with...

http://ccurion.blogspot.com/
http://curionarchive.blogspot.com/

The weather today depicts clearly how everyone gathered feels..

The heavy hearts,
the pain,
the sorrow,
the tears...

With reluctance,
were we forced to let you go...

With a woeful heart,
were we told to bid goodbye...

We'll miss you..
but you'll leave on..
in our hearts..
and minds...

This post is dedicated especially to you....

To you,
my classmate of 2 years in poly..
my constant project group mate..
my blog template designer..
who'd painstakingly designed this template solely for my use..

I'd have to say..
You were an extremely annoying guy at times..
Your authoritative stand in things made you seem over-bearing..
The way you used to push us to do projects was stressful..

Yet...
in all this,
a friendship was forged...

You'd create wallpapers and ask us for comments..
You'd pour out your problems to us..

You were brilliant..
scored very well in academics..
had a bright future ahead of you..

All.........
to be taken away in a short second..

The news came as a shock..
all of us couldn't believe it..

I...
didn't think I'd be so upset..
didn't think I'd stand there and cry..

No one thought that you would leave us in this way..

We were supposed to meet up for dinner with Diana soon..
You were supposed to enter SMU next year..

Who would have thought that things would end this way?

My dear friend...
We will miss you..

~ Life is but a transient dream... is it? ~
~ In memory of Lloyd Fong Ching Pau, 1987 - 10 Dec 2008 ~

Today's baby's enlistment day...
went to send him in..

Seriously speaking.....
Tekong looks like a chalet..
with nice facilities..
nice breeze...
(but I'm sure the guys will beg to differ)

Anyway..
the major (2nd in-charge) of his company is a funny guy..
His speech is............
Indescribable..
he should attend speech classes..
but apparently it doesn't work..
so........
yah..
I had to suppress my laughter..

Baby..
I miss you already..
Hope you're doing fine..
And I know that you'll take care of yourself.......

Love you baby...

Baby...

This song is specially dedicated to you and you only..



Always be my Baby - David Cook

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby

Was listening to songs..
Looking through lyrics..

Stumbled on this song..
Gotta Go My Own Way
and I feel like whatever we're going through is written in this song..
Only difference is that..
Our roles are reversed..
You're in the girl's role..
and I'm in the guy's..

I don't want you to leave..

I miss you..

~You'll always be my baby~

If you have the opportunity..
do watch this drama..
It's a Japanese drama titled "Nodame Cantabile"

I learnt a lot from this drama...

The protagonist Noda Megumi (aka Nodame), despite being in a music academy for 3 years have no basic knowledge of music - she does not know Analyse nor can she sight-read. The only reason she is in the academy is because she is musically talented - she is able to listen to the music and play the songs.
Her strong will to want to follow the one she like (multi-talented senior Shinichi Chiaki) spurred her on to reach for greater heights.

This drama told me that everyone is significantly different.. and that none should hide who they really are.. that everyone is given (and should be given) an opportunity to express themselves.

Secondly.. the love that the both of them shared was built up on trust.. they were interdependent on each other.. for encouragement, for care, concern and many things else.. Without him, she would not have the motivation to go to Paris to further her studies.. Without her, he would have been unable to fulfill his dreams..
Yet.. they were independent on their careers and their goals..
This is how a relationship should be like....
Sure.. they have their quarrels, their "fights".. yet they were strong and pulled through together..

I pray for something like that..
that whatever it is..
we'll be strong..
and pull through..
Together..

Today's baby's birthday..
It'd be the 2nd time I'm celebrating his birthday with him...
Feel so happy... :)

Watched youtube on dances today..
Just reminded me of how I'm aching to go back and dance....

Hope you'll like the following song...
and video clip..

Hi all

I know... I've been mia for I don't even remember how long... and I know that saying I'm busy (although I've really been) isn't a very good excuse......

I'm actually not intending on blogging a lot this time round...

Just wanted to mention that I've been working in this company for....... hmmm... 7 months already (has it even been that long?!?)

I've made a couple of good friends.. They're real darlings...
Although none of you will ever stumble on this... I suppose I just want to say....

