Had a LONG day..

IEF..

Tea session..

Mtg...

Feeling quite drained now..

I know tt I can't keep up like this for too long.. I know tt I'm overworking myself more by the day.. bt it's nt as though I can do much.. so many proj.. presentations..
I should really focus on doing my work...

The hot topic.. Lloyd.. I dunno if it's juz me.. or is everything tt he say a direct insult to me..

At times he seems ok.. bt when he starts to brag.. or when he says sm stuff.. I dun even know if it's gone thru his brain before.. maybe it did.. bt it didn't go thru his heart.. cos he apparently didn't seem to know how it felt when he started criticising..

He said tt I was the kinda gal tt "guy-hops".. tt I'll 1st find a stable one.. then go find others.. n if it doesn't work out.. I'll juz fall back on the "stable" one..

I know tt I shouldn't return an eye for an eye.. bt sometimes it's SOOO hard.. it's like.. I dunno.. many ppl dun like him.. n it's ez to fall into tt catogary cos he really is irritating..

Yet, as a christian.. I should show gd christian testimony.. which means tt I'm supposed to love my enemies as myself.. it's ezier said than done.. more so when the "victim of abuse" is myself.. frm this I can actually see tt Jesus is v great.. He's able to love His enemies even when they tortured Him, hurled abuses at Him and ridiculed Him..

Human as we are.. we are prone to sin.. anger.. bitterness.. n most definitely revenge.. when ppl insult us.. the usual rebuttal is to defend urself.. to shoot down whatever u think is false.. If u study into the life of Jesus.. u'll actually come to see tt He nv once did tt.. n it takes a lot of patience.. and humility..

Can I do tt?

God.. help me.. let me be a candle in the dark.. though small bt still shining bright...