Juz back.. went to my maternal grandparents plc today aft work..

Today's sermon was gd.. on "abstaining frm fornication".. Fornication.. is an illicit sexual intercourse.. to abstain is to hold one's self off or to refrain.. n.. tt it's impt to preserve both our bodies n souls pure n holy cos they're temples of the Holy Ghost.. so we're forbidden frm all unchaste actions, gestures, words, thots, desires, and whatever can entice men thereto.. so.. we should all ABSTAIN.. we muz appreciate our body.. cos.. we're all responsible for what we do..

Wow.. the stuff these 2 days seem to have a direct impact on me.. yah.. 1st was the bs yest.. struggling within urself.. today is this.. wow.. now I see.. tt nt everytime things r "like tt".. messages n BS do cater to u.. at different pts of ur life.. u should listen..

I feel tt I'm.. confused.. I juz did smtg w/o asking God.. n.. like what Pastor said.. if we wanna do smtg.. if we think tt it's ok.. y can't we pray abt it? I wasn't thinking.. wasn't asking.. juz jumped into it.. so I'm in a dilemma.. I feel so afraid.. n I can come up with a hundred n one reasons.. haha.. tt's like SOOOO ME.. :P

Dear.. I dunno what I'm doing.. I dunno y I said what I did.. n I think I'm really causing u to worry.. I'm sorry.. really am.. maybe I shouldn't have done anything.. maybe it'd be better if u'd continue on ur own.. maybe I'm juz nt suitable to be there for u.. maybe u should juz leave me the way I am..