Ok.. I somewhat rmb what I wanted to write...

I met Richard on Fri.. he passed me my b'day pressie.. it was smtg he made.. a piece of wood with my name carved on it.. then I saw a box of Marbolo Mentol in his bag.. I was like.."what is this doing with u.." then he was quite nonchalent when he said tt it's his..

So he either smokes.. or he knows tt I hate smoking.. tt's y he purposely put it there.. I dunno.. n even when ppl tell me nt to blame myself.. I feel partially to be blamed.. If I hadn't.. he'd prob nt be smoking.. or he'd nt need to lie to me tt he is..

I was so upset tt day.. I was abt to cry bt crying wun solve anything.. n I gt to work.. so I couldn't..

Thank God for dear.. He came down n acc me.. even if it was juz for a short period of time.. at least he was there..

Dear.. I know tt I'm unreasonable.. n I prob am getting worst.. I'm so sorry... there're juz things tt I've gotta make sure.. things tt I've gotta see.. know.. prioritise..
IF.. I no longer want to spend so much time with u..
IF.. I dun talk to u so much frm now..
I'm sorry..
It's nt cos I dun care abt u anymore.. I still do...