I am really thankful that God has given me this opportunity to have you all in my life... it made my stay in SG more bearable... more fun... more to look forward to...

Also....

Baby...
Thank you for being so understanding...

I love you..

Thank you lots for today my love...

The truth is...
You're my love,
my life,
my all....

New favorite..
Means a lot...
and only you and I will understand why...




Reach Out - Take That

If our arms were reaching out
If our words could only bridge the doubt
Will we lose this chance again?
Strange roads with different signs
Don't even know where we divide
Are you my enemy or my friend?

REFRAIN:

'Cause I don't know you
And you don't know me
It's the same sun rising
We all just look to the sky
If we try
We can work it out somehow
If you don't know me
And I don't know you
How can we be fighting
We're all connected it's true
Reaching out
It's only love that pulls us through

We all grieve in different ways
If one tear could wash away the pain
We're all free to have the faith we believe, yeah
The world sleeps at different times
With one turn your day is now my night
We all live sharing the air that we breathe

REFRAIN

Reaching out, reaching high
Reaching out
Touching you, touching me

If our arms were reaching out
If our words could only bridge the doubt

REFRAIN

Reaching out, reaching high
Reaching out
Touching you, touching me

Reaching out
It's only love that pulls us through

There's a lot I want to say...
A lot I want to do...
But it's not the right time...

It's already written down..

I'll tell you in time...

I'm sorry....
I know it's been donkey years since I blogged...
SORRY!!!!!!!!

Went to T3 with baby yesterday...
It's beautiful...
It's huge and bright...
Has 919 light panels (I can't even remember what kind of panels those are)..
BEAUTIFUL restarants (you should REALLY look at Crystal Jade Shanghai restaurant... you can never miss it...)

Had Popeyes for dinner...
Baby said it was better previously...
It's not that good now...

Whatever it is...
I had a good day with baby...
Totally enjoyed myself...

Thank you for making today such a wonderful day...

I love you...
*muacks*

Attended dance competition yesterday...
Here's what I have to say...

I totally miss competitive...

When you're a competitor, I'd say that the main goal that you have is to stand on that podium... (well.. everyone will want to stand on the podium.... who doesn't... haha..)
You'd put in many hours of sweat and pain (literally) to train for that upcoming competition (which always seem to come again and again..)

Standing as a competitor's coodinator.. each time I'm one.. (that'd be 3 times as of yesterday..) I can say that......... the people are getting harder to handle... especially the juniors from SOME particular institute... or should I say 2 particular institutes that I am/was NOT from...

It isn't an easy job I can say.. and it definitely isn't one in which people will appreciate... you might think that it's their role to be there to make sure things are done right.. or to make sure that you don't miss your rounds etc etc... think again...... we're not your parents whatsoever.. we don't have to spoon feed you... (and yet I still run around looking for missing couples who don't bother to respond to me when I call out their numbers.. FOR WHAT?!?!)

After this com and NP will be down another 2 couples... (or should that be 3...) dear juniors... you all really have to work hard... so much harder....

And a side note to all the juniors (although you all might never get to read this).. I love you guys... you all really are a nice bunch.. :) The way you all show the seniors that you appreciate our efforts.... Thank you so much.....

So proud of you guys....

And baby...
I know you did your best...
Practice harder and you'll reach that mark...
I know you will..
*hugz*

I've learnt something today...
that is not to bear grudges against others...
not to dig out the past and use it...
because it will cause conflicts...
it hurts both parties...
and it's not good for growth...

I' m tired.....
Baby.....
I just want to run into your arms and rest....

~Will you shelter me like you used to? Will you hold me and tell me I'm yours?~

Baby brought me to Kushin-bo (Suntec lvl 4, next to sky garden) for dinner last night....

I would have to say that the food there is not bad...
Wide variety..
some of the Japanese food there are really traditional like their oden..
yet the waiting time is a killer (we waited for more than an hour before it was our turn... and we were ard the 5th in line!)

But it was a relatively pleasurable because baby was there... :)

Love you baby...
*muacks*

*PS. I'm dozing off... nodding already..

