What do you make of a relationship?
What do you think it is?

A couple being together?
A couple learning things together?
Accepting each other - warts and all?

I would hope that we're like that..
and not like this..

Yes..
I know..
It's been ages since I last blogged..
Just to inform..
I've changed my job..
again..
Just started today..
Info-overload..

Anyway..
Nat sent me this paragraph that I feel is very true..

Most of our suffering is caused by emotions. These emotions may become unbearable by identifying with them and often may cause negative results if we follow their urge. It's important to know the difference between emotions and feelings. A feeling is an authentic sensation arising in the present moment such as love. An emotion is a reliving of a previously imprinted condition. For example because we have been hurt in the past we are acting in the present moment not out of love but out of jealousy or fear. Whenever we are emoting, we are in the past; whenever we are feeling, we are in the present.

Baby and I are doing very well..
I am very happy with him..
:)

I really don't know what You're doing..
I never knew..

You said that if we were to trust..
Things will be fine..
We did..
But look how things are..

I don't want to say..
don't want to comment..
Just hope to find out where this is leading us..
because it seems..
trust and faith is not enough..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

"When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound.
When a window shatters,
a table leg breaks,
or a picture falls off the wall,
it makes a noise.
But as for your heart,
when that breaks, it's completely silent.
You would think as it's so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell.
But it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

If there is a noise,
it's internal.
It screams and no one can hear it but you.
It screams so loudly your ears ring and your head aches.
It thrashes around in your chest like a great white caught in the sea,
it roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken.
That's what it looks like and that's what it sounds like,
a thrashing,
panicking,
trapped,
great big beast,
roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions.
But that's the thing about love;
no one is untouchable.
It's as wild as that,
as raw as an open flesh wound exposed to salty sea water,
but when it actually breaks,
it's silent,
you're just screaming on the inside but no one can hear it."
~ Cecelia Ahern, If You Could See Me Now

I Evol uoy erom naht ouy kniht i od..

Yes..
I know..
I haven't been blogging for ages..

I've been busy with work..
and school..

So here's a quick summary of all that's happened (at least most of it..)

Baby and I went to the Singapore Science Centre to catch the Da Vinci exhibition that's currently up..
This is like my first time there after an extremely long time (I think the last time I went there was in Secondary 2..)
It was really fun.. Very nice..
and the best thing was..
I got to go there with Baby..
So that made it very special..

We also went for Fiona's 21st birthday party that was held at Temasek Club..
The food was ok..
Games were... hmmm..
But it was fun over all..
lots of laughter.. :)

Yesterday,
Baby and I went out for dinner..
We were at Douby Exchange and had dinner at Just Acia..
then he told me that he wanted to go to the toilet..
and he came back with a walnut brownie from POsh..
So sweet of him.. :)

I love my baby..
*muacks*

The last 2 days has been wonderful!

Baby booked out on Sat morning cos he had duty on May Day..
Then he came over to my place to give me a surprise and fetch me over to his place..
:)

We went out with his friends to watch Wolverine..
Which is very nice..

Sunday was sweet too..
Had dinner with him..

If only everyday was like this..
mmmm..

Need I say more?
:)

You might not be able to understand this..
But somehow..
I think..
Maybe..
You feel this way..

不，完美 - 李玖哲

你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

后来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美成了 罪

完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美

I lost my handphone chain..
Very upset about it..
Literally cried the whole night..
Soaked the pillow..
Woke up with swollen goldfish eyes..

Baby was very nice about it..
Didn't scold me..
Didn't blame me..
actually consoled me..
coaxed me to go to sleep..
asked me to rest..

Thank you so much baby..
*hugz*

This song is nice..
And I think the music video is very sweet..

Love Story - Taylor Swift





We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase, begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, let's leave this town for a little while
Oh, oh

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me, I was begging you please don't go
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

Romeo save me they're tryna tell me how to feel
this love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

I got tired of waiting wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I'll keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh

We were both young when I first saw you

I really have no idea what's going on..
Whether you're like this because I did something I shouldn't have,
or didn't do something I should have,
or because you're feeling insecure,
or because of some other reason..

Whatever it is..
I'm feeling figidty..

I really want to know what's happening..
What's going on..
What's wrong..

But you just don't seem to want to tell me...
You don't seem to want to talk to me..

What should I do...

WARNING!!!
Angry words ahead.. read at your own risk!

