Back frm lunch.. spent a BOMB on.. ahem..

Had lunch at Golden shoe as usual.. met Ker Hsien.. ate duck rice..

Was so tempted to get a bowl of dessert.. bt thot twice cos I'm really putting on weight.. I'm like SOOOO heavy now.. and it's nt helping tt my tummy's getting bigger.. n my butt probably is too.. sigh.. the results of eating n sitting down.. sigh..

Have anyone of u thot... what would u do if u gt pregnant now.. or for guys.. if ur gf gt pregnant now..

I was reading an article yest sm guys leave the gals.. some stayed together.. some decided to abort.. others decided to raise the child themselves while some gave the child up for adoption..

Sm ppl do it cos of a moment's pleasure.. sm is out of curiousity.. whatever it is.. there was little or no precaution taken.. hence the prob..

If it were me.. I guess.. I wun want dear to take responsibility even if he wants to.. for the simple reason cos I dun wanna burden him for life.. I mean it's like a lifetime commitment.. we're all too young.. no one really knows how to handle this kinda prob.. tt's y we shouldn't do it in the 1st plc.. in this case.. we can prevent having this kinda prob and the risk of getting STDs..

In the office.. sitting beside Lily.. listening to her talk abt her daughter who's in the sch of commando.. so cool! She's doing air.. can do sky-diving.. pack parachutes.. dangerous.. like.. how many ppl's lives are in ur hands?!?

I've nt personally known any female commandos.. I guess she's the 1st.. although it's nt personal bt.. at least it's smtg.. :p

I'm tired.. dear's tired.. wonder how dar's doing..

Tmr's poly forum event starts at 8am.. like HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GOING TO GET UP AND REACH THERE ON TIME?!?

Then... it ends at 4 and I've gotta rush down to ecp cos bbq starts at 5.. nvm.. I'll reach by 6.. *hopes*

I dun even know how to go to ecp frm sch.. sigh.. take the mrt to bedok.. then take bus.. or smtg like tt...

Back!

I went to take a stroll down to Warung Nasir.. it's nt tt bad a plc.. small.. bt ok.. and guess what the surprise was?

I know tt Kelvin.. Kelvin Chan.. ex-manager of Renn Thai.. we worked together b4.. tt time we didn't have dinner so we went upstairs to Breeks to eat.. he gave me a treat.. then we went drinking once with Agus.. yup..

He couldn't recognise me.. and I dun expect him to.. bt I rmb him.. :)

Another... 1 over hr & I'll be done for the day.. gotta rush down to nyp to help nat with her grading.. *hope she passes*

Dear's working.. Dar's at home.. I'm working.. or supposed to be rather..

They're selling Sara Lee's ice cream downstairs.. looks tempting bt I'm supposed to be on diet.. like real.. I juz dun wanna grow fat.. cos I alr am gaining weight..

Today's Min-Li's (lawyer) b'day.. she's alr gt 3 bouquets of flowers.. one came in a rectangular vase.. with pink "gel" as the bottom.. stones.. and pink roses stuck into it.. V nice.. the other 2 are BIG bouquets.. v sweet.. :)

Gd morning..

Today dear woke up grudgingly.. His mum went to the mkt to buy stuff and it's alr 9.05 so he was angry with her..

Dear.. dun be like tt k? I'm sure ur mum didn't mean for u to be late to sch last time and I'm sure she wun want u to be late for work too.. dun blame her k...?

Ever heard of the phrase "Look and how a man treats his mum and that's how he'll treat his wife"? If u haven't.. I'm telling u tt this phrase exists..

Take care kk?

Dar.. I know u're down with fever.. how's it been for u? Drink more water.. take gd care.. get well soon..

Nth to do.. AGAIN.. I've finished everything I could.. it's either I'm TT efficient.. or there really is nth left for me to do..

VERY GD.. now I can officially SLACK.. can nap! Haha.. maybe.. :P doze a little n try... heheh..

