Today was physics prelim... atrocious... I didn't know how to do many qns...


I went out late on mon nite. Yah... I was supposed to be home... yet I went out... cos I was lonely... I didn't wanna go home for some reason... n no one was there to accompany me... So I gt a little mad n went down to Yishun... thankfully, EH went down n accompanied me. We went to a rather secluded plc deep in Yishun... n I saw stars! U might wonder what in the world is so significant abt stars... well... they juz are... n I saw a shooting star... v nice... :) The plc faced a 'sea'... I think it's a reservoir if I've nt mistaken... I reached home @ abt 10.30pm...


Yest was Hist paper. I guess I'm getting real drained out... it's like I can even feel like dozing off while doing a paper! I almost did tt today! During my Physics paper! What's more, tmr is my A maths paper... die... dunno how to do... n I'll oso be having SS paper tmr... so tt kinda explains y I haven't been updating my blog... hehe... getting more bz... so my blog has to be "chucked" aside till I've the time to write... I dunno what else to write... now I'm like so bz with nth else bt sch n prelims... everything seems to revolve only ard here... prelims... prelims... prelims... ARGH!!! I'm nt the only one who's going berserk rite? I guess everyone is getting a little mad... cos of prelims and what other stuff tt's happening...


I'm starting to go crazy... n a little weird... I'm starting to have "withdrawal" symptoms... yah... withdrawal frm guys... interesting huh... I dunno... I feel more n more detached frm them... somehow I dun feel anymore... hm... tt's bad... real bad... muz do smtg to stimulate my feelings... bt then again, it might be a gd thing nt to stimulate them... juz let them remain the way they r... let God do the rest... My mum was telling me yest, when u're a wife... u muz know ur priorities... muz submit to ur husband... then I stood up n said... Mummy, no pt telling me now... I'm nt going to get married... yes... I know... loneliness n all... then I muttered to myself (bt I know tt loneliness won't be as bad as hurt)... I'll think abt it as n when I get married (if I'm even going to get another bf tt is)... Whatever it is, the main priority now is to study... give my best in my academics... leave my future into God's hands... He'll do the planning for me... I know tt He'll choose the best way for me...