I really am going to let it out..
I'm not going to hold it back..
and there's nothing you can do about it..
You won't even get to read this ANYWAY..

I don't care who you are to me..
But you should care who I am to you..

I am your girlfriend's BEST FRIEND..
Get this into that thick skull of yours..
IF you have any intention of marrying her..
(which you say you do)
You better get into her good friends good books..
Else it's out the window for you..

And congratulations..
I think I can foresee you falling out soon..

Even if you were only a friend..
That is something that you shouldn't do..
You PROMISED to transfer the money to me..
and you KNEW that that was the last $20 I have..
But I passed it to her because you promised to transfer $20 to me once you knock off..

In the end..
You decided to use $10 to top up your ezlink card..
and keep $10 for yourself so that you can eat..

How SELFISH can you get?
Where in the world are your ethics?!?
Or did you even have them in the first place?!?
YOU GAVE YOUR WORD!!!

And I heard every word you said..
You asked..
"If I were to give her the $20 then what am I going to survive on? What will I eat?"

COME ON!!!
I'm not that unreasonable!
If you don't have that amount to transfer to me..
then don't say that you will do it in the first place!
I trusted that you will do it!
and you ate off my livelihood!!!

As a guy, you SHOULD provide for the girl..
but you don't...
You complain when you pay for things..
but everytime when you ask her to pay for something..
It's more expensive than whatever you paid for her added up..

You keep saying that things should be settled as a couple..
But you don't react in that way..

When she said that she is feeling insecure..
You said that you will handle the money part..
When she said that you don't even have a basic salary..
You said that as long as she has a basic salary..
that's enough..
Your salary is purely commission-based..
No sales means no money..
Yet you push the blame on her to say that the reason that you're not getting sales is because of her..

HELLO?!?
How in the world is YOUR incapability to get sales her fault?
IF you want results,
WORK to get the results yourself..
Blaming your incompetence on someone else will not get you results..
It will get you NO WHERE..

What are you?
Some guy who relies on the girl to provide for his needs?
Are you EVEN a guy?

I would like to say that I don't despise you..
But I can't..

You have A LOT of redemption to do..
Not only to me..
but to dar..
and to her as well..

I'm currently working in a new place..

The people there are nice..
and I get very excited to knock off everyday..
Cause there's this company bus that will leave office by 5.40pm sharp..
so everyone who wants to take the bus will have to rush off..

For once..
I managed to leave office..
and reach home..
and STILL see sunlight..
so exciting.. :p

Today..
I had this sudden bout of sarcasm..

I saw this bunch of people sitting down in at the staircase..
I was stifling a laugh and only mentioned it when Janet asked what was so funny..
Then I said that I was about to introduce them like this:
And here you see a display of the squatters' settlement..

When told by Jenny over lunch that the bitter gourd she ordered is bitter..
My reflexive reaction was, "Was it ever sweet?"

Oh...
I miss my previous work place..
Where sarcasm can be "battled" with..
So fun...
Haha..

I think..
I found the song that will describe me and you..
'Cause the lyrics make me feel like it's the life we've been having..
In one way or another..

My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

This song..
is for you..
I really mean the lyrics..

I'd Rather - Luther Vandross

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection built on lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart

Baby..
I love you..
I really do..

ARGH...

Seriously...

IF I were you..
and I really want to get my degree, I'd get my act together and DO something about MY project..
and not be moping..
not be complaining..
and not be asking others what you can do..
what you should do..
and EXPECT that they give you STEP-by-STEP instructions..

Looking at the current pathetic state that you are in now..
and the way you're bugging my best friend..
you can ask yourself what kind of friend are you..
Do you know that she has a lot of things to do?
That she has her own degree to pursue..
She cannot be baby sitting you or spoon feeding you..

SO WHAT if we have done a business diploma before?
It doesn't warrant you any right to ask in this way..

You have the report format..
the question of the report..
You have already chosen the company and started researching on it..
Then just carry on..
DO IT..

Don't ask and ask and ask..
You're driving her crazy..
and you're driving me mad..

If I can ever see you face to face again..
I'll tell this straight to you..
You can stop studying..
Every exam..
Every project..
Every report..
You ask her for help..
MIGHT AS WELL just give her the degree..
It serves more justice..

Came home early from church to cook today cos Derrick's sick..
Mummy's still in church..
Daddy's driving..
So my bro and I decided to have a go with the kitchen..