I adopted a pet!!!! :)

A virtual one though....
My handphone has this cool function called mPet...
and I adopted a dog whose name is Happy! (I didn't name the dog... my sister did..)

It's so cute...
Really is... :)

And........

I so feel like a pig today....
I bought this 4 mini hotdog rolls from 7-11 (I personally won't recommend anyone buying it cos the bread tastes a bit damp and the hot dog's hard and dry...)
Had 2 for breakfast....
Had seafood soup with rice for lunch...
Having the other 2 hotdog rolls for tea break...
and there's brownie from Big O today.... :)

So fattening.............

I wanna go back to dance....
danced a little on sun...
felt great....

But I can't continue...
cos I don't have the finances to......

Anyone want to donate to the "Save the poor Deborah fund"?

I haven't checked my personal email for at least 2 weeks...
I don't have a good feeling about it....
Haha..
(think my inbox is blown by now...)

Baby!!!
You must study hard k?

Baby's so sweet....
I was very tired on Saturday when I went over to his place..
I skipped lunch to sleep..
and him..
not wanting to leave me alone....
didn't have lunch as well.....
Then when I woke up...
He cooked instant noodles for me....
and I had noodles in bed!
mmmm...
Luxury... :p

Thank you baby!
*muacks*

Yesterday's announcement had a meaningful fact...

Of rocks, pebbles and stones...
none of them are perfectly shaped..
even the "nicer" looking ones has cracks and/or lines on them..
and it's up to the person to see what can be done with it..

Like as we are the rocks, stones or pebbles...
we're also imperfect with many flaws...
it's of God's love and will that we are who and what we are today..
and He still loves us all the same....

~How wondrous is Your love...~

I thank God that dar's fine...
She should be discharged today...

~Dear God... Thank You for answering our prayers..~

Watched Enchanted with baby last week (was it last week? I think so.....)

Really nice..
Romantic...
and the song's nice too! :)




You all should catch Hitman too..

~That's how I know I love you baby..~

Diana's in hospital....

The doctor suspects it to either be a case of thyroid or menigitis.. (please don't ask me what they are.. I have not much either myself..)

Please pray for her..
Hopefully it's just a more severe case of migraine..

I've never felt so transparent in my life....
I'm never included in ANYTHING here....
I'm excluded from everything...
Even my senior's birthday lunch...

Yes..
I totally dislike here..
I'm literally working for the sake of working..

Oh God..
Help me....

I really prefer studying to working....

IF I could...
I'd rather study my whole life... (muahahaha..)

So kids...
Don't be in a rush to grow up...
The adult-world isn't a paradise..

It's so much better to be young..........

Been reading thru some people's blogs and mine in my free time......

Really thought of how I felt....
and I can say this....

Baby...
I really miss you...
I still do love you...

Yet I won't promise you anything...
cos I don't want to break any promises anymore..

Tried this game..... (took it from Christine's blog)

So fun! And I donated 1000 grains of rice!!!

COOL!!!!!!!! :p

http://freerice.com/

New favourite.......
Sad.. but meaningful....



不能说的秘密

冷 咖 啡 离 开 了 杯 垫
leng ka fei li kai le bei dian
我 忍 住 的 情 绪 在 很 后 面
wo ren zhu de qing qu zai hen hou mian
拼 命 想 挽 回 的 从 前
pin ming xiang huan hui de cong qian
在 我 脸 上 依 旧 清 晰 可 见
zai wo lian shang yi jiu qing xi ke jian

最 美 的 不 是 下 雨 天
jui mei de bu shi xia yu tian
是 曾 与 你 躲 过 雨 的 屋 檐
shi ceng yu ni duo guo yu de wu yan
回 忆 的 画 面
hui yi de hua mian
在 荡 着 秋 千 梦 开 始 不 甜
zai dang zhe qiu qian meng kai shi bu tian

你 说 把 爱 渐 渐 放 下 会 走 更 远
ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zou geng yuan
又 何 必 去 改 变 已 错 过 的 时 间
you he bi qu gai bian yi cuo guo de shi jian
你 用 你 的 指 尖 阻 止 我 说 再 见
ni you ni de zhi jian zu zeng wo shuo zai jian
想 象 你 在 身 边 在 完 全 失 去 之 前
xiang xiang ni zai shen bian zai wan quan shi qu zi qian

