I woke up late for IBSM workshop yest..
Ok.. I know.. I shouldn't make any excuses.. bt I really was v tired..
Didn't slp the nite b4.. last nite slpt late cos of painting.. then I forgot to set my alarm n only woke up aft diana called..

I'm sorry..
I'm nt out for fame or acknowledgement.. it's juz tt there're smtgs tt u've juz gotta do urself.. if I didn't initiate this.. I dunno when will things get done..

N u changed ur password..
maybe cos u're angry with me..
u said u're disappointed n upset..
I really didn't mean to be late..

He's staying over in sch today..
I dunno how to feel..
it's like "the old times"..
bt yet nt..

He cut his hand today cos of the glass..
n I asked a stupid qns..
to him.. it'd be the obvious..
bt I really didn't know where he gt cut..
so I asked if he cut the top of the hand..
Ok..
I should have juz used my eyes..
my fault..
I shouldn't have talked to him n asked him abt the banner stuff too..
should have juz asked someone to do it..
so tt I wun seem so irritating..

However..
I thank God for the chance.......
to be able to see him.. cos it means I still have my sight..
to be able to talk to him.. cos tt means I still have my voice..
to hear him talk.. although unpleasant at times.. cos it shows tt I still have my hearing..
to be able to smell his perfume.. cos it implies tt I still have my sense of smell..
to touch him.. cos it tells me tt I haven't lost my sense of touch..

N in all..
should I repress my feelings?
or show them?

~Pain is always existent... it's up to you to face it.. I'm trying to change....~