Haven't been able to blog for sometime.. passed my lan card to MEL to get it exchanged.. and I can only get it back today..

The past few days was bad.. it feels like he's losing feeling for me.. everything.. feels different..

What can I expect.. it's my fault.. I cant expect tt he come back to me.. or tt he'll give me another chance at it anyway..

I'm trying.. I dun even know if I'm trying to forget.. or trying to get him back..

I still love him.. I really still do..

He's losing the warmth in his hugs.. the spark in his eyes..
Even when I wanna hug him.. I dunno if I still should.. cos his hugs feel different..

I would rather...
rmb the way he used to hug me n look at me..
the warmth he used to give me..
the love, care n concern tt he used to provide..
the security tt he willingly n selflessly gave..
I miss all those..

Many a times ppl only miss things or ppl when they're gone..
This..
1 of the 2 things tt I regret doing..
Giving him up..

I...
hope it's still not too late for regrets..

A rlsp is like a piece of paper.. fragile in ways.. bt it can also be written on.. all the happenings can be written on tt piece of paper.. and if God allows.. it can become a book..
Crumpled paper can be ironed out.. although there'll be creases here and there.. it shows how much a couple's been thru..

If I'm still worth it.. tell me..
If I'm nt.. I'll walk out of ur life.. n sincerely hope and pray tt u'll find someone better than me.. someone who u'll love more than me.. n someone who'll love u more than me..

ceng jing you yi duan zhi zhen de ai qing fang zai wo mian qian dan wo mei zhen xi, deng dao shi qu de shi hou cai hou hui mou ji.
ren shi jian zui tong ku de shi mo guo yu ci, ru guo you tian ke yi duo gei wo yi ci ji hui de hua, wo hui dui ni suo san ge zi: wo ai ni.
ru guo yi ding yao zai zhe fen ai jia yi ge qi xian, wo xi wang shi yi wan nian.