你 说 把 爱 渐 渐 放 下 会 走 更 远
ni shuo ba ai jian jian fang xia hui zou geng yuan
或 许 命 运 的 签 只 让 我 们 遇 见
huo xu ming yun de qian zhi rang wo men yu jian
只 让 我 们 相 恋 这 一 季 的 秋 天
zhi rang wo men xiang lian zhe yi ji de qiu tian
飘 落 后 才 发 现 这 幸 福 的 碎 片
piao luo hou cai fa xian zhe xin fu de sui pian
要 我 怎 么 捡
yao wo zhen me jian

Know what's the best thing my senior said?

"If I were to keep everything that you've done wrong.. I'll be able to start a file by now.."

Haha......
That shows how many mistakes I made (make)..

Well...
I'm just not interested at all....
Couldn't be bothered to check my work...
Couldn't care less.....
And I'm careless...
Haha....

Wonderful combination....

I HATE MY JOB.....

Really do....
totally NO interest in it whatsoever...
just doing it for the sake of doing it...
making tons of mistakes...
getting lots of scolding...

HATING every milisecond of it....

Sigh.......

Why do I put myself thru this kind of pain....

~'Cause you don't know how to choose girl....~

Corrinne May's latest album...
One of the songs has very nice lyrics that I want to dedicate to baby n dar...

On the Side of Me

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Yeah you choose to be on the side of me
On the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hood
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
But you...

Thank you for everything you all have done for me...
and for standing On the Side of Me....

I know where my heart is..
I know where I'd be able to give more..
and where to receive more..

I know it hurts baby..
it hurts him..
n it hurts me..

But what I know..
isn't helping me to make any decisions.........

I miss his hugs..
the way he puts his arms around me..
the simplest twitch on his face..

All....
deeply etched in my memory..

I know I'd never be able to love another the way I do him..
but is that enough to make me go back...
I know he's trying very hard...
I know he's been fighting..
he's been giving..
and he really can give..

Everything I've ever yearned for in the past when we were together is now coming true..

God....
I don't know what You have in store for me..
I don't know Your plans...
I only hope..
and pray..
that You'll be able to show me the way..
so that I'll make the right choice..
and not regret............

~Some decisions just ain't easy to make..~

I know that I'll never be able to love anyone else the way I love you...
It's just impossible...

My heart will never ache the way it does for you...
I'll never do the things I did for you for another person..

It might be v unfair to whoever comes next..
Even if the person is you...
I might not give that much anymore...
But I know I'll still give willingly..

Reading my scollbar's running text send tears to my eyes..
It really applies..........

And I know that I really do love you..
and that you do love me too..

And a part of me will never stop loving you......
Never...............

~I'll always love you.. Lenny See Tho Kong Yong.. ~

To clarify matters....

I still love you..
I still want to dance with you..

I still need you..

Then you'll probably wonder why I still don't want to take you back..

Seriously...
I don't know either..

I think it's the parents-religion-love issue...

Complicated....

But this is for sure.....

Baby..
I love you..

Hi all....

I know I haven't been blogging for a long time...

Lots of things have happened........

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Help me with this..
Post comments on my tagboard or something..
(I don't know how many of you still bother to read my blog though..)

Would you rather choose....

The love of your life.. the one you loved and still do.. who used to love you lesser than you loved him.. who said he'd cherish you and treat you better from now on.. who's trying hard to win you back.. who'd have a higher possibility of converting and becoming a christian..

OR

The man of your dreams.. a "fairytale prince".. who'd love you more than you could ever love him.. who'd take care of you and pamper you.. who's a free-thinker and probably won't believe in God at all..

I know who my parents would prefer me to choose.. yet they say..
Find someone who'd love you more than you'll love him..
Find a Godly-rooted man..

Should the question be who should I choose?
Or
Should I even choose at all?

I thank you for tonight..

Dinner at Kenny Rogers was great..
Your company is appreciated..