Too bad can't use the phone.. even if I could.. there aren't many ppl I can call.. n can't talk for a long time oso.. so... too bad..

Of all the times to get a headache.. I have it now.. VERY gd.. I oso dunno how.. no med..

Dear's bz today.. he had lots to do.. only had his break at ard 4.. my hp's flat.. so cannot use..

Talked to Kelvin, a manager from Warung Nasir Wurung by the bay quite a bit these 2 days.. had to settle food voucher stuff with him.. kinda felt like a telemarketer.. -_-"

Aft reading the newspapers.. I found out a lot..

The end of times is nearing.. there are alr wars n rumors of wars.. antichrist.. natural disasters.. epidemic.. perverse human race..

Wars n rumors of wars.. need I even say? The Iraq war stirred up lots of strive.. the Al Qaeda and other grps are terrorising the world.. bombing ppl and themselves along with them.. and they think it's holy to do so...

Antichrist.. if u do nt alr know.. someone claiming to be Jesus Christ is coming to Sg.. tt's a blasphemy of Jesus' name..

Natural disasters.. even if u do nt read the newspaper.. I'm sure u've heard smtg abt it.. Hurricane Katrina and Rita? Okok.. how abt smtg closer to us.. the Tsunami? There's also a typhoon - Typhoon Damrey tt hit Vietnam juz yest.. and does it even seem "coincidental" tt they're occurring close to each other?

Epidemic.. ok.. maybe u wun call this an epidemic.. bt the no of dengue cases are on the constant increase, despite measures being taken to prevent the mosquitoes from breeding.. the death toll and the no of ppl infected by the mosquitoes have increased drastically.. and it's still nt considered an epidemic?
What's more.. there's oso the avian virus.. a.k.a bird flu tt's only in the region.. the virus has mutated itself and can even infect dogs now..
Is THIS considered an epidemic now?

The perverse human race.. I cannot say anything more.. it's alr shown in the world.. Hurricane Katrina hit one city tt was due to host a big event.. a big HOMOSEXUAL event in which homosexuals can parade the streets naked and copulate in the open.. and the best thing? The officials aren't doing anything abt it.. cos it's a "tourist attraction" tt brings "life" to the dead city..
More and more teenagers are experimenting with drugs and sex..
Abortion rates are on the rise..
Nudity has become an art..
Abstinence isn't taught.. it's implied..
What's taught is.. "Practice safe sex"
Need I say more???

The world is coming to an end.. soon.. it can be more soon that u expect..

We should start preparing ourselves to welcome our Saviour's return..

I'm bored.. LITERALLY.. I've gt NTH to do.. both Annie n Joye are out.. n I've finished what they've gotten me to do.. so I've gt nth to do..

Pls make time pass faster.. I wanna go for lunch..

Yest I made dear angry with me.. I'm sorry.. I know tt I should have went home to rest.. I'm in the wrong..

Watched The Myth.. it's a nice show.. really.. the song is v nice too.. hope tt someone can help me find the song.. title's "EndlessLove" by Jackie Chan and I dunno who.. I want the chinese/korean version..

Went down to look for dear aft tt.. then he sent me home..

Reached home and gt a dressing down frm my dad.. sigh..

Cried quite a bit yest.. so my eyes are a little puffy n swollen today..

Will be going to pay a visit to Shi Shi later.. she's down with dengue and is recuperating at SGH.. A bunch of us will be going to visit her later.. We'll be mtg at 7, Outram MRT.. Doesn't really make a diff where we're mtg.. Cos Raffles is situated in the middle.. so it's v convenient.. it'll be more troublesome for Lloyd if he's going cos it's frm Tampines to Outram..

Kk.. gotta go back to work..

Juz came back frm queensway shopping centre.. bought tea egg n muah chee to eat.. mmm.. nice..

No.. I didn't go there for recreation bt to collect stuff..

Gotta go back to work..

In the office.. in the office.. haha..

Did A LOT of filing today.. going to do some more.. later going out to queenstown with joye.. yup..

