Thx for all the concern.. I know what I'm doing..

I know tt I should live my life for Christ n nt for anyone else.. even myself..

It's juz my way of facing it..
I really do love him..
even more than my life..
Bt I wun take my life away cos of tt..

It's v upsetting to see him treat me the way he does now..
Maybe it's my fault..
bt everyone's telling me tt I shouldn't keep blaming myself..

Negative thinking isn't it..
bt all in all..
it's cause n effect..
if I didn't cause it..
there wun be this effect..

Tt's how I view it..
tt's y I keep saying tt it's my fault..

Maybe if we had let it dragged on.. it would have gotten worst..
maybe nt..

Whatever's happened has alr happened..
I'm nt able to turn back time..
I can only work frm here..
n hope n pray..

I'm nt going to give up on him..