We found out that there was nothing much that could be cooked in the freezer..
So we rummaged through the freezer and found this bag of white stuff..
Took it out..
Had it defrosted..
and started cooking..

Halfway through..
The oil level increased significantly..
It smelt horrible..
Contaminated the whole house with it's stench..
We ended up throwing it away..

We were only left with tang hoon meat ball egg soup..
and rice..

And you won't wanna know what was that bag of white stuff..
Don't ask..
I won't say either..

To be able to meet the one you love is predestined.

It take A LOT to be able to be together..
Even more to stay together..

Some people were together,
broke up,
found someone else,
broke up,
got back together,
broke up,
took a couple of years..
before they're back together again..
Just because they can't find anyone else that could fit them as well as the other could..

I know I've found my missing piece..
I know it's you..
I don't want to go through the same process that they did..

Baby..
I love you..

This song..
Speaks a lot..
If you understand..

Guo Jing - Xin Qiang

一个人眺望碧海和蓝天
在心里面那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天快乐地看每一天

Wooh～第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙
但我发现一扇窗
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光

就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化

Wooh～你的心有一道墙
你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

I can't say how true this song is to me..
you just have to figure it out..

I hope it would come to this stage though..
when there's a wall..

And even if it would come to this somehow..
That you would know..
That you would climb over that wall..
Just to enter..

Yuna Ito - trust you [PV]
by PPouet

This song is good..
I like it a lot..
The meaning of the song is good too..

Yuna Ito - Trust You

Hana wa kaze ni yure odoru you ni
Ame wa daichi wo uruosu you ni
Kono sekai wa yori soi ai ikiteru no ni
Naze hito wa kizutsuke au no?
Naze wakare wa otozureru no?

Kimi ga tooku ni itte mo mada
Itsumo kono kokoro no mangnaka
Ano yasashii egao de umetsukusareta mama
Dakishimeta kimi no kakera ni
Itami kanjite mo mada
Tsunagaru kara
Shinjiteru yo
Mata aeru to
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
Futari da kara shinjiaeru
No hanasanaide

Sekai wo hatte odare ga mita no?
Tabi no owari odare ga tsugeru no?
Ima wa kotae ga mienakute nagai yoru demo
Shinjita michi wo susunde hoshii
Sono sakimi hikari ga matsu kara

Kimi ga oshiete kureta uta wa
Ima mo kono kokoro no mangnaka
Ano yasashii koe　to　tomori hibiiteru
Afureru kimochi no shizuku ka?
Atatakaku hoho tsugau
Tsuyoku naru ne
Shinjiteru yo
Tsunagatteru to
Im always by your side

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no tame ni nagasami naga
I love you, I trust you
Ai wo oshiete kureta
Donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayotte
Mou soba ni iru yo

Waiting for your love
Always by your side
Youre the one that I love
Youre the one that I trust
Youre the only one

I love you, I trust you
Kimi no kodoku wo wakete hoshii
I love you, I trust you
Hikari demo yami demo
I love you, I trust you
Kanashimi demo yorokobi demo
I love you, I trust you
Kimi no subete wo mamoritai
Donna ni kimi ga michi ni mayotte
Mou soba ni iru yo
Futari da kara shinjiaeru
No hanasanaide

The English translation is below..

Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
So that the rain moistens the earth
Even though this world is alive, coming closer together
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?

Even if you go far away
You're still always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain completely buried by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we're still connected
I believe that we can meet again
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Please don't leave anymore

Who saw the end of the world?
Who announces the end of the journey?
Even though it's a long night and the answer can't be seen now,
I want you to move on on the road you believe in
Because from this point forth, the light is waiting for you

Even now, the song you taught me
Still remains within my heart
And echos along with that friendly voice
The overflowing tears of my feeling
Run over my warm cheek
Become strong, ne
Believe!
If we connect with each other
I'm always by your side

I love you
I trust you
The tears I shed are for your sake
I love you
I trust you
You taught me love
I love you
I trust you
No matter if you walk on the wrong path,
I'll be beside you!

I love you
I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you
I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
I love you
I trust you
Even in sadness, even in happiness
I love you
I trust you
I want to protect you completely

No matter if you're walking on the wrong path
I'll be beside you!
Because we're together, we're able to believe in each other
Please don't leave anymore