Dear's 1st day at work! I've the kinda "mother-like" feeling when her kids go to sch for the 1st day.. whether he'll get bullied.. whether he'll get used to the job.. the food.. how's the ppl there.. how's the management..

I know.. he's no 7 year old kid.. he's alr 17 going on 18.. so I guess I shouldn't worry so much.. haha..

Sigh.. I'm going to change plc!

No more privacy.. No more a corner seat of my own.. I'll be in the Admin n Accts room.. tt cramp plc.. sigh.. nt tt I've gt any right to complain anyway..

Dear's gt a job!

I dunno whether to be happy.. or sad.. happy cos he'll at least have smtg to do and nt juz rot at home.. and he'll have some $$ at the end of it.. sad cos he's working in a restaurant.. so tt means lunch and dinner hrs.. which.. as usual.. is 11-3, 6-10.. So his only break is 3-6.. which is when I'm still working..

I'll get to see lesser of him.. I dunno when is his off day.. I dun want him to work on sundays.. bt if they need him to.. I dun think I can do anything abt it either..

I'll be able to talk to him lesser.. like he'll be tired aft work.. then the only possible time tt we can talk would probably be during his train ride.. which wun be a long time cos of the tunnels.. when he reach home he'll prob take a bath and head to bed..

Nvm.. what to do..

I'll still love him all the same..

Dear.. another song..

Love will find a way - Lion King 2 OST

In a perfect world
One we've never known
We will never need
To face the world alone

They can have the world
We'll create our own
I may not be brave or strong or smart
But somewhere in my secret heart

I know
Love will find a way
Anywhere I go
I'm home
If you are there beside me

Like dark
Turning into day
Somehow we'll come thru
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way

I was so afraid
Now I realise
Love is never wrong
And so it never dies

There's a perfect world
Shining in your eyes

And if only they could feel it too
The happiness I feel with you

They'll know
Love will find a way
Anywhere we go
We're home
If we are there together

Like dark
Turning into day
Somehow we'll come thru
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way

I know
Love will find a way

Dear.. This song's for u..

Come What May - Ewan McGregor, Nicole Kidman (Moulin Rouge OST)

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I’ve never seen the sky before
Want to furnish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you, until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn’t seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there’s no mountain too high, no river too wide
Sing out this song and I’ll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may go by
But I love you ( I love you), until the end (until the end) of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Oh come what may
Come what may
I will love you (I will love you)

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

I'm alr in the office.. doing filing again (as usual) bt this time is filing PDX.. (dun ask me what they are.. I have no idea)

Yest was some day.. I went home aft church n slept in.. slept for coming to 6 hrs and am still tired..

Daddy wanted me to break up with dear.. said tt I should concentrate on my studies and all.. tt he's nt the right one for me and all.. said a lot of stuff.. what I totally didn't like abt it.. wasn't tt he was telling me all this.. bt tt he went thru my sms.. and he put down my calls JUZ COS he was going thru my sms.. like.. WHERE IS THE PRIVACY?!?I'm alr 18.. if u dun like my bf.. FINE WITH ME.. I respect what u say.. I respect u.. and I expect some kinda respect in return.. the LEAST u could do was to respect my privacy.. is it tt hard?!?

Dear and I talked abt it.. and we cried over it.. bt he promised me tt we'll walk thru this together.. him.. me.. and God.. as long as God allows it.. we'll put it thru..

Sat was grading.. aft tt we went to the mac opposite Ulu Pandan CC to have lunch cum dinner.. Marcus (big) gave us a palm reading session.. and my had the "I wun wanna look for a bf in future" - nt cos we have probs bt cos of other reasons.. yest.. when my dad told me all this.. I suddenly thot of tt and tt yah.. if we really were to break up.. I wun find another bf.. nt cos we'll quarrel or anything.. bt cos my dad always disapproves of my bf.. and IF I dun get married in future.. I think I know the reason..

Dun worry.. IF tt really happens.. I'll take care of myself.. juz as I've promised.. and u.. have to do as u've said..