Thank you also for the daisy....
it's really very special..

I hope that you'll be happy..
I hope that you'll find happiness one day.......








Baby.. you'll always be a part of me..

14 October 2007, Sunday

1 year, 1 month, 21 days..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Baby..
Thank you for the time you've given..
Thank you for everything you've done..

I love you..







Guess it's time to move on..

Dar.....

Thank you so much......
really thanks a lot...

Baby...

I now know what you feel is lacking..
I'm sorry..
I'll try harder..

~I'll pay more attention and listen to you.. hope you'll hear my feelings too..~

It takes a lot of love to save a dying soul.....

I love you..

Baby should be on his way back now.....

He said that he'll be taking the 10pm bus back from Ipoh..
But he didn't call or msg me to inform me so I can only guess..

Anyway..
I'm just glad that he's coming home soon..
Finally can get to see him again..

Can't wait..... :)

Baby.....
This song is for you..
and it sings my feelings towards you..

My heart's with you..
I don't have eyes for anyone else..
I hope you'll know that..

Nothing's Gonna Change My Love for You

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever
Oh, so clearly I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(CHORUS) Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(CHORUS) Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you

Maybe I don't mean as much as I used to..
Maybe I'm no longer than important..
but I know that you still mean a lot to me..
maybe even more than you used to..

In your arms I feel safe..
Warm..
At ease..
Loved..
Cared for..
YOURS..

Yet..
I don't know how you feel in mine..

Do you feel the same?

I hope you do.........

~Yours truely..~

I felt the tremors in office today.......
felt like vomiting..
felt giddy too..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Day 2..

Still can't get to sleep at night...

I'm like mummy..
She can't sleep without daddy...
I can't sleep when baby's not around..

When he's overseas..
I can't get to sleep..

When he don't answer my calls or reply my smses..
I worry..
and I can't sleep too..

I have to spend the day with him..
know he's fine..
hear his voice at night..
before I can have a good night's rest..

If I happen to doze off before he calls..
I'd wake up in the middle of the night with a shock..
and I don't know why..

Maybe I care too much..
maybe it's just me..

I don't understand YOU..
I don't understand why YOU ALWAYS have to do it..

I never wanted to be angry with YOU..
I can't seem to help myself..

WHAT'S WRONG?!?!?

YOU said that YOU're jealous..
I guess it's just YOU..
YOU're the one who always wanted things YOUR way..
When anyone gets more important than YOU..
YOU had to take them away..
YOU had to make me feel pain..
YOU had to let me go through undescribable sorrow..
YOU let me have joy at some period of time..
I thank YOU for that..
Especially for the last 1 year, 1 month and 20 days of my life..

Please.......
Don't take him away..

YOU gave me him..
He's so important to me...

Please......
I really need him..

~God.. I really love him..~

~I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you~

"There will always be problems to work out with your other half. That is simply part of two people becoming one. It is never easy and takes lots of love,patience, time, communication, and commitment."

Others are not important..
You're the only one..

Hope you can see and understand that..

~I miss you already..~

7 September 2007

Baby's 19th birthday..

I couldn't accompany him the whole day because the both of us are working..
I managed to meet him at Intercontinental hotel where he's filming..
Bought him a small cake..
Had dinner with baby, darren, cheryl tan, alicia and geno..

I'm sorry...
I know I should have gotten something more..
But that was all I could afford..

I'm glad you liked it..

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6 September 2007

Met baby for dinner after work..
Had dinner at Carnivore..
It really was A LOT OF MEAT!!!!
Saw Yi An there..
and her boyfriend..

Went to PS to catch a movie..
No Reservations...
It's a nice, touching movie..
Should watch!!! :)

Just reached home not so long ago...

Went to Max Brennar's for fondue with Baby, bro n minnie..
Nice fondue.. :)

Been thinking alot today...
Can't really put them down into words though....

~Do I still mean as much as I used to?~

Baby's filming....
Can't really remember the name of that movie...
(Think it's called Dance of the Dragon..)
But it's a collaboration between local actress Fann Wong, some Korean star and Hollywood actor Jason Scott Lee..

