I didn't blog yest.. n it's nt on purpose.. I reached hm @ abt 12.. the com was defragmenting so I didn't blog..

Have u ever felt so empty? Like as though u've lost smtg.. or smone for tt matter.. Have u wanted smone to stay real badly bt he/she has to leave or wants to? Have u experienced ur love one in ur arms gasping for air.. longing for smone.. wanting to leave u n all u can do is to call the person back.. to hold on to tt person? If it were u.. could u have handled it? Would u have cried n juz stoned there? Or would u have done smtg?

I cried yest.. yah.. cos of her.. I cried.. abt 3 to 4 hrs.. I cried so hard tt my eyes were red, puffy n swollen.. I was almost unable to put my lens in..

When the guys tried to make me laugh today, I almost ended up crying.. sigh.. emotional imbalance again.. nt gd.. hafta find the balance again.. God.. help me.. Help me trust in U.. Help me to plc all my cares n worries on U.. nt to take them upon myself.. Help me to lean upon UR understanding n nt to think tt I can do it on my own.. God.. help me to know when to let go.. help me know what to do..