Till then..

I love u..

Both yest n today have been VERY tiring..

It was raining heavily yest.. I gt drenched going for lunch.. Sm ppl aren't tt bad aft all.. one guy offered to share an umbrella with me.. I couldn't resist the offer..

Did filing for P&C files for the whole day and rushed off aft work for training.. Celebrated Jing Long's b'day..

Today.. is the same.. I've been staring at the same files all morning.. Juz finished with them n I've gt ANOTHER batch of files to do.. So I either hurry up n finish them.. or I take my own sweet time.. I would choose the former.. cos I dun wanna stare at the files.. nor the papers.. makes me feel like slping..

Going for lunch.. prob would lunch in.. Oh.. I had lunch at BK with the KSS gals yest.. yah.. n will be having BBQ later in church for the gals only.. :)

I'm back frm getting more work..

Now I've gotta do up sm foreign lawyers' data..

The thing abt working in legal firms or banking sectors is tt u're sworn to secrecy.. NTH is allowed to be leaked else legal action will be taken against u.. which.. for my case is the easiest.. any single lawyer can do tt.. haha.. so everything muz shhhhh...

I'm like so priviledged during this attachment.. I get to see almost everything.. even P&C doc.. (P&C: Private & Confidential) So.. I've gotta shhh.. haha.. gotta go back to work..

Now's lunch break.. I'm having fish ball noodles for lunch.. fishcake.. n tea..

This morning I did a whole lot of filing and created tables for tabulating the firm trip's attendance, room arrangement and visas..

Dear had swimming training today and he's now at home.. he doesn't wanna get out again later so I guess it'll be juz me again.. I'll see if dar has dinner at home.. if she does.. then I'll go home.. I'll try to find smtg to eat at home.. I hope..

Kk.. back to lunch! My stomach's yearning for food.. :P

I suddenly regret going to Joye to ask for work.. cos I've gotta do filing.. n it's A LOT.. sigh.. what to do?

Juz Do It! (Nike)

Haha.. Happy working..

Gd morning..

Once again.. I'm too early.. reached office at 8.35.. n Joye isn't here yet.. I mean even now she isn't here yet.. tt's like quite bad.. cos I've gt NTH left to do.. n having nth to do is going to reflect badly.....

I better find smtg...

Had dinner with dear n dar yest at amk's Sumo House.. there's only 1 word to discribe the food there.. SUCKS.. it's relatively low price bt it's really hard to eat.. the tempura of the tempura udon is soggy.. the yakitori and chicken teriyaki is hard.. the gyoza doesn't taste nice.. neither does the soya sauce.. and the vinegar doesn't taste like vinegar AT ALL.. what do u think of tt?!?

Anyway.. Joye's in alr.. gotta find her for work..

Dear God..
Thank U for this day tt U've so graciously given..
Pray tt I'll be able to concentrate on my work.. tt I'll nt fall aslp..
Pray tt I'll give my best n be a gd christian example during work..
Forgive me of my sins..
In Jesus' Name..
Amen.

I was blabbering away n forgot to tell u all where I'm sitting..

I'm sitted at a corner.. no.. I'm serious.. I've a wall beside me.. a wall in front of me.. and large shelves of files behind me.. Lily's on my right.. Lymond n Gillian is on the other side of the "door".. it's a pathway rather.. to the far right is the IT office.. where all the IT personnel are.. at the corridor b4 the IT office on the right is the filing room where they store files..

Yah.. so I'm in a "secluded" area.. cool huh.. haha..

I need music.. I'm going to fall aslp soon.. been staring at the excel for HOURS.. Jek Hong hasn't sent me the ppt.. bt whatever it is.. we've gotta finish it by today.. then I'll have nth left to do tmr.. hmmm.. :P

Tt's nt possible!!!

Hope tt dar's doing ok for her attachment..

God.. grant me strength to go thru the remaining hrs of the day.. help me to be a good testimony for U in the office..
Forgive me of my sins..
In Jesus' precious name.
Amen.