So proud of you baby...
Don't tire yourself out ok?

Haven't seen you in a while...
Miss you a lot.....

Hope you miss me too!
XOXO

Baby...
I miss you..

When you told me that you might fail a module..
I wanted to sms you a reply but you called..
So I shall write the reply here..

Baby..
No matter how you did..
Or how you'll do..
Don't worry..
I'll be here for you..
We'll walk through this together..
Hand in hand..

~I love you.. *muacks* ~

The block suddenly look red..
Looks scary..
Guess why?

Some bunch of people burning the paper house and everything..
Funeral..

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Yesterday was Lion City..
The couples were good..
REAL good..
Makes me miss dance..
Sigh...

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Baby and I have been together for a year as of 23rd August 2007.. :)

We had our dinner at Suntec's Ichiban Boshi..
but he didn't have time to study for the next day's paper.. :(
I'm sorry..

The past year has been great..
Although there's lots of ups and downs..
I'm glad that we've made it this far..

I love you..

Somehow..
It seems that we don't know you anymore..

Your temperament..
Your thinking..

If it weren't for baby..
I don't know how I'd be able to go thru this..

You haven't exactly been very supportive..
You may have been trying to give your best for the family..
I have to say that you've done a good job at trying to keep the family going..
But I'm not sure if you're keeping the family together..

May God be with you..
Don't stress yourself out so much..
Although so much has happened..
We still love you..

The fireworks festival display is VERY GOOD..
That million dollars was really put into good use..
Designs that I've never before seen..
Flower fireworks of different colour petals..
Shimmering ones..
Multi-coloured display..

It was really beautiful..
Managed to catch it with baby, clar n brian..
then we went to Coffee Club for dinner/supper..

Came home..
Got scolded..

Do you want to know the reason why I detest coming home early?
Do you EVEN want to know?

You nag at me everytime I reach home..
I know I can't expect you to give me anything..
but it's be nice to know that you care..
that you would ask how I'm doing..

All my life..
I feel..
Has been dictated by you..
My schools..
The part I want to walk..

You disapproved of my friends..
My dressing..
Everything..

I don't think I'm asking for much..
All I had hoped for was for someone to appreciate me..
and to just acknowledge what I've done..
and have you?

You were always absent during important events..
Somehow, something always had to crop up..
You say that you regret it..
So what?

Some promises made were never carried out..
and can I blame you for that?

You said your mental health is declining..
I say..
that if you continue doing what you're doing now..
I'll definitely be the next one..

I don't want to look in the mirror..
and all I see are reflections of you..

I want to live a life of MY OWN..
not manipulated or dictated by anyone..
Especially you..

~I don't know how much more of this I can take before I break..~

I love the way you stretch out your arms to hug me especially when I'm feeling upset..
Your arms..
Your hugs..
Warm..
Gives me comfort..
Makes me feel secure..

Your outstretched arms give..
a welcoming feel..

I can hear your heart beat in tune with mine..
Your embrace..

In your arms is where I belong..

~I thank God for you..~

Having you call me up in the morning is a rarity..
It's a fresh start that I love..

I love to hear your voice in the morning..
Brightens up my day..

I don't know how you feel about hearing mine in the morning..
Maybe you're already used to hearing it..
I hope you don't find me irritating or boring..

Have been working OT for the past 2 days..
Very tiring..
Work for more than 12 hrs..
Whole body aching..
Stiff shoulders..

The thought of being able to hear you or see you at the end of the day keeps me going on..

See you in dreamland baby..
*muacks*

You're the only reason why I go to sleep at night..
Your voice helps me rest peacefully..

You're the only reason why I want to wake up every morning..
To greet you the first thing in the morning..

You're the only reason why I look forward to the end of the day..
To be able to meet up with you for dinner..

Days without you are long and dreary..
I can't go on without tears in my eyes..

The heavy-hearted feeling..
The stabbing pains in my heart..

I miss you baby..

I'm sorry......

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A little something for you...

You mean so much to me
More than I could ever say
And even if you don't believe
I mean it in every way

Whenever we're together
Nothing can go wrong
And I know
With you is where I belong

Whenever we're together
I thank God I'm alive
With you by my side
I know I can survive

You take away my sadness
You take away my pain
This feeling when I'm with you
Is nothing I can explain

I wish I could be with you
All throughout each day
Therefore the smile on my face
Would never have to go away

I know you understand
That I'm in a constant fight
And you're one main reason
Why my life is worth the fight

You've always been there for me
No matter what I've gone thru
So I just want to take take this time to say
Thank you and I love you.....

And on a hind note..
Tasha is really very adorable..
She's really VERY CUTE!!!!



See!!!!
She looks so sweet when she smiles too!
And I love her eyes..
Like a hint of grey......
With brown..

Went to meet baby after he knocked off..
Yup..
He's working now..

Had supper with him, dar, walter, joe n another chef at Oasis (near the National Stadium)..

Nice food.. :)

Baby..
I'm glad you're happy working there..

Work hard k?

Oh...
and also...

Thank you SO MUCH for coming down to church today although you were tired 'cause you didn't sleep..
Thank you..

Love you lots..
*muacks*

Clar dearie..
I hope you enjoyed your birthday..
Although I wasn't able to see you personally, I'm glad you liked the present.. :)

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There's this "Spider Pig" song found in The Simpsons' Movie that baby is so crazy over..
It goes something like....

spider pig..spider pig..does whatever a spider pig does..can he swing.. from a web.. no he cant he's a pig... look out!!!

I changed it to....

Baby pig.. Baby pig.. Baby cute cute my baby pig.. Baby smart.. Baby sweet.. Baby handsome.. Baby pig..

Haha.. :)

~ I love my darling baby.. ~

I think of the times you hold me..
It's those times that the worst of days turn bright..

The look in your eyes..
Your smile..
Your laughter..
Your touch..
Your voice..
Your hugs..

The gentleness..
The care..
The love..

Everything else fades..
The rest aren't important..
Only you stand out..

Losing interest in everything else..
No appetite..
Time drags on..

~ I miss you... Truck loads.. ~

Thinking back..

Baby's been a wonderful boyfriend..
I shouldn't have commented or reacted the way I did..
I'm sorry..
Sorry for making assumptions..

I've had many happy memories with you..
But it seems that you weren't that happy with me..

I'm sorry that I inferred things the way I did
And that I made you angry because of the way I reacted to the situation
I wont blog about this kind of things anymore

I'll keep the memories..
Hope you'll keep whatever wonderful memories you have too..

And I hope that we'll be able to make more memories together..

~I love you, baby..~

Baby's trying to get a new dance partner..
Probably going to dance with this girl..

Suddenly wonder if I should stop dancing..
One reason would be because I am still partnerless..
Not that I don't want to find one..
More of I can't find one..

Nikki said that if I really love dance..
I should carry on..

I don't know..

I do like to dance..
But the one I want to dance with won't dance with me..

I know I'm not a good dancer..
Posture wrong..
No force..
No techniques..
Not good at it at all..

You say people should know their limits..
But I don't want to give up..
Or should I?

Finished reading the book "The Five People You Meet in Heaven"..

Here are a few quotes from the book that I find extremely meaningful..

"Strangers are the family you have yet to come to know."

"People say they 'find' love, as if it were an object hidden by a rock. But love takes many forms, and it is never the same for any man and woman."

"Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive."

It's a book worth reading..
Lots of descriptive phrases..
Teach you a few things as well..
About life and death, sacrifice, loyalty, forgiveness and love..

Do pick up the book if you have the chance..
Read and digest..

Baby came down to fetch me from work..
Accompanied me for interview..
Had dinner at China Square with me..
Went to Toast Box for a snack.. (please don't ever go there.. Ya Kun's much better..)

Found out that baby and I have similar thinkings with regards to certain things.. :p

Went to Esplanade..
Max Brenner's!!!!!!
Baby had Suckao (it's a drink.. using chocolate and milk to "boil" DIY style) and I had American Chocolate..
Yummy!!!

Thank you for paying for everything baby..

Sorry for making you angry..
Hope you liked the mangosteens..